Non Duality School

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Transcend your desires and your fears and you will have everything.

It's almost 5AM but I felt compelled to write you this post. It won't be as organized as I'm writing from my phone.

My asks are flooded with questions on how to get things, and you're probably already sick of me telling you you already have and not getting it, since you're still asking. But you do not have any desires, nor fears. And I will tell you why.

Imagine you were born as Sandra, Sandra is very privileged, not only does she fit the beauty standards, but she is the sole heir of her grandfather's fortune. Sandra is so rich she needs security. I said imagine being. You are her. What desires come up now? None of money, I bet. Security and health aren't a problem either, you have and can afford the best. If there was a problem with your body's appearance, you'd immediately get it fixed. Having had access to the best education, you have no insecurties about your mind and knowledge either. All is well, you flow through life.

Now imagine being you again, watch your old desires and fears come up. So scary, so personal, so many things to deal with yourself now that you're you again!

But Sandra was just an imagined character, your mind made her up. And so it did with your other character you're so invested it, this one because you claim it's 'you'.

You is the one who imagined both. See now? You only think you have desires because you think you are the second. Yet 'you' is the one that puts the life into the character. You are not a character but life itself. Each time you think you want something, look at who you THINK you are.

Good night, I love you.

And remember to inquire within.

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Acknowledge that you already have results rather than try to get them.

I want you all to acknowledge having your desires and nothing else.

Acknowledge = recognize something as being true or real.

There is no lack in your reality. Everything you want is there.

How would the version of yourself who has it respond to the moment you're experiencing right now? Would she try to change it, thinking it's something she has to fight? Realize the present moment is perfect as it is, and so are your reactions. I want you to think of the ideal version of yourself and recognize that since creation is done, there is nothing you have to do or change, not even affirm! Do you have to affirm you have two eyes? That sounds ridiculous, doesn't it? You know you have two eyes, you don't have to tell yourself you do for fear that if you don't you'd stay with only one.

Think of the ideal version of yourself as the real you, if that's the real you, do you really have to worry so much if the actions you're doing/the thoughts you're thinking are wrong or right? No, because you are operating as the ideal version of you, who is perfect. Perfect, in this instance, being exactly what you want. A lot of what manifesting is is just you stopping judging and second-guessing yourself.

Another way to go about this is recognizing the 3D has been a lie all along, and you've always been your ideal self, you just believed your senses more than the actual truth, and so you expressed what you believed. You've been manifesting perfectly all along, you just continuously choose to believe a lie! Don't blame yourself, you didn't know any better. As Neville says, never condemn, only resolve.

How do you know you're being her? You are unbothered. Nothing that happens can shake you because it's not the truth! You're calm because you no longer give credence to the old story you've been telling yourself. That is not to say you have to force yourself to stay calm, but rather, recognize that even if you don't - there's no need to scold yourself for reacting, since it doesn't matter!! because you're perfect now and so must be this reaction!

When you start reminding yourself consistently that you're perfect, that everything you're doing is exactly how it should be done, you'll notice you'll have less and less thoughts, until there will be no thoughts at all. If you're being everything you want to be, what exactly is there to think about? In this state, every time you have a need or desire it's instantly satisfied, you'll be barely acknowledging it before it shows up for you. Why's that? Because the 3D is inside of you (and that includes your body!) and if you're perfect so must the 3D (your creation) be.

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IM SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED YOU I KNOW PPL DO THESE KINDS OF THINGS BUt i genuinely didn't have the time like the past few days have been insane!!!! this is gonna be kinda long asfhsksl

