slip, reflection, shadow

not every fake thing is fake, not every real thing is real

[not-this-nor-that]

Day: forgot how many days this has been

Trouble: Government claimed Tumblr contains porn waay too much so that they decided to block it.

Reason why the trouble is bothersome: accessing tumblr gets annoying and really??? For porn only????

Solution: If the government wanted more supporters, unblock porn contents and websites. People would condemn such an act but they will definitely cherish the access that got blocked long time ago

[not-this-nor-that]

"Please. I heard you the first time. I promise -- nary a hair on their artfully tousled heads. Besides, I think they've proven my point for me. It's always your friends, isn't it, in the end? We try to change. We try to improve ourselves. It's always our friends who got to claw into our sides and hold us back. But you know what I see here? The new God (pointing at Castiel) and the new Devil, working together." -Crowley. Supernatural Episode: The Man Who Would Be King. and the dude who runs hell finally went bye bye. W H Y???

[not-this-nor-that]

This is weird. People tell jokes all the time. People take it easy, and they tell others to take it easy when it actually can't be taken that easy. Yet, when it was them who can't take it easy, there are tendencies to lash out on people. Even if the ones who can't take it easy are the jokers of the societies. I don't understand this. They say that we should not hear what people say, yet these jokers could get offended as well. Interesting. A taste of their own medicine. The subjective benchmarks of taking-it-lightly doesn't seem to be corresponding with intelligence, but emotion seems more like it.

[not-this-nor-that]

I still don't get why would anyone proudly show how durable their phones are by endangering them. I mean, for profit? Sure. But putting phones in microwaves or having them drilled? Come on!!! It's not like a long time ago an entity brokered how durable human beings were to God so that human beings could be mass produced. Or was it?

[not-this-nor-that]

Entah gmana ceritanya, gw sempet dimarahin karena kalo bikin status di watsap itu lebih minta perhatian dari pada bikin status di twitter. Sampe sekarang masih mikir bener apa karena di watsap, apa karena konten, apa karena apaan nih? As if ada sesuatu di twitter yg taboo dan watsap juga ada yg taboo. Loh kok tapi salah ya? As if I know.

[not-this-nor-that]

Sometimes I look at my own reflection and I think, look at all those mess here, there, then, now. Sometimes I log on my faceb##k account and see what I haven't written and what others have. Sometimes I go there, to-and-fro, trying to comprehend what it all is, or might be. You cannot go publish a story an claim it yours in a particular digital social media, posting it as you project yourself as you, but you may somehow do it on other platforms while you get to be you. I mean, I get that. There was a time where I go by the dude working in some firm by day and the dude committing crime spree, breaking in, killing cops, in a gang of 4 masked clowns (awesome game by the way) by night. One of those platforms, in a way you might have not noticed, asks you to type in what you are thinking. In case that you are not you by any means like you're borrowing an ID or something, what you share on that platform will be somewhat global (is the term right?). However, how global it could be depends on how you set this lock, how many friends you follow or followers you have, and so much other factors should be factoring these outcome and all. I get how people do this, but not why. Maybe I know 30% of the reasons. 30% means I might know that and not probably because I know that much actually. So, somehow, a few days ago, I ended up with one bugging question. Who forbids anyone from posting anything in any platform available? While I'm trying to figure that out, ridicule yourselves, join in (or no), and get confused. In an age where anybody can say anything to anybody anywhere anytime, I don't get why Big Brother would really like to know and tell me that I shouldn't. Who is Big Brother? There was a time we could call that the government, but these days? It might be our subconscious mind thingy doing the thing it was designed to. Well, who knows? Maybe Batman is real and he's looking for a dude like me to be his Robin or Nightwing.

[not-this-nor-that]

