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[deadinparadice]

100 Reasons NOT To Kill Yourself

1. We would miss you. 2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you. 3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow. 4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing. 5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there. 6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself. 7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise. 8. You are amazing. 9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better. 10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead. 11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive. 12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die. 13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about. 14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me. 15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born. 16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died? 17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect. 18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again… 19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day 20. Listening to incredibly loud music 21. Being alive is just really good. 22. Not being alive is really bad. 23. Finding your soulmate. 24. Red pandas 25. Going to diners at three in the morning. 26. Really soft pillows. 27. Eating pizza in New York City. 28. Proving people wrong with your success. 29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can. 31. Being able to help other people. 32. Bonfires. 33. Sitting on rooftops. 34. Seeing every single country in the world. 35. Going on roadtrips. 36. You might win the lottery someday. 37. Listening to music on a record player. 38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower. 39. Taking really cool pictures. 40. Literally meeting thousands of new people. 41. Hearing crazy stories. 42. Telling crazy stories. 43. Eating ice cream on a hot day. 44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know. 45. Travelling to another planet someday. 46. Having an underwater house. 47. Randomly running into your hero on the street. 48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel. 49. Trampolines. 50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again. 51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke, 52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more. 53. People do care. 54. Treehouses 55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse 55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees 56. I don’t even know you and I love you. 57. I don’t even know you and I care about you. 58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness! 59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor. 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS! 61. Starbucks. 62. Hugs. 63. Stargazing. 64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is. 65. You’ve changed somebody’s life. 66. Now you could change the world. 67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you. 68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you. 69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life. 70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things. 71. Making snow angels. 72. Making snowmen. 73. Snowball fights. 74. Life is what you make of it. 75. Everybody has a talent. 76. Laughing until you cry. 77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy. 78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist. 79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down 80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive. 81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero. 82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections. 83. One day your smile will be real. 84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day. 85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds. 86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends. 87. Eating crazy food. 88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one. 89. Sleeping in all day. 90. Creating something you’re proud of. 91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit 92. Being able to meet your Internet friends. 93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate 94. Sherlock season three. 95. Cuddling under the stars. 96. Being stupid in public because you just can. 97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile? 98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years 99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this. 100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen

IF that isn’t enough:

Depression Hotline: [phone] Suicide Hotline: [phone] LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255 Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386 Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743 Eating Disorders Hotline: [phone] Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673 Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272 Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000 Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253 Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453 UK Helplines: Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail [email protected] Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111 Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: [email protected] Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 [email protected] b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: [email protected] b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: [email protected] Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600 Drinkline: 0800 9178282 Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail [email protected] Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight India Self Harm Hotline: [phone] India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669 Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7 suicide hotlines; Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430 Australia: 13-11-14 Austria: 01-713-3374 Barbados: 429-9999 Belgium: 106 Botswana: 391-1270 Brazil: 21-233-9191 China: 852-2382-0000 (Hong Kong: 2389-2222) Costa Rica: 606-253-5439 Croatia: 01-4833-888 Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67 Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908 Denmark: 70-201-201 Egypt: 762-1602 Estonia: 6-558-088 Finland: 040-5032199 France: 01-45-39-4000 Germany: 0800-181-0721 Greece: 1018 Guatemala: 502-234-1239 Holland: 0900-0767 Honduras: 504-237-3623 Hungary: 06-80-820-111 Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90 Ireland: 1800-247-100 Israel: 09-8892333 Italy: 06-705-4444 Japan: 3-5286-9090 Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292 Malaysia: 03-756-8144 (Singapore: 1-800-221-4444) Mexico: 525-510-2550 Netherlands: 0900-0767 New Zealand: 4-473-9739 New Guinea: 675-326-0011 Nicaragua: 505-268-6171 Norway: 47-815-33-300 Philippines: 02-896-9191 Poland: 52-70-000 Portugal: 239-72-10-10 Russia: 8-20-222-82-10 Serbia: 21-6623-393 Spain: 91-459-00-50 South Africa: 0861-322-322 South Korea: 2-715-8600 Sweden: 031-711-2400 Switzerland: 143 Taiwan: 0800-788-995 Thailand: 02-249-9977 Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800 Ukraine: 0487-327715 Uruguay: 095 73 8483 You will be missing out on every single wonderful thing yet to happen to you.

[poeticcancerian]

Always reblog!