basically i read your posts over and over and i would have a new epiphany each time, i started to feel light as a feather and this boundless feeling came to me!! when i started feeling more confident in myself i stopped coming here looking for answers and just kept focusing on "I AM", nothing else!! i didn't try to get anything like you said but started feeling myself as the reality of all that is,, everything felt easy and peaceful until I BECAME AWARE i had no questions or doubts anymore. now listen after this my world completely shifted!! i still feel like i'm living in a dream. i kind of forgot what i looked like ? i stopped thinking abt the body entirely, i was basically functioning automatically and NOTHING disturbed me. life happened around me but all i was focused on was feeling myself as the witness, unaffected. and then on the 2nd or 3rd day a thought came to me abt the body again,, i was so unbothered with everything that i thought "eh maybe i can start functioning as a body again, it doesn't affect me at all now anyhow". i didn't purposely identify with any appearance i just went to shower that night and when i looked in the mirror, i looked exactly how i always wished to look. and it felt COMPLETELY NORMAL to look like that. I mean of course it did we are pure awareness but what shocked me wasn't that because i was already completely indifferent,, but how fast and easy everything happened. things started showing up out of nowhere, i am totally uninvolved in the illusion of an external world and everything still caters to me. i mean it, i do nothing at all and everything happens around me exactly how i want it meanwhile i don't even think on it. i got fired from my job after that??? but i literally couldn't care less, i was living fully in the moment and nothing could break my stride. now guess what... the next day... probably even less than 24 hrs i had a brand reach out for a collab. like WHAT? influencer life here i come 💀 truth be told i don't care about that either now that i've reached such a high state of being. i still have a little bit to go since i don't feel completely fearless and desireless but i am determined to achieve all you've said and i won't stop until i do. for now i just feel in love with everything and everyone and ecstatic to live all the time. THANK YOU ADA THANK U SM i love you most of all. i can keep updating you if it's alright in the dm?? i have no one else to talk to about this and it just makes me so happy to know that i finally "cracked the code" after years in this community 🥲

wow... i am so proud of you. you're just coming back home to your self, it will become the most natural thing to live like this before you know it. ♡

yes, of course you can update me, it's only up from here!

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Appearance Changes Pt. 2

Let's make an analogy. Let's say you were born as person A, but your entire life you wished to be/look like person B.

Both person A and person B exist in your consciousness only, both the one you say you were born as and the one you only know from observing have life in your imagination alone. But you (the real you) is doing nothing besides observing both. The difference between person A and person B is none other than your habit of identifying with the first, yet, you have always been the creator of both. What you are is observer, awareness, and what you're doing here is observing A's body as being yours, and B's as other's, but the creator of both is no other than you, because it's all that is. You are creating the "you" in the world and you are creating the "other" in the world, all in an attempt to experience your Self as something. You imagine yourself stuck as person A, suffer and fight against it, because you have not realized who you are, you still think you are a body in the world. But that's an illusion, the only thing that exists is awareness, which means it is the only truth, everything else apart from that can only be a lie/hallucination.

The person is a very small thing. Actually it is a composite, it cannot be said to exist by itself. Unperceived, it is just not there. It is but the shadow of the mind, the sum total of memories. Pure being is reflected in the mirror of the mind, as knowing. What is known takes the shape of a person, based on memory and habit. It is but a shadow, or a projection of the knower onto the screen of the mind.

Realize your true being, all else will follow/take care of itself. You will no longer feel the need to manifest/get things, because you see you are the one imagining the things. You already are, and if you want to observe yourself as 'something', you can. After you rid yourself of your belief that you are the ego, you no longer feel compelled in any direction whatsoever. You do not feel like you need to be the body you imagine you were born with (because you were never it in the first place), or watch B's from afar. You’re free to do or not to do whatever you want; you are dreaming, and you know you are dreaming, there is nothing to fear or fight, because all is yours. The thing to do is to establish that permanently, for all time. Then you can play any part you so desire, and be totally unaffected by it.

When the world is real, it is heavy. When the Self is real, the world is light ༊*·˚

What we call progress is merely a change over from the unpleasant to the pleasant. You can do that anytime. You, the real you, is not bound by anything.

Even the idea that I am not the body gives reality to the body, when in fact, there is no such thing as body, it is but a state of mind.

You can have as many bodies and as diverse as you like; just remember steadily what you want and reject the incompatibles.

Without awareness, the body would not last a second.

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Hi ada!

