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~~I write Mystic Messenger fics | BTS~~ ❤ sideblog:@chim-mini-min

[ao3-bts]

Hello ! I wanted to know if you had and unrequited love type of situation for yoonmin or any angst in general but no suicide or mental illness?? Even if you don’t thank you for taking your time to read 🖤🖤🖤

i want you (so please look at me) by chim_chimni

Actions Speak Louder Than Words by heukhaneul

Them Red Roses Tho (It’s Valentine’s Day) by a_lonely_whale666666

Bring Me Flowers by a_lonely_whale666666

The Taste of Camellias by Hawthorn42

AKAI ITO by Goldenamkoo

[yoonminbookshelf]

Hello! Love you guys loads and the recs are 10/10. Wondering if there are any where hobi is the result of alot of angst in the story? (Soz hobi ;-;) like where jimin likes yoongi but yoongi is in love with hobi etc Thanks so much!!

i want you (so please look at me) is my favorite!

[aikimei]

Jimin BTS ships! :B

[twoy-deactivated20210730]

bts giving jimin love when he’s starving for affection

[chim-mini-min]

As some of you know, I write bts fanfiction on ao3 under the name of ‘chimchimni’~ (please go check out my writing if you have time ^^) 

I found out a while ago I’ve failed a course because I’ve been absent with some mental health issues, mostly depression and suicidal thoughts. My grandma has been admitted into the hospital just last month and I don’t want to burden my parents with my university tuition so here I am, pretty desperate~ 

And if anyone wants to support this poor uni student: buy me a kofi and I will be eternally grateful~ >3< 

[ao3feed-yoonmin]

i want you (so please look at me)

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2yR9MhA

by shazzarrr

“Stop hiding and just go back to the register!” Taehyung hisses into his ear. “You look absolutely ridiculous.”

Jimin has to agree because he feels just that squatting behind the coffee counter.

“Is he still looking over here?” he whispers back to Taehyung.

Taehyung straightens up and shakes his head. “He’s not.”

He cautiously peeks out from behind the tall counter to make sure the blonde boy with his leather jacket wasn’t there anymore.

OR

In which, Park Jimin falls in love with Min Yoongi and it doesn’t take him long for him to realise that Yoongi is in love with Hoseok.

Words: 2996, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/M, M/M

Characters: Park Jimin (BTS), Min Yoongi | Suga, Kim Taehyung | V, Jeon Jungkook, Jung Hoseok | J-Hope, Kim Seokjin | Jin, Kim Namjoon | Rap Monster

Relationships: Min Yoongi | Suga/Park Jimin, Kim Namjoon | Rap Monster/Kim Seokjin | Jin

Additional Tags: Pining, Park Jimin Is a Sweetheart, Kim Taehyung | V & Park Jimin Are Best Friends, Dancer Park Jimin, Light Angst, Min Yoongi | Suga Is Bad at Feelings, Jung Hoseok | J-Hope & Min Yoongi | Suga Are Best Friends, Alternate Universe - College/University, Basketball Player Min Yoongi | Suga, yoonmin, slight jikook, Min Yoongi | Suga Is Whipped, Min Yoongi | Suga Being an Asshole, just the beginning tho, Really slight coffeeshop au

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2yR9MhA

[ao3feed-yoonmin]

eternity is a joke i want to believe in forever

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2t7CTez

by chimchimni

Jimin remembers the start and the end of their relationship.

Maybe he loved a little too much or maybe it was because Yoongi got tired of him but it all ended with yelling and screaming, flinging words aimed to hurt, neither knowing how much it damaged the other.

He doesn’t remember how they went from being each other’s comfort to finding excuses to stay away from their shared apartment. But he definitely remembers finding Yoongi on their couch with another man glued to his side, more precisely, fused at the lips.

or in which: Yoongi cheats, Jungkook is smitten, Jimin is confused, Taehyung is the best best friend and NamJin are the supportive parents.

