If my heart beats for Kabul, it's for the slopes of Bala Hissar, holding my dead in its foothills. Though not one, not one of those wretched hearts ever beat for me. If my heart grieves for Kabul, it's for Leyla's sighs of âOh, dear God!' and my grandmother's heart set pounding. It's for Golnar's eyes scanning the paths from dawn to dusk, spring to autumn, staring so long that all the roads fall apart and in my teenage nightmares side roads suddenly shed their skins. If my heart trembles for Kabul, it's for the slow step of summer noons, siestas in my father's house which, heavy with mid-day sleep, still weighs on my ribs. For the playful Angel of the Right Shoulder who keeps forgetting to ward away stray bullets. It's for the hawker's cry of the vegetable seller doing his rounds, lost in my neighbours' troubled dreams, that my heart's trembling. -Shakila Azizzada