Ninah

A Lifeless face that You'll Soon Forget

[just-bpd-thoughts]

Me, in the middle of a panic attack: I’m probably faking it

[pariaaaaah]

[vexingdelusions]

anything: *happens*

my sensitive ass: *cries*

[xbloody-thighsxhollow-eyesx]

Destroys everything.

[salivaplath]

i swear talking to emotionally stable ppl is so exhausting! 

[pariaaaaah]

me: ive been doing well, takin my meds for three months now im kicking old habits and turning over a new leaf

also me in the span of a few hours: drinking alcohol to cope with past abandonment and getting high on sedatives to muffle out intrusive thoughts, skipping on taking meds and making everything worse with sad music that triggers flashbacks

[shy-and-hungry-deactivated20190]

Don’t know who needs this today ❤

It’s easy for people to see you as attractive even if you don’t. They don’t see this idealised version of you in your head and they don’t see all the imperfection that you point out that you’ve stared at for hours at a time. Start believing people when they compliment you. Nobody says someones pretty or handsome as a joke. If they do they’re assholes and insecure in themselves.

[mothurs]

[rainypd]

Me: I want compliments and attention Someone: * gives me compliments and attention* Me: *trembling slightly* what the hell

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

Little things that help moods:

- getting enough sunshine - opening the curtains - eating regular meals - short walks with your favourite music - don’t stay up until 3am - don’t try to relate to tumblr text posts - get off tumblr/social media if it’s unhealthy - shower - don’t stay in bed the whole day - plan out your day - listen to music - change your clothes - set yourself small goals - say yes to fun events - drink water, it takes 5 seconds - talk to a close friend - remind yourself: a bad mood can lie to you - you’re not unwanted or hopeless - you deserve love so be nice to yourself

[closet-keys]

My brother was diagnosed with depression years before I was, and because of that he started therapy years before I did.

I still remember when I was a young teen and he was playing a Nirvana song and he stopped it at this one line: “I miss the comfort of being sad”

He told me that when you start to get better, there’s a part of you that misses being sad and that if you start feeling that way you have to be extra extra aware and careful because if you indulge the feeling you’ll go down a self-destructive spiral

And even though that was years and years ago, I think about it all the time. Especially when I’m reading discourse on the idea of getting so attached to mental illness as an identity that you don’t want to improve things because you feel safe in it and don’t know who you are without it

I always think of that line “I miss the comfort of being sad” and my brother’s warning

[a-lost-soul-at-sea]

My mind feels like a war zone.

[danger]

[love]

[thunder]

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[anitaillemann]

[ninah9]

Too late

[ambiguities]

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