[notheta]

and here we are… same fucking problem

am i really not worthy of that label?

[notheta]

I dreamed about you the other day haha pinaalala ka kasi ni Lance eh. We played badminton last sunday and he said na sports mo raw talaga yun hahaha. Napaisip pa ko kung sino tinutukoy niya kasi hindi naman na talaga kita iniisip the past few weeks tapos ayon, bumalik na naman. That’s why I dreamed about you.

You were drunk and crying tapos I think nagsosorry ka sakin. It’s like a house party, IDK ano ginagawa ko dun haha. Tapos inaya kita sa labas tapos umupo ako and pinahiga kita while you head is resting on my thigh to calm you down kasi super namumula na face mo. Then I said it’s okay… it’s okay then I kissed you. Di ko alam ano meaning non. Bakit ganon panaginip ko. Pinapalaya ba kita or yung sarili ko????

Then today, tuesday, I went to the gym thinking if you’re okay. Then, you have igs, with her. Im happy you’re happy hehe. But syempre di ako sure if happy ba ko for myself hahahahahahahah.

Ayon, reminder lang to kay self na umuusad naman siya kasi di na siya naiiyak sa mga pinopost mo hahahahahahahhaha pwede na yon, konti konti lang, makakaraos din.

[eris-princess]

Standards are high because I can reciprocate anything I ask for

[latinamamiix]

being single is fun until you crave physical touch

[schrittt-inslicht]

miss this so much

[notheta]

FUCK YES HAGAHAHAHGAGAHAHA

[siemsayko]

huwag lang ako magkajowa taena wala na pahinga to sa kantutan

[notheta]

AM I SERIOUSLY CRYING JUST BECAUSE I WANT LAMBING????? WHAT THE FUCK SELF???? WHAT THE FUCKKKK

[notheta]

self, can you promise na you won’t force things to happen na? specially with guys. If you have to make an effort or yung ikaw mag-aadjust in the early stage, please don’t. Wag magpadala masyado sa mood please please please

[your-fav-bratt]

I feel like getting fucked would fix all my problems. Fucked until I can’t think, until there’s nothing left in my head but you. I want to be broken open and filled with you, with all of you, until I disappear into it.

[notheta]

To my TOTGA,

I can’t believe na it’s been months pero ‘to pa rin ako, nandito pa rin, sa kung saan mo ko iniwan. Ang daya kasi mas matagal pa ata tong sakit at panghihinayang kesa sa time we spent together haha. Ang daya mo rin kasi gusto kitang sisihin bat ako naging ganto. Tanggap ko naman eh. Tanggap ko nung una na fling lang. Ikaw lang nagsabi na you wanted more. Di mo lang pala kaya panindigan. But if I will be given a chance to choose if ganon pa rin ba gagawin ko or sana unang kita pa lang natin umiwas na ko, I’d still choose those two weeks with you. Kahit masakit. Kasi I felt it was real. Siguro ang iibahin ko lang is after mo umalis, no contact na sana para di na mas lalong maattach pa. Pwede bang part 2? haha

But I know you’re with someone na. Im happy for you. You deserve to be with someone. I know how much you hate being alone kaya I hope she stays by your side. I will always pray for your success. Kung magkikita man tayo ulit, sana CPA ka na. isa ako sa magiging pinakamasaya. Sana lang din kung magkita man tayo, sana maging masaya ako and prepared na you’re happy with someone else. Sana kaya kitang tignan sa mata nang walang panghihinayang.

[ysdp]

from back rub to “just the tip” to rough sex

[notheta]

want

[dr3amoon]

“who hurt you?” MYSELF BRO. MY BRAIN IS FUCKING MEAN

[notheta]

OH MY GOD IS THIS A SIGN?????

Im talking to someone rn na nagdm lang din HAGAHAHAHHAHAHAHAGAHAH ANO BA TOOOOO

[notheta]

Having high emotional intelligence sucks.

[notheta]

it was last April

[notheta]

celebrating my smol win today ✨

so starting late last year, i was so frustrated kasi i feel like i’ve been working for months pero nakukulangan ako sa knowledge and experience, basically ang boring ng work kasi nadadalian ako lol but earlier I was invited in a meeting where I realized I am the youngest one. Even i was invited to listen and to take notes for this year’s audit, STILL??? HAHAHA 10 months pa lang ako sa firm pero involved na ko sa ganon???? aside from that, managers from other countries are coordinating with me (which hindi naman dapat kasi staff lang talaga ako, senior dapat talaga but given na wala kaming senior and ako na lang yung natira na may knowledge sa procedures, wala silang choice hehe) they even said na they needed my expertise HAGAHAHAH EXPERTISE????

[notheta]

and we ended…

may we meet again, if we’re meant to be

6.11.25

[notheta]

“I bear it so they don’t have to”

“May we meet again”

-The 100