I wanted to ask (or I guess it's Vanessa who's asking) that when Vanessa sees something and gets the desire to have it or experience it, what do I (the real self) tell her? that I have it ALL and that there is nothing left to desire? because that's what I've been doing the past 2 days. However i am unable to feel that light sweeping feeling that people have reported to have when they truly understand non dualism. Am I on the wrong path?

Also, the desire to give myself the perfect human experience and occupy the perfect human body and have everything I could ever want the moment I think of it, revise the past, change timelines, be immortal and ageless (i know our true selves are already those things but when I say immortal and ageless i am referring to the limited human body), those are all Vanessa's (the ego) desires right?

Also, I wanted to ask, is it correct that even though we (our true infinite selves) occupy this 3D body and experience life as humans; the body, the ego, the world, the mind and all the limitations that come with mind (time, space, matter etc) are within US (meaning they don't exist without us since we are the source for it all)? are both these things true at once? im confused as to who occupies what and who lives within who?

Lastly, is it true that all life is but a dream and when we are aware that we are living in a dream we can control it? simply by being aware?

I would be so grateful if you could take out the time to answer these questions. Thank you.

You don't tell her anything, what do you have to do with her? Disengage.

The desire that *I*... the desire is of Vanessa, the Self can have that and it's nothing to it. It's just another experience.

Those things are in you, not you in them. Yes, when you go, all goes. Without the experiencer there can be no experience (Vanessa is an experience too, you don't have to experience her if you don't want to!). Without the one who sees there can be no seen.

Precisely so. The dream is yours and yours alone, everything in it is because you are. You imagine that there is an external world in which the you you're identified with lives, but all of that is in your mind. Stop imagining it's true and it dissolves, which can only mean it never was. Which can only mean you assigned reality to it by thinking you're it :)

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So the wildest thing just happened to me. I went to sleep thinking on the fact that I'm not this body, this is not my world.

I woke up as another version of myself, this was such a vivid experience. I experienced months as her. Let's call her Aranyani, but for total clarity, we share the same name.

I started this experience in Turkmenistan, a country this Vanessa knows nothing about. I had two elder brothers, and it was the wedding of one of them. I remember thinking how full of himself he was, complaining that people weren't able to pronounce his new title with enough passion. His wedding was a political one. My father was congratulating him.

I remember looking at him, pretending to smile along while I thought wow, you're so painfully full of yourself.

Now it was my turn. My father began explaining how he'd grant my wish, university in America. I can't remember the State, but the fascination of being allowed to travel, alone, to my dream school, was something [Vanessa] had never thought of before.

I'll speed this up. I was staying with an Aunt in her studio apartment, she was never really there, but when she was, she was so rude and demeaning. She even expected more money though my father was paying her rent in compensation for having me.

I ran into a group that sort of morphed into friends in the next few weeks. They were so different from me, band practice, partying, activism amd still finding time to function were pretty strange for Aranyani who didn't even have a job.

I also met someone I immediately started crushing on. Tall, dark, handsome - a classic but not all the way. Pretty green eyes, long, wavy hair. He was so strange to me, and well, cool. We had a flirtationship, no strings attached until he took me on a first date.

We went to something like a bodega. I was early, so I wanted to get something to snack on. I experienced r*cism for the first time in both regards. The name I chose for Aranyani is important because the clerk kept mispronouncing my name and laughing, even though it was a 2-syllable name. He even told me my name wasn't real, that it was ghetto so it wasn't his fault he couldn't get it right.

The others in the back were laughing as well. I'd never experienced this kind of thing, and got so angry. I explained to them that my name had culture, roots, my name is divine. It represented gods of forests and mountains and his own ignorance of the world he lived in was no one's fault but his incompetent self.

He didn't care very much. Poor Aranyani. Well, at least not until my date showed up, towering over my shoulder, abd made fun of him.

We left without getting anything.

He walked me home through a less expensive part of town where I'd gotten an apartment out of my allowance. A very spacious, 1 bedroom deal. He was so impressed with me, and asked if my parents knew. He'd never ask a thimg about them before so I gave him the whole rundown.

