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I can’t afford rent

I can’t afford medication

I can’t work because I’m too sick

I think this might actually be the last straw

here’s to hoping I don’t wake up tomorrow

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I feel like I’m being punished for being sick

I can’t work at the moment due to illness, but Centrelink isn’t enough to live off. Rent is more than half my income - and after all regular bills, I have $30 a week ‘spare’.

I’ve depleted nearly all my savings, just to afford ‘irregular’ bills and medications.

I can’t get better if I am worrying myself sick over money. I feel so helpless. I honestly don’t see the point in living a life I get virtually no enjoyment out of.

I see my doctor Wednesday (luckily she bulk bills me, otherwise I wouldn’t be able to go). Hopefully she can get me a spot in hospital for crisis care, not sure how much longer I can do this.

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today was my birthday and I should be happy

but it’s 3am and all I feel is sad.

I am so stressed I haven’t had a chance to stop, and enjoy it. I’m broke, my doctor thinks I have bipolar and my nan is in hospital after waking up and having no memory.

I don’t feel as important to my friends any more. I feel like I’m not even in my body any more.

I just wanted to feel like I mattered for a day

who wants to buy my noods