i flew too high.

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[purplebuddhaproject]

Do not make homes out of people. This will leave you homesick and sad.

Michelle K., Home (via purplebuddhaproject)

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              No matter what the situation, what Harry sometimes does or says, Edward is still the one person that makes everything better for him. He makes him smile when it seems like it’s not possible, makes him laugh so hard tears spring at his eyes, makes him feel wanted and loved, despite the torment in his mind that tells him he’ll never be wanted, isn’t good enough for love. And so, of course he wants him to say, even with everything he’s already said to the other. Lips find their way to his neck, setting small kisses all over his skin to try and help soothe any pain he’s brought now that his head is becoming more and more clear, realizing how much of a complete fuck head he really is. But he’ll spend however long trying to make it up to him, without any hesitation.                               ”You didn’t do anything.. you don’t need to be                                sorry —- I’m sorry. I’m a fuckin’ idiot.”

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              The change is obvious now in the other's behaviour and Edward just waits, takes deep breaths and lets the familiar scent tickle his nose to remind himself he's there with Harry on first place. He takes a moment to speak, dips fingers in his lover's hair fiddling with the strands and then letting them bounce back on place, hearing the words Harry's mumbling against his neck. 

                             "You're not an idiot."

              And he really doesn't think that, reaches so he can place one palm on his fiance's cheek and bring his face up, studying his wonderful face for a couple of seconds, refreshing his memory of the delicate details of it. Then he's kissing him, just gently, arms back around the other's narrow waist claiming the I love you's into his mouth.

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              Despite being absolutely fucked out of his mind in the best way possible, in his eyes, he manages to still appreciate the fact that Edward just covered him with his blanket, eliciting a soft noise from him as he rolls onto his side so that he can face him. That’s when it becomes abundantly clear that the bed is small, it might not be big enough for two but even in his current state, he’s willing to try it out to see if it is. He also realizes how sad his fiance looks, notices the red that circles his eyes, the way his mouth is slightly drooped instead of smiling —- he’s usually always smiling. And so, long fingers reach out to grab him, just gently, around the wrist to pull him down onto the bed, sliding over as best as he can to make room for him. There’s no real need for it though, considering Harry practically rolls on top of him as soon as Edward is laying down, pressing his face into the crook of his neck.                       “Please don’t be sad, baby —- y’know I’m fine, hm?                        Look at me.. M’peachy keen.. don’t gotta                        cry no more, yeah? I’m sorry for yelling at you..”

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             He's on the verge of leaving, really, thinks it'll probably be just better because he doesn't want to cry in front of Harry but it seems the other's plan differs from his own. Edward lets himself being pulled down against the mattress, a quiet sigh passing his lips when his back hits the familiar surface. Then there's a body crawling on top of him and he lets Harry settle on his chest, wrapping arms tight around him once he does so. Fingers run up the other's spine, a move that has become natural almost, fingertips brushing over the well-known path of his skin. He reminds himself to focus, tilts head a little to bury his face in Harry's curls to breathe in his warmth.

                     "I'm sorry. I love you."

[whenthingsgoterriblywrong]

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Do you ever have a ship that has kind of gotten distant and you really miss them but you don’t want to bother the mun?

[veryfunnymemes]

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apparently only gloomy edward is happening rn so i'll do the other replies later. 

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     milo nods, as if he’s confirming edward’s repeat of his words. milo would say it forever and ever if it was what edward needed to hear, if it kept him happy. his lips are on every pit of edward’s skin that he can reach, tears finally, finally coming to a stop but its the awful feeling of them sticking to his face and exhaustion that milo knows will soon follow which he isn’t looking forward too. but it’ll be okay to handle if he’s burying himself in the crook of edward’s neck, tired eyelids threatening to shut completely and body fitting perfectly against the others. 