A Hindu mother who was no longer in the picture, and a father who was a very powerful man and probably would not approve of him. He seemed amused by that.

I invited him inside; to which I explained that after souring things between him and my aunt, he started sending all my compensatory money to me instead. I could buy other things now, like thigh high socks (she's so silly and cute (*＾＾*)//)

Now the dream ends with him teasing if he could see me in them, but he instead went to my kitchen, to make us both something before he left.

I woke up as this self, and that was such a detailed experience that has NEVER happened before. I'll continue to be disbelieve that I am any thing but I AM.

This is absolutely incredible, thank you for sharing it with me ♥

An acquaintance of mine went through a similar thing, although she did it more consciously (on purpose but uncertain if she would achieve it, she tried lightheartedly). Went to sleep next to her boyfriend, woke up to a totally different version of her reality with everything she wanted but without the boyfriend. She went on and lived as her for months, totally happy and content, it was her ideal of everything, including people, she had no bad experience with anyone whatsoever. She half missed him, things were too good, she didn't think about him that much, but living in literal perfection brought some boredom, so she decided she'd try and see if she could wake up in the same past timeline, next to him that morning. She did, it was the date she left again and it was like nothing has even happened. (She did try to tell him about if but he was like 'What the hell are you even talking about?') We lost contact since then so I don't know if she went back or chose to stay with him, but it just goes to show how malleable everything is when you don't take 'reality' seriously <3

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hey! have you heard of non-dualism? I’m new to it and I’m still grasping the concept. I’m so sorry if this is a stupid qns to ask but how do I observe that I am in my desired reality?

and also last night I had a dream and someone said “non-dualism dosent work” what does this mean?😭

thank you!

yes i've heard of nondualism, my blog is abt it lol

observing/ being the observer isnt a method, its what u are doing rn

the dream doesn't have to mean anything. also non dualism isnt a method or law

here's a rundown on nondualism: post & another post

(consciousness = I AM, awareness, infinity, Self etc)

its okay if you don't get it now, the mind doesn't need to get it. you've been observing thoughts your whole life right? you're observing this text rn? your mind didn't understand anything before, and it will not be able to grasp infinity. you already are infinity, but you still look outside for the truth. nondualism is about returning back to your Self.

your desired reality isn't outside of you. it isn't somewhere to go. this 'world' you are seeing now is just awareness appearing as form. your mind and body as are unconscious as the wall. its your awareness that breathes life into all. the desired reality you want is not seperate from you. the reason why you think you have 'failed' observing your desired reality is because you take the body-mind to be real. if lets say you visualise your desired reality, this means you are there right now bcs you are the awareness, not the body.

also, you might think that you being the observer or the awareness only is done when you are awake, but its always there. when you go to sleep, the body and mind fall away but you the awareness, are still aware / observing, its just that you have no mind in that moment. you are always observing. you are always the awareness.

you can also look to this post (infinite.ko on insta)

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no but legitimately guys your perspective is not real. like i'm speaking from my identity right now but your identity is absolutely surface level. like. idk how to describe. we legit do not see reality how it is. reality is perfect, and we muddy it with our psychotic minds that can't see truth. in reality, everything is pure and perfect. i've felt it. it was more real than anything i've experienced in this lifetime. i felt the perfection that is omnipresent and loving, which has no time, no distance. when my identity disappeared (momentarily), the veil of my old reality disappeared. the identity is truly a veil that clouds your view! and i could feel in other people, that their identity was extremely surface level. the only real thing was the omnipresence. circumstance is merely part of identity, and it's also very surface level. what is beneath the identity is god, and its within all of us. like seriously, what you believe to be "reality" is so far from the actual truth. so so so far.

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Hey cutie! Do you have any books to help understand the power of your mind? If you don’t, it’s ok!

hii love! just so you know, the power resides within self, not mind. the effort of manifesting methods are essentially just meant to quiet the mind, coax it into believing, so that self can be expressed harmoniously in the desired direction. it's not the mind that has the power, it is you. the mind just indicates direction -- it is simply a steering wheel. i haven't found a book i 100% would advocate for, so here's just a list of a few that you can check out, that you might like. you can find PDFs of them all online.

