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Food Log 11/5

Posting from phone so formatting might be different!

Tracked everything, for better or for worse. I do try to log over calories if I’m not sure - I realize accuracy is the best way to handle it of course, but if I’m unsure (like having an udon at a restaurant), I’d rather log over what I’m having.

Managed to get in a solid workout on wheels last night, and I have another one tonight.

Not too much to reflect on other than while I was having lunch, I was weighing whether or not to go to the Lego store to buy the Goonies set but good lord why is it $329 so I just went home and figured I’d put that toward something fun with my kids instead.

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Food Log 11/4

Every day I log makes it easier to do it again the next day.

Ate my Green Chef leftovers for lunch and made a new one for dinner. It was actually with chicken and not pork. I served dinner to my family but had to take my portion to go as I had a work meeting at night. I ate my dinner from my Pyrex and was completely happy and satisfied, even when someone rolled in with 4 boxes of pizza. Didn't even bat an eye.

I started my day today protein heavy, but it's barely 11:30am, and I find myself already hungry again. I made myself a tea, trying to push myself another hour. I have a big workout planned tonight, so I need to eat accordingly.

At some point I know I need to get on a scale. Weekly weigh-ins are best for me. I'm only realizing now that I never really logged a starting weight. I mean, I did this past April, but it's been 7 months since then. I'll marinate. I'm happy focusing on correcting one thing at a time, and while weight gives a reward via a number, I'm actually proud of myself that I've been logging everything.

See ya tomorrow!

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Food Log 11/3

Hey, did okay yesterday. Trying to eat what is in the house for breakfast and lunch, and resurrected my Green Chef boxes for dinners 3x a week. I have two growing boys to feed in addition to myself, so it seemed only logical as well as cost and time effective.

Listen, don't be sleeping on those TJ's protein pancakes. Paired with a well prepared fruit, they got it going on.

Leftover mini crab cakes from Costco - enjoyed them last weekend originally when the Eagles beat the NY Giants... which they SHOULD have done the first time we played...

And here was the Green Chef dinner. I actually didn't make the butter sauce that the recipe calls for, and only used half of the dressing for the couscous, so I'm hoping I saved some calories in there. I get servings for 4 and usually just pack up the last serving for my lunch the next day. Which is exactly what I did! Anyhow - we're doing it.

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Food Log 11/2

Hey, day 1 of food tracking in the books! Breakfast and lunch were protein heavy which translated into me not being hungry all day. Go figure.

These meals brought to you by Trader Joe's. I grabbed the Harvest Chili after practice because I thought it would be a great dinner - veggies, black beans, not high in calories... but then when I tracked it, MFP yelled at me about sodium. Lesson learned, I probably should check these things out when I'm still standing in the market.

As for exercise, I need to figure out what's going on with My Fitness Pal and my Apple Watch. I worked a photoshoot which included a LOT of movement, and then I roller skated for two hours in the afternoon. Obviously I'm no fitness expert, but those combined activities seem like they should be more than 32 calories.

Anyhow, it's fine if it doesn't register it for now. My focus is being mindful and getting into the habit of tracking.

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Tumblr's algorithm...

Kind of wild - I just started this blog, made one post. My 'For You' section is all..... very thin people. Folks not eating. Trying not to say the words or use the tags, because it's not the content I'm looking for. I don't know what kind of things I need to do to change my algorithm, but this ain't it.

Even at my adult 'thinnest' I have wide hips, thick thighs, and a fat ass. To be clear, I love these things about me. Being thin is not my goal. Being healthy and strong are. I'm 5'10" and a brick house.

Some people pay good money for what I got going on!

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50 lbs to go.

So, here I am. About 10 days away from hitting 44. I'm getting a divorce, I'm busier than I've ever been, and my mental health is being held together by processed food.

I'm not afraid of hard work nor discipline. In fact, since it was clear my marriage was going sideways, I got into the flow a few times, but something always derailed it. I swear my STB ex would see me down 15 lbs, glowing skin, and would drop another surprise bomb on me that would completely level me.

My MIL (ex-MIL? I don't know.) offered me Ozempic. She takes it. She's also been on it for years now. What happens when she stops? I have a friend who dropped over 100lbs rather quickly on it. In addition to her loose skin, she also lost all of her muscle mass. We enjoy similar workouts, and I see her struggle to keep up now. Another friend had started it, but when her insurance denied her continued use of it, she saw a lot of the weight instantly return. Even my ex is on it. He lost 50lbs rather quickly, and recently at an event I heard him taking compliments of how great he looks. He commented, "Thanks, I've been working really hard."

This isn't a judgement on anyone using it. Go off. Live your life.

But for me? Nah.

I know what it takes. It takes tracking food. It takes conscious choices. It takes discipline. It takes not going to bed without having moved my body in a meaningful way.

I'm strong AF. I'm built like a linebacker. But I'd like to drop some pounds. The weight and my inability to get back to the routine I had before my life went down the shitter stand as reminders that I'm letting someone else's poor choices have control over my body and life. And I don't like that.

I'd like to keep this blog for me. For my wins, for my losses. I'd like to be honest. I'd like to share my food tracking. I need accountability, even if it's just for me talking to myself in the internet void.

Would taking shots to quickly drop 30 lbs work? Sure. Would I look fine AF? You betcha. But maybe it's the east coast in me, or my childhood trauma, but I really feel the need to work hard for what I get.

Anyhow. That's my start. See you end of day tomorrow when I share my food log.

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