𝐖𝖾ᥣ𝖼ⱺꭑ𝖾 𝗍ⱺ 𐓣ⱺ𝗍𝗌ⱺα𐓣α𝗀𝖾ᥣ𝗂𝖼 ִֶָ. ..𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ🪽་༘࿐
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This blog is meant mainly for venting or holding myself accountable, do not use me to get you worse. I've been battling an0rex1a for well over 10 years and have been hospitalized multiple times due to it, do not glaze this illness on my blog.
You can call me nots, to keep my identity private. I am 19 years old, which just means that this illness hit me very early on life.
Sometimes, I wonder what would have been of me if I hadn't developed this and allowed it to grow. If any of you, reading this, is still on the early stages (few months/weeks) of developing 4n0rex1a, I beg you, go see a specialist before this gets worse.
I've been on Tumblr for well over 7ish years now, hopped between communities of other people sharing their struggles.
I live a rather depressing life, so I tend to dissappear from social spaces from time to time before coming back. Don't worry if I suddenly stop posting. Probably, things just felt too much for me at the moment.
You're probably wanting me to just shut up and tell you the specifics, right? Wait just a second, and we'll get there.
My do not interact is quite simple, please, no minors (though I do kinda make exceptions for 17 yr olds because the age difference of 2 years doesn't make me as uncomfortable), mostly beacuse I know from first hand experience how influencable early teens and preteens are. And no preds (we all know which ones I mean).
Now, what you've been waiting for.
I think, as of right now, I must weigh around 52kg. That's the weight my body always bounces back to after eating normally (or sometimes even overeating) for a few weeks.
If you wonder, "nots, why dont you weigh yourself?". Well, my scale broke like a month ago and haven't been able to buy a new one yet.
My heaviest was back in november 2023, where I weighed around 65kg due to medication I have since stopped taking.
I am 158cm tall. Not very tall, you see.
Either way, my goal, as of right now, is bmi14, but to get there, I will need smaller goals. I was thinking on first trying to go down to 50kg, but since I can't weigh myself, I guess I'll have to find another goal indicator.
𝐌𝗒 𝗂𐓣𝗍𝖾𝗋𝖾𝗌𝗍𝗌
Usually, I'd skip this part, but I think it will make it easier to connect with other people that are going though the same as I am.
I am a sucker for all art. I shouldn't need to specify this, but just for clarity, ai made imagery is not art.
I love to read, to draw, to take pictures, to write, to play videogames. I love to consume and create art, I think art is the medicine of the soul.
I also love to study matters, except, for, well, school (duh). As of right now, my favorite matters are plants and orcas.
Anyways, my favorite book is "Heaven" by Mieko Kawakami. My favorite videogame as of right now is "What remains of Edith Finch?" by Giant Sparrow, but it pairs up with "Alice Madness Returns" by McGee's.
I don't tend to share my art, but maybe y'all will get lucky this time and get to see one of my pieces.
I'm always thankful for getting new moots, so feel free to follow, and I'll follow back!
That's all, thanks for reading all this !