"becoming supernatural" - joe dispenza (fits your criteria)

edwart art's series (loa recommendation)

the power of now - eckhart tolle (nondualism recommendation)

the power of awareness - neville goddard (old loa favorite)

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Found Neville talking about detachment in one of my old folders 💯

Realize you are not ANY conception. You already are not. We've only had trouble assuming different forms because all this time we wrestled with the mind, trying to get it to believe — but the mind was not all along.

[iamthat-iam]

Stop identifying with the human body.

I can't stop laughing because I spent so long trying to figure out what people meant when they said "stop identifying with your human self" and I would continually tell myself that I'm God/awareness/consciousness etc. While still acknowledging that the "outer world" still looked the same. I didn't realize that acknowledging that was STILL ME IDENTIFYING WITH MY HUMAN SELF because I'm using my HUMAN EYES to look around and determine what's real or not. If I am not the body.. then whatever I "see" out of the human eyes is irrelevant!! Because I am not the human body!! God/awareness knows that they are not separate from anything so anytime they choose to be aware of something, that is what they are observing or experiencing right now. Stop acknowledging anything you see with your human eyes unless it's your desires materializing. Because you are not the human body, including the eyes!

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LISTEN UPPP. And listen up good.

all the questions in my asks are the same worded differently. so i'll make a long post answering multiple points

The idea that there is a world outside of yourself is just your thought that there is a world. Body dies, alright? It dies. And with no one, no senses to perceive a world, the world goes as well. Both poof, both disappear.

YOU still exist. Can you imagine not existing????

Even when body, which is matter, goes, who you think you are (the personality) still stays. Here's how I know, not just from my documentation:

Before I discovered manifesting, back in 2019, I had a very poor sleep schedule, it was like 9-10 in the morning, I haven't slept all night, mentally I was wide awake but my body was so exhausted it felt so heavy on me. Mentally I was completely fine, so I had a hard time falling asleep. But I did. Or so I thought. Because as soon as I did I found 'myself' above my body, looking down at it. Reminder, I had no experience with spirituality, I watched a series about astral projecting in the past (Through her eyes on Netflix) but I won't say I believed it, or even contemplated that I could do it. Obviously when this happened none of my thoughts went to astral projection. I panicked so hard, if I had a body I would have been having 10 panic attacks a second and hyperventilating. I thought I was dead. That was my first thought. I was dead. I went from my bedroom to my parents, desperately calling for my mom, but no one was home, it was 10AM, weekday in the summer, and both my parents were at work. I was afraid to leave my parents room and go outside the house, because 1) my screaming was inaudible, even though I WAS screaming "MOM save me" with everything I had 😆 2) nobody could see me, i couldn't even see me, i was not even a cloud, i was nothing, how could anybody interact with me? 3) i was scared that if i went much farther away from my body, outside, then I would be abandoning it & really make it disappear since I was nowhere around it. What I did was go back to my bedroom, scream my name in my face telling myself to wake up. It didn't work, 'I' didn't hear me either. So my next action plan was to give myself CPR. I had no body, but what other choice did I have except attempt at resurrecting myself? I went full in, wanting to push whatever weight I had (none) onto my chest, and I... plunged. I was in the body again, wide awake now, shaking like a leaf and ready to cry. I was so panicked, I had a hard time believing I was actually alive. I was looking at my arms still unsure if I was dreaming or awake. I texted the only friend I knew I'd find up at that hour to confirm that they were getting my texts and I was real. I did start crying when I started explaining to them of how I "dreamed" I was dead. I had no other way to explain it to myself, let alone another person. That was the scariest experience of my life. I was afraid to go back to sleep. I kept my friend up with me for longer than an hour just talking to me so I could come back to my senses. I was legitimately afraid that if I close my eyes and fall asleep, I'll lose my body again. That I would die for real now. Then I settled to this being "another chance" (lol now) and I swore I'll fix my sleeping habits (because they lead me to death LOL again)