Words: 1146, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply

Characters: Park Jimin (BTS), Min Yoongi | Suga, Jeon Jungkook, Kim Taehyung | V, Kim Namjoon | RM, Kim Seokjin | Jin, Jung Hoseok | J-Hope

Relationships: Min Yoongi | Suga/Park Jimin, Jeon Jungkook/Park Jimin, Kim Namjoon | RM/Kim Seokjin | Jin

Additional Tags: Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, look at all those angst tags, Alternate Universe, Infidelity, Cheating, Min Yoongi | Suga Is Bad at Feelings, Sad Min Yoongi | Suga, Sad Park Jimin, Park Jimin Is a Sweetheart, Kim Taehyung | V & Park Jimin Are Best Friends, Park Jimin Is Bad at Feelings, Jealous Min Yoongi | Suga, I think?, Smitten Jeon Jungkook, Jeon Jungkook Is a Good Friend, Established Kim Namjoon | Rap Monster/Kim Seokjin | Jin, Everyone Is Gay, This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things, idk how this will go :)

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2t7CTez

[mysme-messu]

You’re the One That I Love

Saeran: Chapter 4

Synopsis: She thought they were getting closer.She thought he returned the feelings she had when he shared about his past, when he confided to her about his negative thoughts, when he talked about his weaknesses. All those endearments, those shared moments, those touches.Maybe she was the only one who thought that way.He makes that pretty clear when he offers to set her up with his co-star.

Genres: Angst, Fluff, Hurt & Comfort

Pairings: Zen x MC | Saeran x MC

You can also read it here

A/N: It’s a bit short but :) Haha I seem to be focusing on Saeran for the moment but I mean who can deny this baby??? AND IT’S YOONGI”S BIRTHDAY AHHHHHH~ ... Anyways have fun reading ^^ 

Zen stood right in front of her, ruby red eyes focused on her and she felt rooted to the spot.

Saeran’s nudge forces her back to reality. Slowly, she blinks and pulls herself back to the present.

“Hi.” Zen approaches them quickly with a forced smile on his face.

“Hi.” She bets that the smile on her face looks equally awkward.

Saeran is the one who speaks up. “How’s rehearsals?”

She sends Saeran a grateful smile as Zen begins babbling over his day.

She lets Saeran and Zen keep the conversation going as she just listens in, she’s a little too raw to be speaking to Zen as if nothing was wrong.

Jumin walks in a little later, telling them dinner was ready so they all file into the private room.

Because there’s only so many times she can avoid the white haired actor, she finds herself placed beside Zen. If it was any other day before she got friendzoned, she wouldn’t have minded, she would definitely be found in the seat beside or across Zen’s but today, her name card placed next to Zen’s sits on the the table mocking her.

“Jaehee,” she calls out to the other woman. “Want to switch spots with me? You haven’t been able to spend time with Zen in a while.”

Jaehee gives her a confused look but it slowly melts into one of eagerness as she makes her way over.

If the others notice something wrong, they don’t mention it.

The seat next to Saeran and across from Yoosung feels infinitely safer.

They spend dinner catching up with one another. She brightens up when Yoosung tells her about the new all you can eat dessert place near his university.

“‘Ran, wanna go?” she asks softly enough so it doesn’t interrupt anyone else’s conversation. “Yoosung wants you to go with him.”

“Let’s go together after my exam ends!” Yoosung joins in enthusiastically.

“Are you going?” Saeran turns to her.

“Why don’t the two of you spend a little time together?”  MC can’t help but smile when she remembers when they first got Saeran into the RFA, everyone else was a wary of him, but now they invited Saeran out on their own will, even going to the point of bribing him out with his achilles heel; his sweet tooth.

“It’d be a little weird if two guys went to a dessert buffet.” Saeran tugs on the bottom of her blouse lightly. It’s such an endearing and cute action it jerks at her heartstrings. It also reminds her that Saeran wasn’t fully comfortable outside yet.

“If you guys don’t mind if I crash on your little date.” She teases both boys lightly.

