Notes To The One I Loved

[notestotheoneiloved]

It’s your birthday. I can’t help thinking how we’d celebrate. I hope she makes it a great day.

[notestotheoneiloved]

Me: Kiss me like the world is ending tomorrow.

Him: I think if I had my hands wrapped around your neck and my lips on yours the world could burn down for all I’d care

[notestotheoneiloved]

Him: So I come down it’s amazing it wild it’s everything we both need and want in that moment and then I go home you go home real life weighs on us again and once wasn’t enough so I come again and again and again! Every single time better than the last more real more raw more passionate and every time we say good bye it’s harder and harder… we’re in trouble.

Me: That goodbye is what I’m most worried about. I know I won’t want to say it.

[notestotheoneiloved]

Him: I want passion I want equality I want a a teammate who will be a fucking degenerate with one moment and then talk about politics and equal rights the next. I want to make coffe for us in the morning and bring it to you in bed I want to slap your ass a little to hard after you’ve just woken up in the morning where it pisses you off but you look back at me and see my smirk and know that it’s from love and because I desire you so fucking badly so you roll your eyes and give me the slightest smirk back. I want to be able to whisper in your ear just how fucking sexy I think you are and how badly I can’t wait to cum inside you while we’re at dinner with your family, I want to feel you press your ass back against me at 3 in the morning when were both still mostly asleep but awake enough to fuck each other and then pass out again. I want to know I’m wanted and appreciated I want to make you proud I want be better in so many ways because I know there is someone watching me who knows how good I can be and I can’t dare disappoint you. I want raw I want real I want honest.

Me: God.. yes to all of that. That's exactly what I want. I want the passionate, intense sexuality and the raw, emotional intimacy. I want all of you. Every part. The good, the bad, the ugly. And I want to be wanted like every minute is precious. Raw, real, and honest. That's everything in three words. You deserve to be cherished. All of you. You're fucking beautiful and you always have been.

[notestotheoneiloved]

“Don’t hold anything back,” I said. “Whether it’s physical or emotional, just give in to me.”

He smiled.

“You will get all of me.”

[notestotheoneiloved]

In your eyes I see the universe.

[perfectfeelings]

“My eyes met many, but only got lost in yours.”

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[notestotheoneiloved]

[solemnxyz]

“Tell me every horrible thing you ever did,and let me love you anyway.” ~ Edgar Allan Poe.

[akindplace]

F. E. Marie

[notestotheoneiloved]

I find my mind slipping into fantasies of forever with you before I can stop it. Bringing myself back down to the ground feels like going against a rapid current pulling me deeper.

[notestotheoneiloved]

To my old lover:

This is the last note you’ll get from me. Not because I won’t always care about you, but because someone else has come into the wreckage and started rebuilding with me.

[notestotheoneiloved]

To my new lover:

Is it crazy to miss you like this already?

[notestotheoneiloved]

Me: “I think you might be crazy about me.”

Him: “I think you might be right.”

Me: “And I think I’m stuck in your head and you love it.”

Him: “I totally do. And do I enter your thoughts from time to time?”

Me: “Maybe sometimes ;) (all the time!) so much more than I want to admit.

Him: “I love that.”

Me: wanna know why? Because you liiiiiiike me!”

Him: “Shut up! No I don’t!”

Me: “You totally do! You’re so into me!”

Him: “Alright maybe I am.”

[perfectfeelings]

“Love is when you look into someone’s eyes and see everything you need.”

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[notestotheoneiloved]

[notestotheoneiloved]