Never we expected, but that might happen everywhere

A trip no one ever expected to be, yet a journey some have been longing for. Last lebaran, I went to Padangpanjang. Granny's hometown. Amazing is not the proper word to even describe the whole thing. I have seen people longing to be back home, to feel how nice it was back in the day. Let me tell you how purging the trip was. We left as soon as we got home from work, which made the trip began at night before 9. 36 hours would have been the expected time spent on the road. However, we felt over confident about this GPS thing which supposed to take us safe and sound. It did. We were supposed to take the middle path, where things were as crowded and metropolis as the capital, yet we ended up running through a beach, a forest, plantations owned by private sectors, hills, and areas along which I must have been sleeping. For hours, my brother and I took turns to ride shotgun. No one in the car had ever traveled to our destination by land transportation, which made everyone nervous about getting lost. There were warnings from family members who had. They were about this area had bandits, this area had holey roads, this has narrow streets, this had almost no gas station, and more things a land travel convoy could expected. Nothing happened during our journey there. However, it became spiritually annoying. I respect everyone's opinion about religion and all, but choosing to feel the same was just not for me. As relaxing as a "muratal" should be, travelling there became too relaxing that most of us who sat beside the driver felt sleepy. Not the place and moment to be, but the "muratal" was so relaxing that we did become sleepy. Then, I know that it is highly recommended that we remember the Almighty. That journey, back and forth, was not one of those moments. We needed to stay awake, not too relaxed. As spiritual as I could even remember, I did not even remember why my parents kept telling everyone the religious thing over and over again. It all changed during the road home from Padangpanjang. Almost everyone but me became very worried about bandits and flat tires that joking about "what happened with prayers and thrusting the Almighty will take care of us? You worried about flat tires and bandits? We survived jungle where no sunlight could penetrate back there" got me spiritual lecture. Was the trip any fun? Yes. Was I disappointed? In a way, yes and no. Some day ago, I joked about it once again and the mood had been very much lighter than some weeks ago. Did we get flat tires? Yes, twice. Did we survive any accidents, if any? Yes. I could confirm that you need music to keep the driver and shotgun awake the whole time. Prayers? "Muratal?" Do that in your heads. Do not press anyone in the car, if you ever try to travel to your hometown by one, to listen to whatever religious thing you have. To actually get there, driver and shotgun needs to stay awake. Prayers help you assuring your spiritual self that you will get there. This is what I felt. Physical danger beats supernatural and spiritual dangerous things. But nobody wants to admit anything. Once, i admitted it. I prefer listening to music because it got the drivers awake. Muratal and prayers, on the other hand, somehow got the drivers sleepy for reasons I don't understand even today. So, that's that. I rest my case.

[not-this-nor-that]

At college, we were discussing about some dudes committing suicide. Why it's not supposed to be on tv, why we shouldn't tell people about it, why this why that. I mean, can't you all for one second just cheer up? Natural selection is happening, just like them dead people consuming mixed alcohol with mosquito repellent. Ironic? Yes. Good? Probably. Natural order? No doubt. This is another ugly truth. Nature orders change for everything, and we can't deny that as if it ain't happening. Either for better or worse.

[not-this-nor-that]

Values, norms, what we name good and bad, bla bla bla. Those rotate around, go around, come around, grow, get replaced, develop, bla bla bla. Why do we need to label every.damn.thing.related? Oppression is bad, being fat is bad, murder is bad, irony is bad, bla bla bla is bad. Healthy is good (no shit, Sherlock!), financially independent is good, supporting each other is good, sharing is good, caring is good, bla bla bla. People grow values, norms, infrastructures, things, and people. More people means more values, norms, infrastructures, things, and people. Perspective is created, bla bla bla. This thing is created, so bla bla bla. People are born to bla bla bla. Groups fight for themselves, or so it seems. People fight for themselves, or so it seems. Good fight bad fight? Who's to judge? I think we should pause growing norms, values, things, and people for a while. These days, it has been everyone for themselves. I don't get big jargons about this, that. Feminism, equality, supremacist, neo thing, confederate bla bla bla. I thing those are for middle class up to the higher class, since almost most lower class i see tend to worry about what they eat, where they live, how they work, when they do stuffs, and pretty much all the simple things coming. Please define class there as whichever definition you want to choose. Religious thing level? Go ahead. Economy and stuff class? No prob. Country of origin? I don't understand that but you may if you do. I mostly could and probably will care less about defining what to label which, or which label suits whom. Yet, if you feel the same (confused, losing reasons to care, tired, or if you somehow are a food), please do not go around yelling jargons. Swear words? Please use them as much as you can. Too long? Didn't read? Here's a summary. I think, labels are getting waaay too luxurious for me as a person in a particular class level, getting too complex for me as a student, and boxing (is this term properly used here?) people based on labels as if people are being shipped (which might be true in some cases).

[not-this-nor-that]

Masih ada di luar sana

Orang era modern, langsung aja misalnya gw, suka nutupin kalo ada sesuatu yg ga ngenakin karena nilai dan norma yg ada di masyarakat kan gitu. Biar lebih sadar, kayaknya perlu kali ya gw bikin catetan online bahwa the ugly truth is out there. Hal yg sebenernya kejadian tuh masih di tutup. Ga perlu mikir yg jauh, gw ga bisa ungkap siapa pembunuh munir dan kasus kasus lain. Ini kejadian sehari hari yg gw liat dan mungkin lo rasain. Inget ya, ini opini semata dan kalo ga terima yaudah cabs ae langsung scroll ke atas apa bawah. Nih bukan generalisasi, ini cuma berdasarkan yg gw liat. Ga ada yg bisa ukur seberapa dalam keyakinan seseorang terhadap panutannya. Kasus yg sering gw liat adalah macet itu fenomena yg udah jadi rutinitas. Pakaian beberapa orang menampilkan mereka dari kalangan umat beragama tertentu yg mau melaksanakan tujuan tertentu di hari tertentu. Tapi macet ya macet, dan yg namanya umpatan keluar tanpa sensor. Ga jarang yg ditrotoar diklaksonin gara gara mereka jadi kehambat jalannya. Goblok tolol dan lain lain keluar. Pernah ngalamin, ngelakuin sih blom pernah soalnya ya kalo emang harus terlambat ya toh masih sempat kayaknya. Kadang penasaran. Kalo agama tersebut merayakan suatu acara gmana gede gitu, pas pulang kan pada ada yg bawa motor mobil dan lain lain. Bahkan abis acara religi pun, apa mereka juga gitu ya kalo kena macet?