Yoosung blushes while Saeran gives her a light flick on the forehead. “You idiot.”

She misses the rest of Saeran’s mumbled words but they go on and plan the rest of the ‘date’ out.

“Mind if I come along?” Zen asks, leaning across Saeyoung to ask the trio. “I have a role where the main character works as a waiter at a cafe aimed for girls. I want to see how waiters there act.”

She coughs, wracking her mind to quickly find an excuse to say no but Yoosung answers for them before she can say a word.

“Of course! The more the merrier.” Yoosung turns to them with a bright smile on his face. “You guys don’t mind, right?”

There was no way she could say she minded without looking like the bad guy so she nods wordlessly.

Saeran grunts and Yoosung takes it as a yes.

“It’s nice to see the RFA on such close terms once again.” Jaehee says lightly.

“That’s definitely true.” Jumin nods in agreement. “This must be all thanks to MC.”

Blushing she puts a hand to her face and waves the other one. “That’s not true. You guys were all close before, I didn’t do much.”

Jaehee shakes her head. “You’re always so humble, MC.”

“Please, MC.” Saeyoung adds on. “You always talk about how much happiness you wish for us to have, even when we first met you on the messenger.”

“Stop it, you guys.” She studiously refuses to meet anyone’s eye. “I’m not as good of a person you make me out to be. Plus you guys have done so much for me too. Anyways, let’s not talk about this or else I’ll turn become a Choi-mato.”

Jaehee groans. “Saeyoung has been too much of a bad influence to you.”

“It’s not like it’s a bad thing.” She can only grin when Jaehee groans again.   

[hazu-t]

drew Saeran in a bunch of diff casual clothes ! ! \o/

i did a small comic for it too: here

instagram | dA

[mysme-messu]

You’re the One That I Love

Masterlist: 

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Zen 3

Saeran 3

Saeran 4

[mysme-messu]

You’re the One That I Love

Saeran: Chapter 3

Synopsis: She thought they were getting closer.She thought he returned the feelings she had when he shared about his past, when he confided to her about his negative thoughts, when he talked about his weaknesses. All those endearments, those shared moments, those touches.Maybe she was the only one who thought that way.He makes that pretty clear when he offers to set her up with his co-star.

Genres: Angst, Fluff, Hurt & Comfort

Pairings: Zen x MC | Saeran x MC

You can also read it here

A/N: So I may not have mentioned, I have written two branches of the story. Since my indecisive ass couldn't decide between angst and Saeran, I have decided to go with both. If you guys want Saeran's story, read those labelled Saeran, if you want Zen, then read the ones with 'Zen' in the title :) I hope that helps ^^ 

She drops on the sofa and the only acknowledgement Saeran gives her is a quick glance before he turns back to the tv in front of them.

The both of them sit there comfortably, watching whatever was on the tv just for a moment.

He doesn’t ask her and just lets her sit there, thoughts wandering.

Had she made the right decision?

She turns to Saeran. “I confessed to Zen.”

That gets Saeran’s attention. His brows furrow into a frown. “What did he say?”

“He said I was too much of a younger sister to see me differently.”  

There’s a pause before Saeran speaks up again. “You okay?”

“I don’t know,” she answers him honestly. “But right now I just want to binge on ice cream and chips.”

“Sounds like something Saeyoung’s self-help books would say.”

She rolls her eyes. “You mean ‘A Woman’s Road to Healing Heartbreak’?”

He nods and she lets out a little laugh despite herself.

“You look strangely nonchalant for someone who just got rejected.” Saeran comments lightly, his eyes straying towards hers for a quick moment before he turns back towards the television.

“I sorta expected something like this when he tried to introduce me to his friend.”

She shrugs. “I just hope that if I told him, I’d be able to get over him, move on and then hopefully fall for someone who’d actually love me back next time.

“Don’t do that.” He’s curt and to the point. “Stop trying to pretend you’re okay in order to spare my feelings.”

