Dotted Rose

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I love my job.

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He grabs my hand so tight

And pulls me in real close

His happiness surrounds me

And gives me a little dose

He's with me in the house

And follows me on the stair

He smiles and laughs at me

And says a bit of dare

He runs around me laughing

His happiness surreal

And when I join in

Happy isn't what I feel

He breathes and I feel heavy

Heavy, deep and loud

It feels as if I'm lost

My brain is in cloud

I take some meds to help

Me when he's around

But sometimes I forget

And then I hit the ground

His name is Depression

And he's a good friend

I know him very well

And will til the end

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Sick

Sick of the silence, Sick of doubt

Sick of turning inside out

Sick of the crying, sick of the fear

Sick of hiding every tear

Sick of being, sick of want

Sick of being just a haunt

Sick of hurting, sick of pain

Sick of standing in the rain

Sick of walking, sick of the day

Sick of every single way

Sick of dying, sick of brain

Sick of bringing you pain

Sick of silence, sick of talk

Sick of hurting when I walk

Sick of weight, sick of fads

Sick of always being mad

Sick of trying, sick of days

Where you are my only sunshine ray.

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Nothingness

Tired but can't sleep

Taken but not lost

Bored but cant think

I'm caught by nothing

Tried to go, but can't move

Fuzzy and can't think

Heavy and on the brink

I'm caught by nothing

Emotional but unfeeling

Tired of it, about to quit

Seeming to be there

I'm caught by nothing

Mind is dead, but not always

Tried to help, can't work

Brain becoming blank

I'm caught by nothing

It is real, but unexplainable

Can't be touched or heard

Only in minds can be seen

Taken away by the nothing

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Nevermore, Never to be

When it gets dark, And you cannot see

Turn on a light, And listen to me

When you are tired, bored and alone

Just remember yourself, just feel at home

Don't beat yourself up, And don't let go

Bundle your fears, To toss and throw

Just try to smile, And don't you frown

The perfect thought, can turn it around

It might be someone, it could be something

It might be a memory, it could be dream

It's different for you, And different for me

But when you need it most, Just try to see

Smile and remember, that you are loved

Go away from the cliff, before you are shoved

Do what you love, And enjoy it forever

It is time, Never say never

Let go of your fears, for they hold you back

Leap for your dreams, Start the attack

Nevermore to cry, And sad never to be

You are beautiful, just listen to me.