If you want more technical info on my experience with astral projecting: I could see but not as clear as I see with my eyes. The images were blurry but not blurry enough to not know where I was or what I was seeing, but blurry enough to not be able to tell if the body was breathing, hence the extra panic. (I've read that the more you do it, the better it gets and you end up seeing normally/clearly) You can check out Bob Monroe's journey with astral projection if it's something you're interested in. I can only explain it as floating in the air, I could go down or go up, change the perspective of my sight in whichever way I wanted. Body is on the ground so you know, perspective is quite limited from it. My angle was from above but I had a wider range of perspectives.

Back to the point, body dies. Personality is left. You are left with 'yourself'. But what is 'yourself' is only an idea you made up about yourself. An idea that you were born, had this body, developed this personality, and that is you. What're you gonna do now when there's no world and no body to interact with? Why stay like this when there's no one to know what you were before? You stay like this because you're attached to this personality. But being like this in nothing will get boring, eventually, so boring that you will be willing to lose this you have now to be something/someone else because it's the only entertainment you have. So you become another person, and another, and another... so many you are attached to none any more and they're just experiences YOU want to have. WELL WHO IS YOU IF YOU CAN ADD ANOTHER PERSONALITY ONTO IT?

Free will and "real" life

The free will of the character is so limited it's none. The extent of Ada's free will in making decisions goes "Yeah, I'll break up with Joe and get with Rowan. Rowan is a better fit for me because my personality is this and his is that and we go well together yada yada" Who's to say Harry wouldn't have been an even better fit, but she had no choice because she only knew Joe and Rowan. TRANSLATION: character only makes do with what it has. It's all it can do. Making choices in a play you're a part of doesn't change the overall destiny (Have you ever played any of those 'choose your story' games? They give you the illusion that the choice you make alters the character's life, when in reality most is decided already and you're making no dent in the plot). And yes, it's true that I can change the beliefs Ada has, therefore alter the plot (what manifesting mostly is), but it's a very hard process, conditioning an already extremely limited and conditioned thing. I can change her destiny only if I manage to change her beliefs (which are usually very strong and egos are very stubborn). Past is remembered all the time so whenever I try to make a change in her thinking the reasoning part of her brain goes "But HOW can I suddenly be lucky when all my life I've had bad luck? It's just very hard to believe." And it is, and she is right. And then you think you're weak minded for not being able to do it.

Listen. Your brain is a very limited thing. It stores memories and habits of this body and that's all it knows.

Mind (is synonymous with consciousness!) contains all, every conception, but identifies itself with one in particular for the duration of the play. The brain is the mind of that character, and all the character knows.

BLIND FAITH IS STUPID.

If Vanessa isn't naive or easily trusting, that girl is never gonna take some stranger's word for it that she can change her life by thinking she's gorgeous and powerful all of a sudden. She will try and try (to recondition herself and do what she's been told that works) but she doesn't really believe because she doesn't see it so nothing comes of it. Changes are small, mindset might be better (she may be overall happier depending on the amount of reconditioning of her brain she managed to do, or she goes insane and her mental health is even worse because she's always finding things to change with herself, trying and trying and trying in this never ending cycle of being better, doing more). Basically, Vanessa is doomed either way and she has limited power even when she thinks she's the shit. "Trust in God, I AM, your higher self!", "Have faith and it will work!" Well, I, as Ada, can't. I am very stubborn you see. I can't believe in waiting bringing me stuff about. Who's this higher self anyway, why is it making me wait and have faith? What's this law with its blind faith, except remastered religion?