[itsmagnuswinchester]

I NEED HELP FOR MY SISTER AND HER SON

My name is Monica. And this is my sister Wiola and her six years old son Jakub.

Few months ago my sister’s husband left with another woman and has move to another country. We don’t know where excacly. He doesn’t pay for anything, he doesn’t send any money. He is a piece of shit. He was homophobic towards me, he cheated on her when she was pregnant. He was always working, not caring about his son. But my sister stayed with him because of the child. Also she had to leave the place they live for the last 9 years because it was bought by his parents and they told her to move out. They never liked her and us to be honest because my family is poor.

She is back now in our parents home where I sill live too. There’s only two small rooms in the house, kitchen and one bathroom. All of this for 5 people now. They sleep on the floor in my bedrooom.

She wants to find a place to rent because right now she is stuck wth Jakub with me in my small room. She was a kindergarden teacher but the place got shut down because there was not enough children to teach. She is now unemployed with a son and tons of debts.  My father is an alcoholic with violent tendencies so it’s not good for my nephew to still live here. He is very sensitive and cry realy easly and he has developed eating disorder in the past months.She tried to get help from government, but they told her they cannot help her because she is still married and as her husband has much bigger salary they officially have more than is required for getting help. Welcome to Poland.

I don’t know how else to help her because I’m unemployed at this moment due to my severe depression. Please we can’t live like that for much longer.

Even a dollar makes a difference. And if you are not able to donate, please reblog.

RIGHT NOW SHE NEEDS 3,000$.

We had yourcaring page but now it’s the part of gofoundme and that page doesn’t work in Poland so we can’t no longer use it. So if you want to donate, this is our PAYPAL: [email protected]

UPDATE ON WEDNESDAY MAY 02: I HATE TO BEG BUT IN THE LAST WEEK WE GOT NOTHING AT ALL. MY SISTER NEEDS TO PAY BILLS, AND BUY JAKUB NEW SHOES AND RIGHT NOW HER BANK ACCOUNT IS COMPLETELY EMPTY. SO PLEASE IF YOU CAN HELP A LITTLE: [email protected]

[iron-thorn-deactivated20180409]

This blog did not and will not send requests for bitcoin donations.

There seems to be a virus or some sort of malware going around causing blogs to “send out” chat messages to blogs that they follow asking for help with the purchase of certain items through donations of seemingly small amounts using bitcoin and adds a link to the message.

The message goes as following (at least the first message I got went like this): “Hi there buddy. I need help, I’m trying to buy a laptop and I can’t afford it. I’m about 0.36$ short, and I’d really appreciate if you could help me and transfer some money to me via bitcoin using this *link*.”

The small details in the message seems to have a few variations with the greeting, amount and purchased item showing up in different variations from formal to friendly, from 0.016 to 2$ and from a phone case to a laptop among others.

The blogs that are affected send out the messages to blogs that they follow for a long time mostly, so you are most likely to receive the message from a long time, active follower whose name you might recognize or a mutual etc. The blogs that are affected are not spam bots but actual active followers who follow the recipient for months or years and most likely the blogger who “sent” the message is unaware of the message being sent.

DO NOT OPEN THE LINK.

Opening up the link will cause the virus to spread even more and infect your computer/mobile with any sort of malware.

If you have received a message of that sort from this blog please know that it was not sent by me or within my control and ignore/delete the message without clicking the link.

[felikcs]

If you are currently in Las Vegas anywhere near the strip, PLEASE STAY INDOORS & LOCK UP.

A little while ago there was a shooting, at least one gunman fired down from the Mandalay Bay Hotel into a crowd at a country music concert.

Reports are hazy & mostly unconfirmed right now, but potential gunmen in the area of MANDALAY BAY HOTEL, NEW YORK NEW YORK HOTEL, EXCALIBUR HOTEL and TROPICANA HOTEL.

NY Times initial report HERE

[thelovelylights]

Hurricane Irma

This hurricane has officially hit a category 5. To give you an idea of the strength of this storm:

Harvey was a category 4.

Katrina and Andrew were a category 5 and Irma is at the moment is stronger than both of them. This hurricane is going to cause absolute destruction when it hits. Puerto Rico (especially this beautiful isla)  Cuba, Haiti, Dominican Republic and Florida are all in it’s path. Here’s a checklist if you can afford these supplies.

