우주비행사

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[notsoastronaut]

I will not be that girl who acts dumb because it’s cute. It’s not. Ignorance and stupidity is not cute. I read books, write my notes, and take my classes, so if lack of knowledge is cute, feel free to call me hideous.

[notsoastronaut]

I cant write anything decent these days. And im starting to be sad about it. Because an artist doesnt want a plain wall. Or a singer with a plain sheet. We're people made to create things. So when what's infront of you is nothing, you feel sad.

[notsoastronaut]

One bottle of vodka, And then we talk. Two chairs before the beach, And then i'll speak, Three minutes of honesty And i'll let you know. Four shots down, And i will spill it out. Five more minutes, And i'll let you go. Six seconds before midnight, And i'll say goodbye. Seven words i hope you'll say "I always wished that you would stay" Eight times you smiled And i dont know why i keep counting Nine times you let me down And i dont know why i keep believing 10 reasons to leave you, I said i'll write them down. Im way past a bottle of vodka and way past the 11th count Im now on 12 and i have a 13th in mind 14 reasons now on why i should tell you goodbye 15 now and the reasons continue to fall Yet i know inside me i cant cant find one reason Enough To make me Let You Go.

[notsoastronaut]

And i learned the hard way That you look at me like a flower And i look at you Like you are a garden. And we're both beautiful But you... You were so much More.

[notsoastronaut]

After Us

[notsoastronaut]

I wonder what happened to people who would have crafted the best love but never had the chance to try

because she did not look back, or he was too shy to say hello, because their cars were headed different ways, because she was late for work or because he never went back to that same place?

[notsoastronaut]

I wonder if there was somebody in the streets or among the crowd who saw my face and regretted they stayed in the same place and let me go.

[notsoastronaut]

Sa patuloy na paglabo mo, luminaw ang lahat ng ito.

Sa patuloy na pag-iwas mo sa mga tanong ko, nahanap ko na yung sagot.

Sa patuloy na pananahimik mo, narinig ko na yung mga salitang hindi mo masambit.

Sa patuloy na paglayo mo, tumigil na ko sa pagsubok na ika’y maabot

Sa patuloy na paglisan mo, hindi ko na inaasahan ang iyong pagbabalik.

Sa patuloy mo, sa pagtuloy mo, sa pagtuloy tuloy nito, natutunan kong oras na upang tumigil.

[notsoastronaut]

My dad questions me so much why i always wear the same shirt. Dad, i bought 12 pcs of plain white shirts late last yr, i still have 5 more unopened until today. I have more white tees and they differ in brands, in texture and cut and over all feel. I approximately have 10 plain black shirts AT THE LEAST. Try to notice if the stripes on my shirts are vertical or horizontal. Sometimes, it's a white shirt with black stripes, sometimes it's a black shirt with white stripes. I have shirts that have gridlines on them and they differ in the size of squares. So yeah, i totally get why you're confused. Lol

[notsoastronaut]

So listen, i dont care who you are but unless you live in extreme cold, i will never understand why you go gaga over fur coats. And if you'd pay for authentic animal skin so you'd have that purse, i will forever be disgusted at you. If you think it's okay to rob animals of their fur and their skin so you'd look fashionable, so you'd have your sophisticated ootd, so you'd look fab and famous, bitch imma rip your skin, make it into a coat and tell everyone, im wearing authentic snake skin.

wear clothes, not animals.

[notsoastronaut]

I wonder why people rarely compliment each other.

It's easy to call out on someone's wrong. But there's so much good to see in every one, i wonder why no one points that out.

[notsoastronaut]

Some thoughts i had

I pity people who have become slaves of what’s trending and are unaware of it, and those who know but still let it happen. I feel sorry for people who spend most of their time feeding off famous people and celebrities and use them as basis in life. I pity people who are envious. I pity people who judge themselves by how other people are doing. I pity people who try hard to climb up social statuses just to impress people they dont even like. I feel sorry for people who became too into the lives of others, too indulged in how well they are off, they start to look at their own and see none.

I hope one day, they put their phones down and take a good look at themselves. They dont need to be another kylie jenner, or another one like the most famous kid in the city, they dont need to be like someone else, they only need to be themselves. The trends are never ending, another thing becomes a boom in a split second. There is always gonna be someone richer or prettier than you. But remember beauty is an illusion. The only time you see how beautiful you are is when you realize self acceptance.

[notsoastronaut]

Better lost, just not trapped. ---

[notsoastronaut]

Let the good times roll

[notsoastronaut]

We found a hidden spring in the heart of a forest. The water was so clear and so blue. We unloaded the vans and one by one gathered under the big tree and sat by the edge with our feet submerged into the clear water. They brought the ever reliable portable stove and started covering shrimps in egg batter and frying them. We brought a home made dip. No one was in that place except my family. We were laughing and passing on shrimps to one another, in the middle of a gloomy afternoon, there was a light drizzle and the air was kinda cold, but here, with these people, everything felt so warm.

[notsoastronaut]

How lucky am i, to live a life where i dont feel trapped.

[notsoastronaut]

It’s been a long week. Been out of town for three straight days, in three different places. We’ve got more places to go to and more memories to make. They bought a bigger van that could fit all of us, but sadly, we still dont fit. The only thing that’s gonna keep us all is a coaster and hopefully we can buy one one day. Then we'll pack our bags and bring our favorite food, and we'll bring our instruments and sing with each other on the way. We'll put up tents, like we always do. And cook good meals and gather around the campfire like we always do. And we'll tell each other new stories, or ones we've already known but would like to hear again. Sometimes, i hear my parents and aunts and uncles talking about how it's getting harder to get the whole family complete. We've grown so much and time's too fast. I know exactly why we're doing these. We're cramming, hoarding as much memories as we can because eventually, us kids will grow up and it'd be harder to get us complete. We're all scared, i know. But that's never gonna happen. We'll always find a way to be together. Because that's how this family has been ever since.