[not-this-nor-that]

Been re-watching several episodes from the past seasons, and it's been fun. On a completely different topic, this is my hundredths day on tumblr and I have no idea how to reply using pics.

[not-this-nor-that]

I know things can be political. The color of your shirt can be political. The matching shapes your ties have can be political. The kind of superhero your team belong to can be political. Heck, the very spot you stand in a crowded, moving bus can be political. Despite the fact that people tend to politicise things keeps blooming, why though? What do they need to gain? Why do they need the gain? "We can't eat here. This restaurant is owned by one of the participants in the opposing party."

[not-this-nor-that]

Keeping Sanity

Have you been around the news lately? Have you seen what is going on in your town? Have you experienced such a thing? Look no further, since things are going bad and there's nobody anywhere that seems to know what to do and the end is not something we can perceive. Parents killing children, children killing parents, politicians do not do their jobs, politicians do jobs of others, missile tests, climate change, overpopulation, terrorist attacks, and much more are coming this way, so you should probably dress up and go suit yourself. Instead of running no where, or forward in that matter, we shift gear to run back to where we once were. We need the authorities to set a guidelines so that each one of us could be a better citizen of the internet. We once figured out that the earth is getting warmer and people should do everything in their capacities to help the environment, but one elected official refuse to do the same. People believe that nothing good comes out from terrorism, but now they see something profitable from it. Religions were once a good cause to die for, but they have been the best reason to be elected for. Money changes people, but when people tried to change money, it doesn't go quite well. Gear up and protect your sanity. You have brain, use it. You have feelings, so feel. Why do we even try anymore? Let's get real. Big Brother is coming, and 1984 is not just a book. It is real and happening. Before we forget about it, someone somewhere has introduced a little anarchy, upset the established orders and everything becomes chaos.

[not-this-nor-that]

Doesn't Mean That It Does

Couple hours ago, I read something a friend shared on his social media. Something very interesting and real that people would have known by now which most will keep complaining about. Can't blame them, really. I love my job, I don't love my job. You love your house, you don't love your house. They feel the area belongs to them just because they have been around much, and they don't. Doesn't really matter to anybody unless they give a damn about it. In regards to the thing I read, I found it astonishing. I had the idea about writing that exact same idea for some months now, but I never did put it into any writing. Why? Simple explanation would lead you to see me as an ignorant person towards that particular problem, or find me offensive, or simply scroll your way up or down as if my post doesn't really matter to you. Guess what. It doesn't! Unless you made it a problem, whether yours, mine, theirs, etc. The main reason was that I kept repeating the idea and reassembling the thoughts to keep flowing from one to the other seamlessly. There are things you post which you want others to see, but there are also things you find emotionally strong that you wish they can remind you, one day, that you were this person trying to remind yourself, and possibly others, that things were just the way they were whether anybody likes it or not. See, I had an idea that working to earn a living might have something people need these days. True, competition is waaay to hard these days. True, the result might be not worth your effort doing all the smart work, hard work, easy work, wet work, big work, and the list you can fill yourself. Not putting it into my writing, a moment few hours ago revealed to me, opens up a chance for me to see an idea I had presented by somebody else. You would say "wow, you took it out of my mouth" or other comments you can think of. For me, I'd like to think that it was worth not writing the idea. First, you can write it and somebody else might be bitch-slapped by the idea but you might not feel the same. Two, your idea bitch-slapped you because you read it from somebody else's writing might worth your not putting it into writing. You write a reminder to pay internet bill on a piece of paper or your own agenda. Two weeks later, an inbox come to your phone titled "internet bill due date". Not a good example? I get that. Just because you can, doesn't mean you should. And because you shouldn't, does it mean you will not?

[not-this-nor-that]

Part 2 yg kemaren ga ke upload. Karangan bunga curhat balai kota Jakarta.

[not-this-nor-that]

Just because dude is of Chinese ethnic group, doesn't even mean we shouldn't purchase his tasty chocolate buns. I mean, it's not like anything dangerous or anything, right? Who cares anyway? What matters is I eat those while you guys are still sceptical about it. Just this morning, I saw a newspaper headline saying "Indonesia without religion? Is it possible?" What the devil is this, i say. The editor deserves my vote... ... and probably a long march organized by that bibip dude.

[not-this-nor-that]

Mampir ke museum karangan bunga curhat, part 1