youre safe here.

[nadaob]

i just thought about slitting my wrists and got genuinely happy..

[nadaob]

in case you never saw my dick..

[nadaob]

a month from now

a year from now being my due date

idk tho

[nadaob]

when people are kind to me it somehow brings me more pain

[nadaob]

she drove an hour and a half for some dick.

and what did i do?

what does gavin never fail to do, tell me.

[nadaob]

i’ll deadass kill myself

[nadaob]

or maybe i didnt tell her

[nadaob]

i remember telling my mom i hear voices

i don’t think she believed me

[nadaob]

tell me you support me but you want me to conform

i won’t fold ever and give up on what i know i can achieve

you tell me to go do this and that,

i only apply more pressure

[nadaob]

right so

vessel for satan = bad

vessel for god = good

as long as you’re a VESSEL for what the public tells you is right don’t question it….

even if the public/government doesn’t give you reason to see it’s good or true

[nadaob]

yesss relax

have faith in what they’ve spoonfed to you after countless attempts at having generations behind you submit to them

only to then fail miserably because what you’re been led to was very very false.

a fraction of the truth.

[nadaob]

only place i felt warm, accepted

her arms

and i’m the very reason that’s no longer able.

[nadaob]

i have no love left in me

think i’m drained..

[nadaob]

you’re covered in pain, engulfed in blood, i wish i didn’t fuck up so bad.

i will make up for my sin to you

[nadaob]

she gave me intense love and purity

my blood engulfed seraphim

BES

pure love is what she had for me, not lust

intense love is what she brung to me, not distrust

i love you through your battle scars, through your slits, through your worries, i love you.

my bes

[nadaob]

one on my right arm because that’s my dominant

mine on my left for emphasis

these are two i hope don’t fade but will most likely end up fading

as long as i know they’re there and why they’re there i don’t care who sees, who knows.

you’re apart of me because i carved you.

i love you.

[nadaob]

i carved your J in both of my arms

the Js on my arms

they’re you..