The truth behind one's charm is kindness @ninilly - Tumblr Blog

✨Now I live in darkness, bring me brightness Show me proof, you hear my sound✨🌌

A quiet moment of reflection before My Clematis...

#mizi my beloved #mizi #alien stage #alnst #alnst mizi #i've been working on this one pretty much since i started out with digital art (so for a year kinda)#was never really satisfied with her but i think she's too pretty to stay on the drawing board forever #sónia's art

I changed my blog name!!!

94dimple -> ninilly

This has been long overdue, I mostly kept it bc I had it for so many years and everyone here knows me by that username, but I had been planning on changing it for a while, I haven't been an active bts fan in years and so it didn't really make sense to keep it, and now after learning Namjoon and Hoseok attended the Chris Brown concert and seeing the pic they took with him I'm just... :/.... :////.... yeah... I guess this was the final push to get my procrastinating ass to change the username, huh?

#sónia talks #it's just #disappointing #so disappointing #apparently the whole band fucked up recently too not just them two #i heard about an ai collab #and smth about commenting on a minor's weight #idk it's just #yuck #and disappointing #i would have said and not surprising too but i did keep some hope on them #maybe it's the nostalgia #or me wanting to believe they were still good people #namseok were my faves back then #but can i still say i know these people after all these years #it's been ages since i just casually follow their socials and official acc #i listen to the albums after they come out #but i don't really get into what they're doing #so i can't even say with confidence what kind of people they are rn #and even if i did the fact of the matter is that idk them personally #that's something I've always taken into account whenever I became a fan of an artist #specially if they're men #so yeah #the new name doesn't have any particular meaning #it's just a cute nickname i made up #i mean someone somewhere probably came up with it as well at some point it's not particularly unique but luckily the username was free

I wanted to draw tgcf fanart of Jun Wu in the Wuyong days but I wanted to draw him in his bedroom bc there's a scene in the book that happens there, but I have no idea how to draw the architecture of the room, and I wanted to draw a window too ;-; ... so basically I went on an internet rabbit-hole of ancient Chinese architecture, and I wish we had more surviving examples from pre-Han dynasty bc that man is ancient and I wanted to make it at least Zhou dynasty or something 😭

And after all of this I might just end up drawing a half-assed background anyway bc I hate drawing backgrounds lollll

#you can tell i have both neurodivergence and free time in spades rn 💀#and this is all not even for a detailed piece this is for an animatic i had the idea of making #will i ever be able to finish it? well i barely finished a VERY barebones storyboard but if i keep going at this pace I'll never finish #sónia talks

ninilly

I'm reading volume 3 of TGCF and Arc 2 is just Xie Lian going through it 😭😭😭

ninilly

I saw your tags and was filled with dread, but I just finished volume 6 and I just wanted to tell you that nothing I imagined could have prepared me for what happened HOLY FUCK

spootywabbit

Yeah....I was not prepared either. It hurts 🙃

#thanks for the hug ❤️‍🩹#xie lian has done nothing to deserve all this bullshit #I don't blame hua cheng one bit for being that obsessed and protective over him I'd be like that too 😭#I need everyone but hua cheng to leave xie lian alone #(i also feel for mu qing and feng xin and it's cute how they obviously still care for xie lian)#(trying to protect him from hua cheng bc they think he's a creepy stalker)#(which fair but still it's not like that lol)#(but those two needed to sort their shit out before even trying to help xie lian)#welp here I go towards more pain #still have 2 volumes to go 🎭

ninilly

I'm reading volume 3 of TGCF and Arc 2 is just Xie Lian going through it 😭😭😭

ninilly

I saw your tags and was filled with dread, but I just finished volume 6 and I just wanted to tell you that nothing I imagined could have prepared me for what happened HOLY FUCK

#my eyes are a mess from crying #my head hurts #this man has suffered more than jesus 100 times combined #wtf #I'll never get that illustration out of my mind #you know the one #or probably not since there are quite a few fucked up illustrations 😭#this is sick #I'm so fucking sick holy shit #and hua cheng having to witness it too oooooh I'm sick #I'm just gonna... lay down now... ok bye...

ah i have one gripe with the alta movie! the yuyan archer villain lady. you gave us that design, that much badassery and you didn't flesh her out more?? sacrilege

#welp give her to me #i can fix her #and date her 😶#i want to know more about her #sónia talks

finally managed to watch the ATLA movie, i have ascended