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It was a nice dream, I was watching a parade and suddenly it began to rain, the parade got canceled and then you appeared trying to see if it was still ongoing. You saw me, and I said hi. We began talking as we walk away to the crowd. I realized something and then I split in two, and it's like I'm arguing with myself as you go away. My other self was asking why stay in the dream, just wake up and see her in reality. But I said, I can only talk to you in this dream, because in reality, you wouldn't. In my dreams, we're okay, in reality, we aren't. In my dreams, I won't get hurt trying, in reality, you will completely erase me. The argument went on until you disappeared then I woke up and you're gone again.

#nkwong

Been a while, dream with you again, nasa beach tayo. Holding hands. Vivid. You were definitely happy. Aware ako sa current circumstances kaya I needed to let go. Pero pinatagal ko as much as possible and enjoyed walking along the beach with you. Pagkabitaw ko sayo nagising na ko.

T'was good.

#cayyc

Happy Birthday to my God’s Precious Gift ~

Happy Birthday Ying Yi ~

#cayyc

Congratulations to my God's Special Gift ~ Best wishes!

Nasa separate room tayo, nanunuod ako ng something at biglang gusto kong lumabas para bumili ng foods, so nagpunta ako ng kabilang room at nandun ka, nagpaalam ako na bibili ng foods at nagkiss pa tayo, feels so real. pero nakapang alis ka, sobrang ganda mo pa din, sabi mo lalabas ka din bibili ng burger, at gusto kitang samahan at natapos na ang lahat.

I’m not sure if I’m depressed. I mean I’m not sad but I’m not exactly happy either. I can't joke around and I can't take things seriously either. I'm at the position wherein if I were to say or do anything for friends, I will lose them.

I disappointed you, I'll ask for forgiveness and make things right but you won't accept it. You disappointed me, you won't say sorry and make it a reason to stay away from me.

It's like people are just waiting for me to make a move, regardless of what I do, just so they can completely erase me in their life. Like I didn't really matter and they won't even make an effort to make me go away.

#amthoughts

Happy Birthday to my God's Irreplaceable Gift ~