Var var var.

[midnight-summerx]

Hans Zatzka

[gabberforcelondon]

[namiira]

[namiira]

But with every attack of the sads I try to remember how Coco Peru is so sweet to her fans.

I've made 2 fanarty things. One was distinctly unflattering and the other was a shitty 5 min marker sketch but she always takes the time to thank you and even repost even the most basic fanart. She just appreciates.

Don't get me wrong though, I'm not condemning celebs/personalities that don't go to that same effort for every scrap of art. And personally I'm not doing it to grab attention at this point. A gift is a gift and it's not for me to determine how it's recieved.

[namiira]

I'm gonna ruminate on this real quick, don't worry it's relatable.

Ya know that feeling when you have the *feelings* for an individual and besides already having a steady partner in a committed monogamous relationship.. and the fact that you may never actually know them as a person.. they don't buy what you sell.

Ya barkin up the wrong tree kiddo.

They ain't into your type. Your body? your gender? Just not you. But you're so into them anyway. frankly very sad. It feels a kind of not good and hits close to the dysphoria i think. Sad!

[namiira]

trying to find the energy to write in my diary/zine thing

completing a pride rainbow of various drag personalities. they’re all important to me in some way.

Sasha Velour in Red, Coco Peru in Orange, Imp Queen in Yellow, Tammie Brown in Green, Jinkx Monsoon in Blue, and Peppermint in Purple

after that i’ll go back to writing more angsty shit i guess

[namiira]

i’ve been not doing very well and i’m not sure if this is a coping mechanism or some kind of anguish leaking out of me but i’ve been singing a lot

i’m not a good singer either suck it housemates i’m sad and angry but i’m still behaving myself and keeping the most pathetic bits behind closed doors

[guineapiggies]

by twoteenypigs

[namiira]

leggys

[namiira]

hello, this is [redacted], here to inform you all that [redacted]

in the interest of national safety, please proceed to your [redacted] or if circumstances allow, the nearest [redacted]

remember, in the event of [redacted], you may find it helpful to [redacted], though it is important to note that this is no guarantee that you will be [redacted] from the [redacted].

god save us [redacted]

[namiira]

hello my name is [redacted] and i abuse substances and choose poor coping mechanisms because I am very unhappy

[namiira]

i wanna live with a bunch of gnc people.

or basically just a house without straight people would be a good start

[namiira]

PSA: If you're nonbinary, don't look at "gender dysphoria tests" online. They're written by cis people who don't understand the subject as well as they think they do.

You get dumb questions and they're all like "do you ever feel like The Opposite Gender?"

And the rest of the questions are like

"What is your biological sex and do you feel like you are your biological sex"

Not much of a test

[namiira]

I don't have money but I wish I'd moved into a different sharehouse.

One where I can be open about my gender bullshit. And people that like to keep their shit tidy.

Mostly I just want friends. I want to hang with people that I have shit in common with.

[namiira]

i would love to feel like i’m doing more than just treading water.

like if i’m gonna drown can something just drown me already

[namiira]

I'm a cleaner and i think about bleach a lot

[namiira]

I'm gonna do the annoying thing where i write shit about my personality disorder and i dunno how to do the read more thing so sorry

[namiira]

so i don’t have spending money really but i’m in that desperate place of needing all the love and validation i can get which is why i want to pay more drag queens to say nice things

i mean if i had that cash I’d have these queens saying things for me cause they are all on that site:

Ongina (OG fave queen), Coco Peru (love her love her love her), Cynthia Lee Fontaine (she just seems really sweet and I loved her on the show), SHANGELA, Adore, probably most of the queens that are unavailable for it atm D:, Peppermint, Jujubee, Blair St. Clair, Tempest, Jiggly & The Vixen

[namiira]

I had to trim this because being a dumbass I actually gave my full name and she went and said it lol. So anyway here’s my Cameo from the legend, Tammie Brown. I was having a bad day and I felt like a little Tammie style song validation.

I feel like some queens would be kinda tough to talk to person to person but I feel like Tammie in her own way is one of those people that is just down to earth and simultaneously up in the clouds, being herself in and out of drag.