Enough. What you are, you see. You are Vanessa or Lara, okay, you are because you believe you are. And you're right! It's true, you are, your eyes are working fine and your life might be hell 😍 what do you have to lose if YOU CHANGE YOUR MIND and think "What if I wasn't?" Streams and floods of better ideas of what you could've been/could be come through, don't they? "That's so nice if it were true🥺" Alrightie then! That must be the solution, no? Not be Vanessa? Well how do I stop being Vanessa? How (the big HOW!!) do you know you are Vanessa except by your belief that you are Vanessa? 🤷‍♀️ To know a different thing you must stop thinking this one is true first? "Got it, it's not!", "But even if it's not me I am seeing her life and her 'reality'?", "I am unaffected by the events now, but how do I stop seeing them?" Are you, though? You sure it has nothing to do with you anymore? Fine I'll take your word for it ☺️ Now start thinking you're a different thing. BUT THE SAME EVENTS OF HER LIFE HAPPEN?! Really, how so? World has no standing except for your thought of it, be honest with yourselves, not me. I'll reenact what you're doing.

"Ada, your depression is not real. Your house is not real. Your parents are not real." "Yes, they are, I see them!", "Don't invalidate my experience, I have TRAUMA😠" that's how the convo goes. Then you get disinterested in the convo, "Alright I'm tired of your problems, not me". And you feel lighter, you feel better. You soothed your mind for the time being, there's no big feelings now that you don't identify yourself with her...

For a while, because then something happens and you still believe it's there and it's real and you have to somehow deal with it. You're back confusing the 'you' with Vanessa. "I'm seeing the parents and the world again, that must mean I did it wrong?" I need to ask, seek more. Where do I go from this? WOULD YOU CARE WHAT HAPPENED NEXT, SEEING THE SAME WORLD TOMORROW, IF YOU REALLY DISBELIEVED VANESSA IS YOU OR YOUR BUSINESS? WOULD YOU CARE, I ask you.

"I don't care... but what do I do next, I'm lost🥺"

"Of course I care!!! I want a better life!!!" Who's you?, you go back to the beginning of the post again, you especially read it five times more actually.

To answer the first:

Think what you want.

Past doesn't come up anymore, memories don't come up anymore after you've ignored - detached yourself enough. They just don't. You can think freely now about being something different. If you can't, don't get mad, don't blame, only know that the one that's doubting isn't you, so the doubts are totally fine to be. They'll be for a while and then they dissolve too, because by ignoring, not getting involved - you forget. And by forgetting not only do you free up so much mental space, but possibilities of what can be become unnumbered.

All you are doing is becoming lucid. Becoming able to control the dream. You won't be able to, unless you step out of it. That is, stop thinking this story you tell yourself is true. You won't be able to get mad, sad, or even frustrated at whatever is playing in front of you, because to be involved to this extent you have to think you're it, it's an actual thing "you" are going through. That's not to say you'll become an emotionless robot (the only thing unlimited abt you guys rn is your worries, so much that i have to address them in advance), but that you will feel your emotion in the present and not remain mentally scarred by it forever. You will be able to say "alright, no more" when you've had your fill of crying, being angry, throwing a fit. Emotions won't be able to rule you anymore, right now, they fully do. You are their prisoner. Your ego dominates you so completely.

When Vanessa is no longer all you are, you'll be able to 'change reality' the way you change the film in a video projector. You'll be able to have as much fun in the play as you want to, change it when you no longer want this one specifically. The emotions of the character are fun and welcomed, because they no longer imprison you, there's the background of love to it all - that once you gain, it can't be lost, it's ever present.

That being said, please stop asking me questions about fulfilling or persisting, they're from another planet in this state.

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When you sleep at night, you think the world you're dreaming of is real. You wake up in the morning and you go on living in a different world, which you also think it's real. But while you were in the first dream you had no memory of this world, did you? The life that you were living in the present moment was all it was, and it was real to you then. You come into the waking state and forget all about that dream (because you dismiss it as unreal & imagined so you have no reason to care once the experience is over), you're present in a second dream, and you deal with this one because now that's "what is real". But there is no difference between sleeping and waking, awareness is the background of both.

You just think the waking state more real because you've dreamt it over and over and reinforced your belief. They're equally imaginary. Become aware of this and life will forever be a breeze 🍃

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Ada, how do I manifest being productive? I procrastinate easily and that is preventing me from discovering and embodying my I AMness. I am sure a lot of the people in the community have the same problem. Could you please help us out?

