#surviving

[fierycuriosityvibes]

I’m so tired of surviving.

[salted-fox-musings]

Hot Weather Survival - From Someone who has seen both High Humidity and Zero Humidity High Temps

Stay hydrated. Any liquids will do but caffeine/tea can make you lose fluids a little faster so while you can still enjoy them, supplement with a little extra water as well.

Some medications can make it harder to regulate body temperature. Speak to your doctor and confirm if any medication you're taking can affect you.

Regularly showering/bathing helps keep your skin clear and reduces the risk of sweat rashes and other bacterial infections. Showering before bed can also help your body temp drop enough to aid in sleeping.

Any dizziness, sudden change of mood, feeling "clammy" or cold, difficulty thinking clearly, sudden fatigue or headaches when you've been exposed to high heat is usually the onset of heat exhaustion and can rapidly lead to heat stroke. Find shade, drink room temperature water first or sip (not gulp) cold water. Body temp needs to be brought down slowly or you could go into shock. If symptoms persist or worsen after being removed from heat, reach out to emergency services or go to ER.

Some will say dry heat is better than heat with high humidity. If the temps are high enough, it doesn't matter. The air in the desert is just as capable of killing you as that in a swamp.

Covering windows can help slow your home from heating up but the right materials are important. You want something dense enough to block out light but THE SIDE THAT FACES OUTSIDE MUST BE LIGHT IN COLOUR. If the material is dark, its just going to heat up as it absorbs sunlight. If you can afford it, get thermal curtains. They do a lot of heavy lifting.

Try and keep air circulating as much as possible. A cheap box fan can help a lot. Try not to have it pointing directly at people if you can but do what you need to stay cool.

Misting or using evaporation coolers is tricky and not recommended unless the area is well ventilated with few porous surfaces. It can lead to mold growth.

Summer bedding and clothes should be made of cotton and washed frequently if you sweat when you sleep. You want thinner breathable fabric.

The hottest times of the day are typically going to be the late afternoon into early evening just before the sun goes down. If you need to go outside and do things, try to get as much done in the early morning as you can.

[s4renka]

Wake up. Dread and panic. Silly

[exhaustedhumanheart]

When I'm gone, will I ever be missed? 

Sometimes it seems that no one cares

The times I showed vulnerability, I got stabbed in the back

And they ask me, "Why are you like this? Solitary, introverted... silent..." Well... you don't understand my pain

No one understands 

When you have been abused so many times by so many people... you get tired

Tired of the opportunities, tired of living, watching hope slowly die

The darkness getting bigger and bigger 

A wall of regrets, a grief for my wasted energy and time 

People that didn't deserve to know me, to have my time and my body 

I neglected myself for so many years and gave people the permission to treat me like shit... because I was so fucked up... by everything 

If I kill myself trying to free myself, I would rather die being free than spend one more day being a slave

[words-from-rae]

I just spent my first night in my new apartment. I'm sitting here with my coffee, listening to the birds outside, watching people walking their dogs. Trying to decide how "fixed" each room needs to be before it feels functional. And I'm so incredibly happy. Because this is the first time I've been on my own. No other adults, no worrying if others are paying their part of the bills, and most importantly, I dont have to listen to my mother's demands, complaints, questions that aren't really questions. I don't have to deal with any of her bullshit anymore.

I am finally free at 43 years old. It is never too late. Things do get better. Maybe not as fast as I wanted it to, but its better. And I am never going back.

Don't give up. You'll get there.

[yumi138world]

𝘔𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘮𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘢𝘤𝘳𝘦

𝘖𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘨𝘶𝘺𝘴, 𝘰𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘨𝘶𝘺𝘴 𝘨𝘶𝘺𝘴, 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘢𝘪𝘥 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘺, 𝘖𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘨𝘶𝘺𝘴, 𝘰𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘨𝘶𝘺𝘴,

𝘐𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘮? (𝘐-𝘐-𝘐)

𝘠𝘰𝘶, 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘮?

𝘐𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘤𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳? 𝘐-𝘐-𝘐-𝘐-𝘐-𝘐-𝘐-𝘐

𝘚𝘪𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯,

𝘛𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘴,

𝘜𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘴,

𝘔𝘺 𝘩𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘧𝘵,

𝘐 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘯 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦,

𝘞𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴,

𝘍𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵,

𝘓𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶,

𝘎𝘳𝘢𝘣 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘪𝘳,

𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘭, 𝘐 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥,

𝘐 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘴, 𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦,

𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘪𝘴?

