#surviving

[feverdreamgrrrl]

Why is it actually so embarrassing to be on campus by myself. I look like the loser I truly am.

[evermayflower]

One of the benefits of adulthood is staying up until 9am with no sleep and your partner looking at you and going, “You know what we totally need? Biscuits.” So now we’re making Pillsbury biscuits.

[fierycuriosityvibes]

I’m so tired of surviving.

[salted-fox-musings]

Hot Weather Survival - From Someone who has seen both High Humidity and Zero Humidity High Temps

Stay hydrated. Any liquids will do but caffeine/tea can make you lose fluids a little faster so while you can still enjoy them, supplement with a little extra water as well.

Some medications can make it harder to regulate body temperature. Speak to your doctor and confirm if any medication you're taking can affect you.

Regularly showering/bathing helps keep your skin clear and reduces the risk of sweat rashes and other bacterial infections. Showering before bed can also help your body temp drop enough to aid in sleeping.

Any dizziness, sudden change of mood, feeling "clammy" or cold, difficulty thinking clearly, sudden fatigue or headaches when you've been exposed to high heat is usually the onset of heat exhaustion and can rapidly lead to heat stroke. Find shade, drink room temperature water first or sip (not gulp) cold water. Body temp needs to be brought down slowly or you could go into shock. If symptoms persist or worsen after being removed from heat, reach out to emergency services or go to ER.

Some will say dry heat is better than heat with high humidity. If the temps are high enough, it doesn't matter. The air in the desert is just as capable of killing you as that in a swamp.

Covering windows can help slow your home from heating up but the right materials are important. You want something dense enough to block out light but THE SIDE THAT FACES OUTSIDE MUST BE LIGHT IN COLOUR. If the material is dark, its just going to heat up as it absorbs sunlight. If you can afford it, get thermal curtains. They do a lot of heavy lifting.

Try and keep air circulating as much as possible. A cheap box fan can help a lot. Try not to have it pointing directly at people if you can but do what you need to stay cool.

Misting or using evaporation coolers is tricky and not recommended unless the area is well ventilated with few porous surfaces. It can lead to mold growth.

Summer bedding and clothes should be made of cotton and washed frequently if you sweat when you sleep. You want thinner breathable fabric.

The hottest times of the day are typically going to be the late afternoon into early evening just before the sun goes down. If you need to go outside and do things, try to get as much done in the early morning as you can.

[s4renka]

Wake up. Dread and panic. Silly

[exhaustedhumanheart]

When I'm gone, will I ever be missed? 

Sometimes it seems that no one cares

The times I showed vulnerability, I got stabbed in the back

And they ask me, "Why are you like this? Solitary, introverted... silent..." Well... you don't understand my pain

No one understands 

When you have been abused so many times by so many people... you get tired

Tired of the opportunities, tired of living, watching hope slowly die

The darkness getting bigger and bigger 

A wall of regrets, a grief for my wasted energy and time 

People that didn't deserve to know me, to have my time and my body 

I neglected myself for so many years and gave people the permission to treat me like shit... because I was so fucked up... by everything 

If I kill myself trying to free myself, I would rather die being free than spend one more day being a slave

[words-from-rae]

I just spent my first night in my new apartment. I'm sitting here with my coffee, listening to the birds outside, watching people walking their dogs. Trying to decide how "fixed" each room needs to be before it feels functional. And I'm so incredibly happy. Because this is the first time I've been on my own. No other adults, no worrying if others are paying their part of the bills, and most importantly, I dont have to listen to my mother's demands, complaints, questions that aren't really questions. I don't have to deal with any of her bullshit anymore.

I am finally free at 43 years old. It is never too late. Things do get better. Maybe not as fast as I wanted it to, but its better. And I am never going back.

Don't give up. You'll get there.