There's nothing to be productive about. What a silly concept. Don't add another burden or worry onto yourself. Right now you make yourself guilty over not seeking more and doing more to attain realization, but you already have it. You need not take time to meditate or put time aside to contemplate and "apply". All you need to do is detach from this form during the day, let life happen as it happens while reminding yourself it's a dream, a dream that doesn't have to be yours.

The guilt is because you think you're running out of time and you need to change "your" life now. Be patient with yourself because you don't lose any time, just get to that place I'm telling you about and then you can just go back in time if you so wish. All worry is pointless! And there is nothing to fear, things just happen, do not claim them as yours for a while. Unclutter your mind, it becomes your servant after you've freed it enough.

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although i've been living in my 4D for days, feeling happy, fulfilled, feeling like the 4D is the real one and barely acknowledging the 3D, my old self is still the one in the world. when i had to take care of obligations, i looked at the 3D as my "past self" and had no reactions or feelings about it. but there are still no changes, and i don't understand what i'm doing wrong, please help me... i'm tired of living a perfect life in the 4D when everything in the 3D stays the same...

To be aware of being something new means a total denial of the old. What you're talking about is tolerance of something you don't want there, but still continue to recreate because of ignorance.

This permissive new is not really new. It is but a new attitude of the old. The really new obliterates the old completely.

When you talk of the old self and new (or 3D self and 4D self), whom do you have in mind? As there is continuity in memory between the two, each remembering the other, how can you speak of two selves? There is but one self — it is always now.

The self is single. You are that self and you have ideas of what you have been or will be. But an idea is not the self. Just now, who sent this ask, which self are you? The old or the new?

I will tell you. Conflict is the characteristic of the old. When the new emerges the old is no longer. You cannot speak of the new and the conflict in the same breath. Even the effort of striving for the new self is of the old. Wherever there is conflict, effort, struggle, striving, longing for a change, the new is not.

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If we’re nothing? How do we get entertained by life? There will be separation…it will never truly feel like “your” life but this body’s life and how is that enjoyable?

I love my bf so much but the concept that I am not this body means he’s not my boyfriend and he isn’t real …that makes me feel sad

Nothing is real, detachment is lonely

Detachment is not that you should own nothing but that nothing should own you.

You don't get entertained by life, you are life.

The boyfriend is not yours, but the body's.

You aren't the sad one, the ego is.

I love my partner as well but if he wants to leave that wouldn't affect me at all. If someone else could make him happier then with all my heart, he can leave and find that someone. You don't love people, you need people to feel good about yourself or life. Love is complete freedom. Also, I don't mind being needed and he definitely needs me in the same way you need your boyfriend because he makes you feel good & life is better with him. But I don't need anything, not his love nor anyone else's. Which frees people and you're only really loved in return when you allow everyone their being and freedom.

Life is amazing either way, people loving me or not. I'm not attached to anything. When you cling to something your happiness is dependent on that something and it's gone the moment the person or the thing is gone.

Lastly, detachment is not lonely. It's freedom and it's real love. Needing is selfish, it's self-centered. It's not about the partner, but about you (the ego).

The self has no preference and it's because of that that it can be everything.

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my love, how are you? first of all iwant to thank you for "spending" your time answering the asks here, i really appreciate it! i really like you and everything you post, really. but anyway, i want to ask about what do you think about manifesting a totally different life? it's my goal, you know? appearance, social life, social status, family, friends, personality, everything different. but i don't see many people with that desire, at most they want to have something or change their appearance. i feel distant from the manifestations for having such high dreams and such drastic changes, you know? i don't see many success stories, and it ends up being discouraging because of the many changes. could you help me with this?

What does it matter what others want? You create the others in your imagination.

Your dreams are not high at all, manifestation community hasn't even scratched the surface of what is possible. You need no success story, you already are a sucess story, you're creating a body and a world right now, become aware of this - you can change them daily. You can live a different life every. day.