Last night's dream
I haven't open this for some time, now. I've been doing good so far. We haven't chat since the day I said goodbye. But, last night's dream lead me to this entry.
Doctor's episode 15 was my last though. Good night lullaby was the last song I heard. I haven't seen anything related to him from news feed since,I unfollowed our common friends. I did everything that I can just to get rid of everything that reminds me of him but,why do I dream of him?
It was a clear view of him... wearing the outfit he's wearing in his profile picture with a smile on his face that caught my attention back then... In that dream, I was with my office friends until someone called me to say that there is someone looking for me, as I turn my back, there he is, walking towards me with that killer smile on his face. He kissed me on the cheeks, told me he missed me, asked me why I am no longer sending messages to him. At that moment, I just smiled, sit beside him silently without breaking the eye contact and then, I fell asleep on his shoulders when I woke up, he's already gone... He left me with a letter and things that I don't know what to do with. On that dream, I did not read the letter, I just scanned the items he left with that letter. Those are photos of him with the girl he last considered as his girlfriend... the photo I gave him in exchange with his graduation picture. I felt the pain he's been through... I saw how serious he was with that girl... When I decided to read the letter he wrote, I wake up.
I woke up with tears falling from my eyes. Is it a nightmare?
When will I forget you, completely?
Love,
M














