I know and believe that I’m beautiful, sexy, and plenty of all the other positive affirmations... I just don’t have the *feelings* of the positive affirmations and it’s like that part of me is walled up so much that it’s difficult for me to open up with anyone it seems... it used to be so easy to actually *feel* that way and I wish that part of me would come back so I wouldn’t feel so broken inside.... So for now I’ll just keep doing what I’m doing until the pieces start fitting in together and those who truly understand can stick by my side for the ride. Art making will eventually commence after I get some things taken care and for the time being I’ll be trying to express my emotions with writings... something I always start but seem to never keep on doing past a small amount of instances. #selflove #writing #social #hiatusupdates #surviving #positivity #positive #artist #selfie #photo (at Hillsboro, Oregon)