Neonna🌙

Malaysian Vtuber | Muslimah | INTJ | Contact me on Twitter to commission art from me! @neonnach

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To read

The Handbook of Spiritual Medicine

Don't Be Sad 

Stories of the Prophet

Recommended by

Ramsha Sultan

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Alhamdulillah to everything in the past, present and the future, including the bad things I went through - without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.

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Maintaining our deen is certainly challenging. There are so many temptations to destroy it or abandon it for the sake of conveniency. There's also the unsettling feeling of making others feel uncomfortable, since they misunderstand our intention to feel superior rather than being genuinely religious.

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Streaming World War Z: Aftermath was really fun! Thanks to everyone who tuned in. Special thanks to nurnanachan for the raid, and for Goundo3 staying throughout the whole stream.

If you never watch my stream before, hope you can catch the next one!

Links:

twitch.tv/neonnach

youtube.com/c/neonnach

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Whenever I'm going through a hardship, I tell myself that this is one of the stepping stones to something greater, just like how Prophet Yusuf was thrown into the well by his brothers, it was meant to bring him to the prison that finally gives him the chance to talk to the king and finally be appointed as the country's treasurer to prevent a crisis that would supposedly cause the death of million children.

My hardship is the well. And I ask Allah to give me guidance to understand the wisdom behind what I'm going through right now, or have the patience until I see the end of the tunnel.

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Changes next year would include me turning into a hijabi vtuber or most likely not have an avatar at all. 🤣 I want to get more in touch with my deen and detach myself from this dunya. Life's too short to please others.

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I'm really fascinated by our angel Gabriel, or Jibreel. In his angelic form, he has 600 wings, and from them rains rubies and gems. In that form, he fills the entire sky.

When pharaoh was drowning, Gabriel kicked dirt into pharaoh's mouth to prevent pharaoh from uttering words of repentance. To me, that's chad. 🤣

Gabriel also gave the following advice:

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My Remedy for Anxiety

I used to feel constantly anxious. I was brought up by hypercritical parents who would comment on everything I do. So now I’m used to please others just so they won’t disapprove me and bring me down.

I try to instill confidence in myself, like saying, “Don’t care about what they think,” or, “You have to take care of yourself.” 

But those do not work because I generally care about others - I don’t like being selfish. When I look at other confident people, they seem to have one thing in common. They think they’re better than everyone else. It seems arrogance does help to instill confidence, but I don’t like to develop my confidence from something so ugly. 

I got my answer from understanding how humans are created according to the Quran.

We are all souls, a beautiful creation that has the ability to balance right and wrong before making a decision. Then our vessels are made from clay. Souls are sent into those temporary vessels to go through this test on Earth. 

But before we were sent to Earth, Allah made all the angels to prostrate or do sajdah to us, to note the magnificence of our creation. The only person that refuse to is the devil named Iblis. He used to be a jinn who followed Allah’s orders, but had too much arrogance in himself - so he defied Allah order to acknowledge the magnificence creation of humans. 

The devil hates us. He aims to kill our confidence, feel like we’re nothing and feel anxious all the time. He aims to put us down to make himself feel better. 

Secondly, all the angels acknowledged how beautiful and magnificent our creation is. Remember that angels are made from light, they never fail to follow Allah’s orders and they are strong, beautiful creatures whose number of wings can vary and can reach up to 600 wings. But they acknowledge that humans have the ability to be better than them. 

Allah and all the angels have confidence in us. They trust in our ability. They know our strengths and weaknesses since we were just a soul. They know how great we can be, how kind, how smart and so on.

The devils want to kill that confidence. 

After I learn this perspective, I’ve never felt more calm, knowing the Lord of the Universe and his army of Angels celebrate my existence, trust in my capability and care about me. Indeed, Allah is both the All-Knowing and the Most-Wise.

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So I'm not really liking my job's working hours. I have to work in weekends and I only have one day off. It's been exhausting even though the workload is light. But to wake up early every morning and rush somewhere, and prevented from doing the things you want for 8-9 hours is exhausting.

I just requested to my employer to change full-time to part-time, but she said we will discuss again next week. I'm not sure what I will end up with.

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My employer didn't say anything about part-time but she said the most I can get is two days off with gap in between which can't be implemented because they're understaffed. I'm just annoyed with the fact that they keep using understaff as an excuse when they could just hire more. They told me to be "patient." I do like the work in general. I'm just tired of working in weekends.

I don't think they're going to give a solution for me. I think they're set on being understaffed so they can cut cost and gain more profit.

I'm still applying other jobs and when I get one, I will resign from this.

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[busrodah]

@neonnach draw yourself like this

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So I'm not really liking my job's working hours. I have to work in weekends and I only have one day off. It's been exhausting even though the workload is light. But to wake up early every morning and rush somewhere, and prevented from doing the things you want for 8-9 hours is exhausting.

I just requested to my employer to change full-time to part-time, but she said we will discuss again next week. I'm not sure what I will end up with.

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My car and two motorcycles need some serious maintenance and repair but at least I get to miss work over this. 🤣

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“Knowledge will always be secondary to character.”

- Nouman Ali Khan

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[ice-block]

I think it would be very funny for like characters in a fantasy setting to walk into a pub and try to order and the bartender sighs and goes "species and age?" While pulling out a massive book holding the drinking age for every type of species capable of purchasing alcohol

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While not fantasy, Mass Effect had something like this in their bars. Different species having different tolerance to different types of drinks and drinking the ones not meant for the human species eventually makes you pass out and waking up in the bathroom or entrance after one shot.

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I might have met a female ENTJ/ESTJ today and it is so ENLIGHTENING to be around someone assertive and outspoken.

MBTI community keeps saying INTJ is outspoken but NO, WE ARE NOT. We keep it in our heads, because we're super sensitive, deep inside, and we don't want to deal with disagreements or conflicts, especially when that person's in front of us.

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The problem with being an introvert is you don't get as much 'common knowledge' as extroverts do, because the common knowledge is exchanged through casual conversations and as introverts, we don't do that. We rely on books so we don't need to deal with people. The downside is; if we haven't read a book for that specific area, we won't naturally know how to do it.