                         “ please don’t ever leave me. ”

     he mumbles the words into the other’s neck, legs straddling his hips whilst his hands intertwined with edward’s. milo knew for certain if edward ever did leave him, if just be another young adult with an alcohol problem and anybody who knew him would expect he’d be gone in a couple years time because it didn’t look like he’d ever shake the habit off. the prospect of that life frightened him to bits and he pressed his body against edward’s, to make sure he was there and to feel him against his own body. edward was his present and was his future. to some extent, his past too. edward had taken a spot in milo’s weak heart from the moment he set eyes on him. nobody else would take that place. 

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     the feeling of milo's lips on his skin burns, but it is in a way edward thinks he can deal with, it's that kind of fire that is warm, welcoming and that offers safety. so he'll happily crawl closer, curl up next to it to absorb as much as possible. when fingers tangle with his own he moves to intertwine them together as tight as possible, offering a gentle reassuring squeeze against the hand that fits his own just so right. 

                         "i'll never leave you. but you can't leave me either."

     he knows neither of the two is going to happen; despite the fear and doubts he knows there is absolutely zero chance of milo walking away, because his boyfriend is showing his need and adoration for him every minute of the day, and he knows he is not going to leave milo either. he's become too important to him, much like an organ he can't live without anymore and one that would without doubt result into death once removed. edward decides he won't let himself think of what life would be like without milo in it, can't even bring himself to imagine such situation. one of his hands moves so he can place it on milo's back, fingers rubbing soothing circles down the skin under his shirt as he manages to find his voice again, fight off the sobs and whisper promises into his ear only milo can hear and understand.

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              What could only be described as pain washes over Harry’s features,  though his dead eyes stay exactly as they are as he cocks his head to one side. Under these circumstances, his moods were rocky, able to snap at any given moment without really knowing, despite knowing in the back of his mind that Edward was the last person in the world he’d ever want to hurt. But he really can’t help as the anger begins to bubble up inside of him again, fists clenching to turn his knuckles white. A troubled mind should never consume such a toxin he’s taken, it only proves to torment him even more; he’d stop if he could, though.. but it’s been seven years, it’s a lot easier said than done.                      ”You’re ashamed of me….                            what —- don’t want your precious parents to see the                            complete fuck up you’re gonna marry?                             I told you to fuck off back to ‘em, didn’t I?                            I don’t want you ‘ere, don’t need you to babysit me.                             Can take care of myself just fine..”              As to further prove his point, the one that isn’t entirely true in the slightest, he pushes himself away from the wall, away from Edward and stumbles towards the bedroom. At any other time, he would be smiling as he looked around his fiance’s room, though now, now he merely closes the door behind him and begins to strip himself of his clothing, down to his briefs before he climbs onto the bed with a low grunt.

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             Edward watches him and it's probably his own fault, maybe he should have seen such thing was bound to happen anytime, that it didn't really need much for the other to break. He can't even find it in himself to speak, to tell Harry to shut up with this crap because none of it it's true, or to gather him in his arms and whisper to him everything is going to be fine. Tears burn his gaze as he sees Harry waddle over towards the bedroom door, and he needs to take a couple breaths before he's able to follow him. Edward was never really the strong one, often struggling to cope with his own panic attacks himself, but he liked to think he was there for Harry, that anytime the other would break, he would be the one to pull him back up. Except he is failing right here, right now and he's not even angry with Harry; he's absolutely, undeniably mad at himself, for letting it happen on first place. Once he sees his fiance's body settled on his bed, it floods over him how he worried whether the bed would be big enough for both of them to sleep on, and it feels like it was ages ago. He just reaches to pick up Harry's clothes, fingers fiddling with the material frantically almost to make sure he hasn't got anything else in his pockets. When he drops it back a part of him wants to run off, but he doesn't, he manages to move towards the bed to tug on the covers and pull them over his fiance's body. 

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can you see all the effort i put into that graphic??? yeah me either. I recently reached 700+ and I want to thank you all v much and my last follow forever was like 300 followers ago so I thought I'd do this.