𝘓𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨,

𝘐'𝘮 𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 cash 𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘤𝘬𝘴 𝘟𝘰𝘹𝘰, 𝘹𝘰𝘹𝘰 𝘐'𝘮 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘬, 𝘟𝘰𝘹𝘰 𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 cash 𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘤𝘬𝘴,

𝘛𝘢 𝘵𝘢 𝘳𝘢 𝘳𝘢 𝘳𝘢𝘮𝘱𝘶𝘮𝘱,

𝘛𝘢 𝘵𝘢 𝘳𝘢 𝘳𝘢 𝘳𝘢𝘮𝘱𝘶𝘮𝘱,

𝘛𝘢 𝘵𝘢 𝘳𝘢 𝘳𝘢 𝘳𝘢𝘮𝘱𝘶𝘮𝘱,

𝘛𝘢 𝘵𝘢 𝘳𝘢 𝘳𝘢 𝘳𝘢𝘮𝘱𝘶𝘮𝘱,

𝘐'𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘥,

𝘞𝘢𝘭𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵,

𝘞𝘢𝘭𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵,

𝘐'𝘮 𝘢 𝘬𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬,

𝘋𝘢𝘮𝘯, 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘨𝘢𝘮𝘦, 𝘊𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦,

𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦,

𝘋𝘢𝘮𝘯,

𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘥𝘭𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘩, 𝘔𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘺,

𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯?

𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 (𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵)

𝘋𝘰𝘦𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳

𝘐'𝘮 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘳,

𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳,

𝘕𝘰 𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘪𝘤𝘦𝘳𝘴,

𝘚𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘨𝘶𝘢𝘳𝘥,

𝘚𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘥𝘦 𝘐 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨,

𝘐 𝘢𝘪𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭,

𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘩𝘦𝘳,

𝘊𝘶𝘻 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘣𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘬,

𝘔𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘢𝘤𝘳𝘦, (𝘨𝘶𝘯𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘵)

𝘐 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘷𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨

𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨,

𝘖𝘬𝘢𝘺 𝘨𝘰,

𝘠𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘭 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴,

𝘓𝘢𝘴𝘴, 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴, 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴, 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴, 𝘓𝘢𝘴𝘴, 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴, 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴, 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴, 𝘓𝘢𝘴𝘴, 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴, 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴, 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴,

𝘐𝘯 𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯,

𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴,

𝘏𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘭 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴,

𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳 it,

𝘐 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘢𝘥, 𝘐'𝘮 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳,

𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘮𝘦, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳,

𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘣𝘢𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘵𝘤𝘢𝘴𝘵, 𝘠𝘰, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘻𝘺,

𝘐'𝘮 𝘱𝘰𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘺 38 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭,

𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘨𝘰 𝘳𝘰𝘢𝘮,

𝘚𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘵𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘦,

𝘐 𝘴𝘢𝘸 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵,

𝘎𝘰 𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘮, 𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘮, 𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘮,

𝘐 𝘱𝘶𝘵 𝘢 𝘧𝘦𝘸 𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶,

𝘕𝘰𝘸 𝘱𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 doom,

𝘐 𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘳𝘰𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭,

𝘈𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦,

𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘯,

𝘏𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘰𝘯,

𝘔𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘐'𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘰𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘢𝘪𝘥,

𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘠𝘖𝘜

𝘎𝘦𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵,

𝘐'𝘮 𝘢𝘪𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴,

𝘚𝘩𝘶𝘵 𝘶𝘱 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘪𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘳𝘢𝘮𝘢, 𝘈𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘥𝘶𝘮𝘣𝘢𝘴𝘴,

𝘉𝘶𝘵, 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘰𝘯

𝘐'𝘮 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘢𝘵 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘨𝘰,

𝘚𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘬,

𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘢𝘪𝘯'𝘵 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘬, 𝘋𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦 𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘰𝘣𝘦𝘳,

𝘞𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦, 𝘛𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵, 𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵,

𝘏𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳

[emintsys]

wallpaper i made! all from pinterest except bg

im feeling the vibes of the past and this one screams:

im 16 and im so tired and about to k1ll myself but also living and trying to piece my whole family together while trying to have a life of my own. yayyyyyyyyy

has to be accompanied by drunk walk home by mitski in the background to give the whole vibe.