“I don’t know what you want me to do, Saeran.” She shifts, that tiny action has her back to him. “I want you to let me in because you trust me, not because of some twisted belief that you have to return the favor just because I blabbed all about my feelings for Zen.”

There’s a moment of silence before he grabs her by the shoulders lightly and turns her around.

“MC…” She sees the way he tenses up and she knows it’s not the time to be pushing him for anything. “It might not be much but you have me.”

She gives him a small, reassuring smile before she turns around and heads back to the kitchen, giving the both of them the space they need to cool down and think things through.

That’s the last Saeran asks of things and she’s genuinely grateful.

He doesn’t comment on how she studiously avoids Zen either.

It works for a mere two weeks before the entire RFA meets up for their monthly dinners, all expense paid for in Jumin’s insistence.

She goes with Saeyoung and Saeran on either sides of her.

When she hesitates in front of the door, where she knew all the rest of RFA members were, both Choi brothers turn to stare at her.

“I need a moment,” she says in explanation.

“Is it because of Zen?” Saeyoung asks, an eyebrow lifted slightly.

She whips her head in Saeyoung’s direction. “How’d you know?”

Saeyoung huffs and gives her an unamused look. “Really? We’ve been friends for how long?”

“Too long,” she answers with a joking smile on her face. “To be wondering why you’re suddenly so serious.”

Saeyoung mockingly pouts at her. “I can be serious.”

Saeran’s snort has the both of the them hiding smiles.

“Alright, alright.” Saeyoung gives her a small pat on the head. “I know something happened between you and Zen but if you won’t tell your oppa, I know you’re a strong and capable woman.”

She feels Saeran’s bigger hand wrap around her’s. The tiny squeeze he gives her is the encouragement she needs before she faces ahead again and heads towards the door, where Zen was.

Jaehee is the first one to greet them, a small smile on her face. “Welcome.”

“Jaehee!” She greets her friend. “You look really pretty in that dress.”

“Do I?” Jaehee’s hands flit to the bottom of her skirt. “Mr. Han gave it to me last week.”

Saeran and Saeyoung slip away, but not without Saeran giving her another reassuring squeeze. She gives him a small smile which he returns with a twitch of his lips. It’s Saeran’s version of a smile in front of so many people so she takes what she can get.

It’s reassuring to know that there was somebody, or in her case, two somebodies, who would willingly throw down anyone who hurt her in anyway. Part of her feels like she can breathe despite the anchor weighing her down, Zen.

“You don’t have to call him Mr. Han right now, we’re on break.” She wriggles her eyebrows at her friend on purpose. “But he gave it to you, huh?”

Jaehee rolls her eyes. “Please, MC.”

As innocently as she can, she blinks at Jaehee, purposefully pretending to dense. “Yes, Jaehee?”

Jaehee giggles. “You know what I mean.”

“Do I now?” Grinning, she links an arm through Jaehee’s and they make their way towards where the others are at.

Yoosung greets her with a wide smile. “MC!”

“Yoosungie,” she calls out and gives the blonde boy a pat on the head, which she knows he finds irritating. “How’s your last year of university?”

Yoosung ducks away from her. “I feel like crying everyday but at least my mom is proud.”

“I’m proud of you too.”

With a groan, Yoosung says, “You say it as if you’re ages older than I am.”

Saeyoung jumps into the conversation, quite literally. “Are you teasing my baby boy?”

Yoosung nods along the red head’s words eagerly until the words register. “Hey! I’m not a baby boy, especially not your’s.”

Seven gasps dramatically and lifts a hand to his mouth. “Did I call you a baby boy? I meant baby. Sorry, sorry.”

“That’s even worse!” Yoosung cries.

She shakes her head and leaves Jaehee to deal with the pair while she makes her way to Saeran and Jumin.

Like habit, her hand naturally slides to Saeran’s am. However, this time she doesn’t know if she’s giving comfort or the one receiving it. “Hey, guys.”

“MC,” Jumin says with a small nod of his head. “I was just telling Saeran about a potential guest.”

