My inescapable fear of loneliness and my eventual death.
Ok so ever since I was 5 or 8 I have thought about how one day I'll die and so will everyone I love and how in trying as hard as I can to make my life meaningful and worthwhile I may try to hard and ruin everything. and I feel that in trying so hard people will see me as a needy self centered person and so no one wants to be around me and actually until this year I have had no other friends except for a random group of the weird people who also can't get other friends and that doesn't help and I can't shake the feeling that I'm going to die I mean I think we all fool ourselves into thinking it won't happen to us like how we think cancer won't happen to us or Aides and then it does and your so not ready for it. It just makes me depressed to think life could be taken at anytime and I'll miss out on all the things the people of my generation will do before I go just think about the one thing that you wish would be invented or had happen to the world be it world peace no global hunger a cure for cancer or any form of technology that would significantly affect the world now the biggest possibility is that it'll happen after your gone so you'll probably never see it I won't see it and no one you know will see it.