(σ≧▽≦)σ First off is my babies that i love v much and are so very important to me.

bratxpackxrp

My brookie cookie. I love you v much we talk everyday and we have a million different verses and I love all of them. You’re a really great friend and I’m very glad I talked to you and I wish you weren’t all the way on the other side of the continent. America is such a cockblock lmao

impieti

kelly. my brotato. my bae. my cutie boop. We talk all the time which i love bc you’re so nice and funny. I’m very glad I opted to send you a message when you advertised for a bestie lol. You also teach me alot of things about Australia

P.S. we need to do more things 

delirixusx

tiffany i love you and our ship eVEN IF YOU CONTINUE TO CALL ME BASIC BC YOUR WEIRD AND LIKE RANCH ON PIZZA. Casper and Aiden are hella cute and so are you and yes. So in conclusion, i love you and our thread, plz stop calling me basic thanx

thoserunaways

ALYSSA. You left and that makes me really sad because I love Andy and Mason so fricking fracking match.Theyre so cute and yeah. I hope you come back soon but if not I still love you and such and will continue to bug you on kik

wiltedandelion

so i just realized I don’t know you’re name and I need to fix that soon but i really really love Noah and andy together. Like there’s tears and heartache but also like cuteness and fluff and it’s just a making for a v good ship and yes i love it and u

( /)w(\✿) And now here are all the people I rp with and dont get to talk to much, or have rped with before and love or people i love but admire from afar bc im shy and u like beyonce

flowerstattoosandcurls, respectourxyouth, forbiddcn, drxfters, squanderedhope, barelyspeaks, thealwaysforgotten, kikotbh, recklesseeker ayynate, cxlebrity, thehxpeless, thewreckedsouls, belleserreursx, lxumiere, cmptiness, astrales, oddcty, stormcloudeyes, tuckeredaway, hewayoutx, dirtbagsbaby, thecloudsmove, notxmuch, troxbledmind, fragileonex

[youngwildfreakx]

i will follow you, follow you, follow you, follow you wherever you may gooooo! so i might be a little annoying at times but i just annoy you guys because i love you. <3

thesperays

You know how much I love you, and our ships (aka Athena and Tristan; Zoey and Ares). You are actually my longest roleplay partner, and through activity and inactivity, our OTPs made it.

thestarlightsx

Sarah, we’re not just roleplaying friends but in real life, well, online, idk man, we’re friends as well. what we have is special, especially since we have lots of ships.

lxumiere

Hello Shay, and yes, I was intimidated by you at first, just because you’re an awesome writer, I felt like peasant  and you’re the pauper, I’m slightly kidding but thank you for always being there, you know what I mean.

dastardlyduos

I seriously don’t know what to say, you left and then you came back and holla, we’re still friends so never leave me again please.

baresanity

Just so you know, you made me love Justin Bieber again, you know how much I love Brax so much so thank you for giving me the chance to roleplay with you.

vegasdoe

Yes, I was intimidated by you as well, you’re so good but when I started roleplaying with you, you are one of the most nicest person I’ve ever roleplayed with. 

unxdone xoxonyc

We may not have any threads now, you should know how special you both are to me so let’s plot?

other awesome possum people :p

wonderlandrocks theodorefreakinfinley candylxnd notxmuch noxhope neoncatheclral brxkenfamily unrulyvibes 

and literally everyone in here

[notxmucharchive]

You know what I want? A 1x1 partner who wants to pick a setting and then populate it with me. We can use all of our favourite FCs, come up with a ton of ships, and have complicated relationships and plots going every which way just between the two of us. And if that sounds like your deal, you should message me — the only stipulation I have is that you’re open to a mix of m/f, m/m and f/f.

[tomlincandy]

[loggednightmares]

I hate being alive when I just feel dead inside

(via schizotypal-suicide)

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