She smiles. “Already? The last party just ended a while ago.”

Jumin nods somberly. “Said guest is a cat director, he makes films of cats and I was hoping you’d be interested.”

“I’ll keep that in mind but you can take a rest at times, Jumin,” she suggests. “You’re not a robot, you need to rest.”

“I do rest.” Jumin frowns.

“I know, I know.” She cuts off her friend before he can continue. “Sleeping at a set time does not necessarily mean resting, I meant relaxing.”

Saeran laughs, a tad bit too sarcastically in her opinion. “Like you do that yourself.”

“I do.” She wants to stomp her foot childishly but she refrains from doing it to prevent future teasing. “I read book, I watch movies, I hang out with friends.”

Saeran raises an eyebrow. “And how much time a week do you spend time doing that?”

“Enough,” she replies with a pout.

“How many hours exactly?” Saeran easily ignores the pout, having lived with it for more than half a year. “Actually, ‘how many minutes?’ would be the better question.”

“You only talk this much when you want to prove a point.” Grumbling she turns to Jumin. “As I was saying, before Saeran decided to rudely interrupt me, try to relax, Jumin, it’s good for you.”

“I shall try to listen to that suggestion but for the time being, I shall contact the head chief since everyone has arrived.” Jumin pulls his phone from his breast pocket as he gives the both of the a nod. “Excuse me.”

“Sorry I’m late, everybody! The director wouldn’t let us off because someone kept mucking up the lines.”

Her eyes snap towards the door at those words.

Zen was here.

[mysme-messu]

You Are the One That I Love

So here goes chapter 2 :) I’m still undecided about MC being with Zen or Saeran. I love them both so I want both of them cuz I’m greedy like that. 

Synopsis: She thought they were getting closer.

She thought he returned the feelings she had when he shared about his past, when he confided to her about his negative thoughts, when he talked about his weaknesses.

All those endearments, those shared moments, those touches.

Maybe she was the only one who thought that way.

He makes that pretty clear when he offers to set her up with his co-star.

Genres: Angst, Fluff, Hurt & Comfort

Pairings: Zen x MC | Saeran x MC

You can also read it here

Her 6th RFA party comes up. This time, the amount of guests that come makes the number of guest in her first party look completely insignificant.

The other are equally excited with the outcome.

She greets the guests with Jaehee while the others mingle and socialize with the guest who’ve already arrived.

She gets glimpses of Zen and the other RFA members as they walk by.

Keep reading

[mysme-messu]

You Are the One That I Love

Chapter 3: Zen

Synopsis: She thought they were getting closer.

She thought he returned the feelings she had when he shared about his past, when he confided to her about his negative thoughts, when he talked about his weaknesses.

All those endearments, those shared moments, those touches.

Maybe she was the only one who thought that way.

He makes that pretty clear when he offers to set her up with his co-star.

Genres: Angst, Fluff, Hurt & Comfort

Pairings: Zen x MC | Saeran x MC

You can also read it here

She's a bunch of nerves the next day.

It's been a bit more than 3 weeks since she’s last seen Zen. She wonders if her love for him had somehow disappeared during that time period.

Apparently not.

Her heart beats rapidly once she sees him.

His face lights up in recognition and she knows her face probably mirrors the exact expression, but maybe more like a lovestruck puppy instead.

She forces herself to chat like they usually do, conversation is a little stilted but it still flows.

It comes to a grinding halt when Zen begins to bring up Jung Wook again.

Her hands find the bottom of her skirt and she grips the material in her hands.

“‘I just feel like Jung Wook would be a good match for you.” Zen stirs absently at his cup of tea. “He's well-mannered, has a clean background, his parents are pretty wealthy and he’s pretty handsome. Obviously not my level, but he's not bad.”

That's not what she wanted in a man, she didn't want a checklist of things. She wanted Zen but he didn't want her.

The bitter laugh escapes her lips before she can choke it back with words of refusal.

Zen looks up at her in confusion. “Do you not want to go? I’ll be there too, so you don’t have to worry.”

