My Thoughts - My Mind

Honestly, I made this for me. If you read any of this great if not it isn't hurting my feelings. I just figured I'd put my thoughts and feelings into something for myself...also to just RANT when I feel like it...thanks!

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I have a feeling if I don’t keep my distance from you I won’t get over these feelings.

[daydreaming-suggestions]

I’m daydreaming of the day when we can spend Christmas Day together. You can cook all day and I’ll help when I can, but mostly I’ll just wrap my arms around you from behind and nibble on your ears and neck. We can have a quiet meal together, then slow dance to classic Christmas songs in the living room with the lights turned low. When we’re sleepy from the meal and the dancing, we can curl up on the couch and watch Christmas movies until I fall asleep, nuzzled against your chest. Baby, all I want for Christmas is you.

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“I like me better when I’m with you”

~I like me better By Lauv~

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[extramadness]

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I doubt that anyone has ever seen me in this way.

[extramadness]

[thegoodvybe]

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❤️

[teenagecrush]

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Something that I honestly can't stand, are bold faced liars. If you had no intentions of going just say no, or if you don't want to, just say NO. No need to lie, you can decline an offer you know. Seriously, don't say you can't go because for some reason you're on lockdown and can't go out, yet all weekend long while we're snap chatting you're out and about going places, like the mall. That just irritates the fuck out of me, TBH I figured you'd say no from the start, but you felt the need to lie and not just say no thanks, or I kind of don't want to. Why do people not just say things instead of lying or making up excuses. No where does it say you HAVE to accept an invitation to anything. Ugh...people...

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I hate you, I love you.

Hate and love are strong words, and although I don't mean hate and love I'm using them to help me pretty much get my point across, and this is something I just need to say out loud. I have feelings for you, I've always had feelings for you since the moment I saw you. Like my others, they're feelings that shouldn't happen, because you're straight and taken. I hate that I feel the way I do about you, and my feelings are so strong. I hate that I can't be happy with someone I'd like to be happy with, we talk everyday and although sometimes out conversations are pointless I like them. I'm not sure if you talk to me because I have a sad life but I mean, you make it an effort to talk to me and when we talk you make me smile, you're such a dork and a goober but I love it. You always talk about her, and I give you advice and we talk and I hate it but I obviously want you to be happy and regardless it's not an option for us. I'll always be here for you like you say you are for me, because you plan to stick around and I like that about you. Thank you so much for caring the way you do...it's amazing. And no matter what I'll always have feelings for you, but this is one friendship I don't plan to ruin... Also this probably doesn't make sense since it all over the place.

[doll]

i think the worst feeling ever is when someone means more to you than you mean to them

[serious]

Everyone deserves a person who will make their heart forget that it was once broken.

T.W. (via misjudgments)

[hatin]

All you did was smile at me and i was yours forever.

B.D (hatin)

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I'm so fucking done with this job. If I didn't like the pay, or need it, if so fucking look for another job or go back to what I did before. I seriously can't stand anyone anymore other than one person... Like you do realize i have no problem with beating the shit out of you no matter who you are or what your fucking position is there...try me you fuckers...

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I don't think that we can be friends anymore... I feel like you should be mad at me more than you are and I don't feel good about myself as a person because of what I did to our friendship. I feel like Everything I say doesn't mean shit. Just know I won't open my mouth to anyone, but even though I say that I feel like you don't think I would if I ever got mad at one of you and I don't want to make you feel that way, I honestly can't believe I did that. I've never ever done that before, I would never because I don't want anything like that happening to me and then I did it. Im a fucking horrible person. Sorry.