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still kupu2... self indulgent sideblog/alter ego/fan acc by [REDACTED]☆adult selfshipper

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[MOSTLY] Eddy's Bro+Jolly Olly Man(sometimes) centered art sideblog. Cringe and self indulgent. If you know me outside this sideblog, hello! Sshhhh...

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Things You May Know

Fangirl/Selfshipper !! - i express myself using oc x canon. I am ok with sharing or anythin like that Yes.

Self indulgent !! - I mostly make things for me. This can include violence/blood and suggestive artwork, but ill tag as much as I can. If I dont please remind me !!!!

I dump art n pics in this sideblog mostly now. I may seem not too active here for personal reasons etc. Though, asks are welcome..

You can find me also in spacehey (inactive beside blogging random things and other links)

Tags:

#🦋a butterfly for bro - bro selfship art tag

#🍨favourite flavour - willie selfship art tag (posts without those 2 tags r just usual fanarts)

#💥🫀 - text posts/not art/misc

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Sunsets. I attempted drawing them in my "default" style again for first picture. They're both ruminating about their worst decisions in life before going back to annoying each other.

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damned if i do damned if i dont.

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(Vent/rambling warning below, i dont feel like putting this anywhere in main. Might delete the paragraph later or talk abt it in me spacehey blog, or not Who Knows. I need to reflect.)

I have troubles on being specific abt my identity so most of the time to others i just say im genderfluid and aromantic, which is True from personal reflection, i guess. Even without identifying with those labels I think im already queer just by surviving living in a religiously repressive country+household. And still being alive!! What!!!!! How!!!! !!!

And yet still. I am ok with lots of nicknames, pronouns, anything. Though I Know I preferred feminine terms while appearing masc/andro, and sometimes the opposite(??). Yet sometimes I Fear that these thoughts ive picked up regarding the fluidity and non-specific feelings about my identity "could" be rooted from my self-hatred, thinking that i dont belong anywhere in any group nor community so i tell people that im ok to be referred as anything. But i know being unlabeled shouldnt be because im repressing myself until i forget who i am, I dont wanna do that! I want to be at peace with my identity! Its fluid and hopefully, thats ok.

There is so many times where I hated myself due to feeling like i have to be "consistent" and struggling with labels, constant reassuring, impulsive browsing, overthinking whether my love for fictional character influences my attraction or not, yadda yadda yadda. I need to live with the fact that its ok to exist. I guess i have to realize that my past problems doesnt describe who I am now, but i guess thats for another topic.

These flags in the image might or might not change, but I am still a fictoromantic and selfshipper at heart. What else is this blog for?

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Supposedly style study.

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Brendon Butterfly. Similar age range as Bro (20s). Mondo A-Go Go janitor/sanitation worker.

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I had one dream of owning a Bro Body Pillow once. I want one. But i needed Money.

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Serpent tears.

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Weirds and odds.

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Didnt make these when im doing well

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Recent ones I feel silly for posting.

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Back on my bullshit.

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Here is the speedpaint I forgot to share about of this thing. Yeah. with the corny nightcore backround songs for extra Suffering

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This is what we need in this time of chaos. Self-indulgent self-ship speed paints WITH nightmare music in the bg.

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Old and Semi-old digital stuff. Variative.

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Last year things i might or mightve not initially planned to post in older account. Ive got plenty of much older stuff that was gone with it, that ill keep reposting ocassionally from time to time whenever i remember..

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Warm up dumpster fire.

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Give him a little kiss on the jaw and put him in a meatgrinder.

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I did this cosplay last october for halloween. but I was only gaining the courage to post these today...