Reality Bites.

Depression is an art I've already mastered.

[myowninfinity]

The day you realize you have lost me is the day you will realize that I have never been worth it.

You will look into my eyes once more and realize that it never reflected the blueness of the ocean.

You will kiss my lips again and think that I never had depth, much less a soul.

You will hate me so much.

You will curse at everything that reminds me of you.

You will hate me when it rains, because you will remember how we danced under it in our formal wears while everyone looked at us as if we were psychos.

You will hate me when you walk by Pearl Street, because you will remember how we sat down on the middle of the street, looking at the stars at 3:30 in the morning.

You will hate me when you taste vodka, because you will remember the fire of my kiss as you savor your favorite drink.

You will remember me when you see the ocean, because you will remember when we got so drunk we drove to the nearest beach just to sit by the shore and enjoy the moonlight.

You will remember me everywhere, in everything, in everyone - and you will hate me.

You will hate me because I broke your heart, and I wasted your time.

You will realize that I was never worth it.

You will realize that you have lost me.

But then later on I hope you also realize that it's not that I was not worth it.

I was just not the one for you, as you are not the one for me.

[myowninfinity]

"What do they want from me? Maybe I don't want to be the Spelling Bee champion. Maybe I don't care... Then I step back and watch their faces collapse." - The stories so far, Jessica Zafra. Maybe I don't care as well.

[meandiary]

THE MEAN DIARY

[myowninfinity]

Really you don't remember? How sad. Gusto ko sana i-kwento kung pano mo ko pinangalanan ng Malfoy pero wag na lang. Kasi baka makilala mo ko. Hehe. :)

Even just the plot? Not the whole story. Maybe it would help me remember. I'm really sorry for being too forgetful :(

[myowninfinity]

di ko alam kung sinasakyan mo lang trip ko or what.haha first time mo kasi gumamit ng emoticon na wink. tapos lutang ka na naman,di naalala na may tinawag ka na malfoy,

Lagi naman akong lutang. At gusto ko lang talaga gumamit ng ganung emoticon, trip lang. Lol :))

[myowninfinity]

You're the one who called me malfoy. Haha. I thought you would know it. Haha. By the way ms. myowninfinity thank you for giving me your attention. It makes me so happy. Hehe. Take care. -malfoy

I was the one who called you Malfoy? Really? When and where? Sorry, I can't remember :(

[myowninfinity]

I think it is a must to ask in english here. lol Do you? :)

It's not. People just automatically think that they should ask questions in english, but it's okay. Kahit naman tagalog okay lang :)

[myowninfinity]

you used a wink emoticon! why?haha

I just wanted to :)

[myowninfinity]

Di ako si Collin ah. Sino ba yun? Lalaki mo ba yun? Haha

'Di ba ikaw si Collin? Okay, pahiya ako konti. Haha. And hindi lalaki si Collin, mas babae pa sa'kin 'yon minsan. And wala akong lalaki ngayon. Lol :)

[myowninfinity]

why do you answer all the questions here in english?

I am mostly comfortable in expressing myself in English. I feel like I'm more understandable, and besides a lot of people have already told me that I make little sense when I try to explain in tagalog. So yeah. :))

[myowninfinity]

Hey Ms. myowninfinity. Don't Forget to eat okay? Take Care always. Okay? Rest well. Don't stress yourself to not important things. Stop Over Thinking. Okay? See you soon. -malfoy

Thank you for caring, Malfoy. Take care too ;)

[myowninfinity]

siguro.haha pati sa meaning deep

You are Collin. Hi Collin :) Hindi naman ako deep, akala niyo lang 'yon. And for the record, mas deep ka sa'kin. (Tapos pahiya pala ako kasi hindi pala ikaw si Collin. Lol)

[myowninfinity]

Really? Try to guess who I am. I tell the truth if you're correct. -malfoy

I really have no idea, I guess. You kind of lost me at Malfoy. I can't recall any friend of mine who likes Malfoy or uses Malfoy as pseudo. :)

[myowninfinity]

Do you have gender issues? aren't you confused?

I never really thought about it, but as far as I'm concerned I have never experienced confusion with regards to my gender. I have always known that I'm a girl, and so far there has been no occurrence or person that made me doubt. :)

[myowninfinity]

may ask ka na ulit! haha I can bombard you with questions. Why myowninfinity?

Are you Collin? You sound like Collin. Haha :)) I believe in infinity, and in the concept of forever. And I also believe that we all have our own versions of it, so I have my own version of infinity. Did that make sense? :))

[myowninfinity]

You take care always. Okay?

I will. Take care of yourself too :)

[myowninfinity]

I don't like. You're a smart girl. More clues will give you a hint on who I am. :). I'll just remain secret. You're very popular here. Hehe. I'm so proud. -malfoy

I'm not popular :) Well, I do have a feeling that I know you. :))