Just like that she makes up her mind, if Zen was so adamant about setting her up with guys that weren’t him, she’s be damned if she let him see her cry.

“No, I'll go.” Her voice sounds a lot stronger than she feels.

“Are you sure, honey?” Zen furrows his brows. “You weren’t exactly on board last time I asked.”

“I thought I'd give it a go since you kept asking.” She hoped she sounded flippant enough. “After all I can never say no to you Zenny.”

He frowns.  “MC, are you really okay?

“Yeah.” She says, desperately trying to keep her cool, trying to ignore the niggling voice in the back of her head calling her a liar. She makes a big show of checking her watch. “I'm sorry Zen, I have to head back to work. Please tell Wook I'll be happy to go on a date with him.”

She’s pretty sure that flash of irritation on his features was just one of her delusions.

Zen wipes away the sweat trickling down the side of his forehead as he checks his phone again.

No missed calls, a few texts from Seven and Yoosung. Nothing from MC.

He ignores it and goes back to the treadmill. Those looks of his came from hard work afterall.  

His thoughts wander back to lunch he had with MC as he begins to speed up.

She had seemed happy to see him. Her face had lit up with an excited smile when she had spotted him.

Everything had been going well, he’d been telling her about his new role, while she told him stories about her work in that jerk’s office. MC had been giggling over one of his disastrous auditions, eyes closed, head thrown back, hand covering her mouth.

He watched her, smiling in appreciation at her response.

These were the moments he loved, easy company without the need to constantly be on his best behaviour in case he said something that could become a rumor or offended one of his higher ups.

MC’s easy smile always lifted his spirits.

He feels a smile flit across his face when he remembers her bright smile.

It’s wiped away when he remembers how her’s disappeared as they neared the end of their lunch.

She had left so quickly, as if she was running away from him.

That reminded him, he should call Jung Wook to tell him that MC had agreed meet up.

He had hesitated to set MC up with Jung Wook, but all in all, Jung Wook was a good man. There was no reason why he shouldn’t have but he still wonders why there’s a niggling voice in the back of his head telling him not to.

[pendulumyuya]

Here are the Ray Route chat times until Day 10. Day 11 is always the same.

Have fun!

[ao3feed-yoonmin]

i want you (so please look at me)

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2yR9MhA

by shazzarrr

“Stop hiding and just go back to the register!” Taehyung hisses into his ear. “You look absolutely ridiculous.”

Jimin has to agree because he feels just that squatting behind the coffee counter.

“Is he still looking over here?” he whispers back to Taehyung.

Taehyung straightens up and shakes his head. “He’s not.”

He cautiously peeks out from behind the tall counter to make sure the blonde boy with his leather jacket wasn’t there anymore.

OR

In which, Park Jimin falls in love with Min Yoongi and it doesn’t take him long for him to realise that Yoongi is in love with Hoseok.

Words: 2996, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/M, M/M

Characters: Park Jimin (BTS), Min Yoongi | Suga, Kim Taehyung | V, Jeon Jungkook, Jung Hoseok | J-Hope, Kim Seokjin | Jin, Kim Namjoon | Rap Monster

Relationships: Min Yoongi | Suga/Park Jimin, Kim Namjoon | Rap Monster/Kim Seokjin | Jin

Additional Tags: Pining, Park Jimin Is a Sweetheart, Kim Taehyung | V & Park Jimin Are Best Friends, Dancer Park Jimin, Light Angst, Min Yoongi | Suga Is Bad at Feelings, Jung Hoseok | J-Hope & Min Yoongi | Suga Are Best Friends, Alternate Universe - College/University, Basketball Player Min Yoongi | Suga, yoonmin, slight jikook, Min Yoongi | Suga Is Whipped, Min Yoongi | Suga Being an Asshole, just the beginning tho, Really slight coffeeshop au

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2yR9MhA

[daedaegu-archive]

If you’re sad here’s a happy little Jimin running through a field

[ningyosan]

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