Food

Bottled Water- a week’s supply minimum (One gallon daily per person)

Non perishable items that don’t require cooking ( Tuna, nuts, fruit cups, Cereal bars, peanut butter, crackers, dried fruits, canned vegetables, chili)

Dry pet food 

Packaged juices 

Powdered or canned milk 

Supplies

Manual can opener

Toilet paper 

Baby wipes ( this will make a great alternative for showers)

Batteries ( AAA, AA, 6V, C, and D)

Flash lights (if you have manual ones even better)

Battery powered radio 

Utility knife 

Waterproof matches 

5 gallons of gas

Tampons and pads 

Portable phone charger fully charged)

Sand bags (redirects water and debris flow)

First aid kit

Blankets 

Rain gear - Ponchos, boots. (avoid umbrellas)

Medications 

Portable cooler

Documentation / Legal End

A closed water proof sealed container

Take pictures and send them to yourself in an email of the following: Drivers License, photo ID, social security numbers, medical insurance cards (of each person) 

Take photos of everything! Insurance companies are not your friends. Email everything to yourself. 

If you have young children and they are able to make sure they memorize your name, address, and phone number

Other tips: 

Before the hurricane hits fill up the bath tubs in your house (extra water for flushing the toilet) 

Bring any ornaments from outside inside 

Trim trees

Board your windows

Have a secure room that you an pile everyone ( has to have no windows) 

if you have any questions message me. Keep safe mi gente xx 

[tempcatkitty-deactivated2018030]

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I’m living in a highly abusive situation right now, and my mom is verbally and emotionally abusing me. She’s repeatedly told me that I’m going to hell, that she’d rather have a dead son than a trans daughter, that I should kill myself, that I’m possessed by a devil, etc. She’s sent me to conversion therapy in the past, and she’s taken me off of her insurance. I can’t leave the house without her permission, and even if I did I currently have no steady income. I’m currently three months on HRT. If you’d like to help an Indian trans girl, please donate. Anything helps, I’m just desperate to get out of my current living situation and continue HRT.

[angelicdeancas]

HELP ME PAY FOR MY MEDS AND RENT

Hello. Six months ago I asked you to help me because my parents kicked me out after they found out I’ve fallen in love with a girl. I was working in their place and I lost that job too.

My boyfriend at that moment told everyone I know about this and spread some lies. He took my dog and a lot of my stuff. He stalked me. He found my tumblr as well and I had to make a new account.

I live in my friend house but it was really small so I slept on the floor in the pantry for the last five months.

Now I live in a tiny tiny room and have half time job as a waitress. 

Two months ago I finally went to psychiatrist and I was diagnosed with severe depression and obsessive-compulsive disorder. It was a lot to finally have someone to talk to about everything. The problem is that I don’t have the money for all of these meds she prescripted me. I already take asthma medications for couple of years and others for my sensitive stomach. The meds from psychiatrist are quite expensive because I had to choose private payd visit instead of free because they told me I had to wait four months for it. And I can’t wait that long. I have suicide thoughts and I’m afraid what I could do. And I’m still waiting for the therapy.

These are my meds now

And the proof of how much they cost

I can’t really afford for all of them right now. And I really need to use them because I already feel a little better and I don’t want to be depressed anymore.

And I don’t really have money for even food. I mostly eat only twice a day.

I hope this is enough proof for people who are attacking me saying that I’m lying.

I’m from Poland and here if you go to the private doctor you need to pay 100% for the meds even with the insurance. And the rest of them is still expensive even with 10 or 30% being cheaper.

Also we don’t have any coupons for meds and any apps. You have that in America, that’s great. But we don’t.

And this month my doctor added some new meds for my asthma (i had spirometry test and it came out pretty bad) and because of that right now I don’t have anough money to pay my rent.

I talked with my landorld who is a sweet older lady and she is so wonderful that she let me be a little late with my rent. So I have time to the end of the month.

I’ve made new posts and least five times because every time the post hits 1k notes people are starting to ignore it, thinking I already have thousand of dollars. Well I don’t, because people are just mostly reblogging it.

I know some people are annoyed by my friend asking everyone to reblog my post. She only wants to help me, because we know each other from childhood and now she is far away from me and can’t really help me. Please don’t be mean to her. She is an angel. And you are also annoying with me (if the messages about me just killing myself because i’m dirty lazy fagot tells anything) but please bear with me for few more days. I’m trying, I really am but it’s hard when you are all alone.

So if you could spare few dollars please send them via paypal

My email:  [email protected]

You can choose any currency you want. Thank you for any help! And please reblog this post.

[kindadopish]

On Saturday April 22, 2017, our daughter Demi Mariah Butler passed away suddenly ands without warning leaving her family broken-hearted. At the tender age of 2 month old, Demi was able to touch their lives of many with her infectious smile and bubbly personality. None of knows when or how we will breathe or our last breath, and therefore are left with trying to prepare to lay our loved ones to rest, so we are asking for contributions of any amount to help assist in with burial costs. We just want to thank you in advance, your assistance big or small donations  will we greatly appreciated.

Link: https://www.gofundme.com/msdemi

[flyandfamousblackgirls]

SIGNAL BOOST THIS PLEASE!

[cartnsncreal]

Reblog and you might save someone’s life, especially with all our Black Girls going missing #ProtectBlackGirls #SaveLife

[lagonegirl]

You should share this for people in DC and close to you!!

Black Community we have to be careful. Protect our Girls! Spread this! 

[fomysquad]

IMPORTANT!!!!

Signal Boost! 

[cartnsncreal]

Reblog to save life 

[ryderdai]

Anything that can reduce these numbers…

[pimponmadison]

I see these up here in Chicago

[skirt-thug]

PLEASE PLEASE SIGN AND SHARE THIS PETITION http://www.thepetitionsite.com/670/081/728/hunting-hibernating-animals-should-stay-illegal/?taf_id=34003017&cid=twitter

[dea--7]

Just go out and be happy with what you have

[lagonegirl]

please get on this! Protect Black Girls! We as community have to look after each other. 

[axliciaa-deactivated20200327]

She said that she was at a hotel in LA. People on Twitter were able to track her IP address and later found out that she was/is in Mountain View, CA. She has not responded/posted on Snapchat in a couple of hours. She said there’s two guys there, one who goes by the name of Tank. They’re black, taller than her (like 6 foot or something) and wearing white and gray. This is a picture of one of the men  She sent it to someone who messaged her.

[moodyspacebabe-deactivated20180]

Omg. BOOOOST

[cosmic-noir]

BOOST BOOST BOOST

Please find her and get her home safe!

PROTECT OUR GIRLS!!!!

[samcahntent]

So I added her this morning (6:55am) March 10, and replied to her story. I wrote “oh wow you have a popsocket on your phone! I have one too!” And she replied “popsockers”. Then I said “I heard you say you’re in LA! I grew up here; how long are you here for?” And she hasn’t messaged back since. It’s now 7:24am. This story is making me uneasy

[gothic-punk]

Kennedi Simone High

http://www.missingkids.com/poster/NCMC/1290887/1

Case Type: Disability (Autistic) DOB: Nov 28, 2000 Missing Date: Mar 08, 2017 Age Now: 16 Missing City: Baltimore Missing State: MD Case Number: 5170303296

Gender: Female Race: Black Complexion: Light Height: 5-7 Weight: 120 Hair Color: Black Hair Length: Long Eye Color: Brown Wear Glasses or Contacts: Yes

Location Last Seen: Kennedi was last seen leaving Western High School.

Circumstances of Disappearance: Unknown.

Last Seen Wearing: Blk pants, blk low cut Ugg boots, white shirt.

[doxxingpedophiles-blog]

Thank you for adding information from NCMEC.

[justinscrew]

GRWM ft Mondern Renaissance Pallet♡

[heavytitty]

2/15/17 @ 2:15PM

BAY AREA, CA: there’s an ICE checkpoint near richmond costco. reports of there being one at west oakland bart station. please be safe and avoid if you can.

[deleteme-adub-deactivated201811]

If you live anywhere near Oakland, Richmond, Berkeley please reblog this!!!!!!!!

[cuadradito-deactivated20180411]

They’re also in Fruitvale ! stay safe everyone

[harryedward]

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Sky is a very playful, full of life, sweet little 14 week old puppy. Today she jumped out of her mom's arms and broke her elbow. They took her to the Animal Hospital and found out that the surgery was going to be extremely pricey. We need your help to bring the life and joy back into our little S...

Please reblog this and share it on facebook, twitter, wherever you can share. We only have 10 days to raise the money and only 7 before she runs out of pain medicine. She’s such a sweet puppy help her out! 

[harryedward]

We’re more than half way there!! She could get the surgery this week if we hit goal

[harryedward]

800 away lets go…

[harryedward]

$505 away!!! Please we’re so close

[theyjustloveme]

Please retweet until she is found!

[vanessainthemiddle]

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