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Jonghyun. I made a choice. A choice that I knew I wouldn't regret. Hers.

[notyouroppv]

Since I'm leaving I'm gonna be releasing some urls I had. I don't need em anymore.

[notyouroppv]

I got a Pen~ I got an pineapple ah! Pineapple pen ，i got a pen ~ I got a pizza Ah! Pizza pen~ - dance- Pineapple pen, pizza pen! ah pineapple pizza pen !!♪

This is entirely Jiji's fault. ._.

[notyouroppv]

I can't help but to hide unfortunately. I'm trying to process everything and I think a lot of my problem is that I over think. For whatever reason I just can't shake that? Like I'm constantly thinking and expecting and playing out worst case scenarios. It's really difficult for me to let go now because of the past. You seem to understand that and I'm grateful.

I'm taking it slowly but I feel bad when I don't always respond or draw back into myself. People don't deserve that and I know it so I just end up frustrated with myself. Like I feel bad that I do it but I can't help it at the same time. My biggest struggle is my want to make new friends but I'm scared because what if they leave again or start drama again like the others. Why is it so hard to just find people that want to talk and have fun and enjoy life? Why does it always have to be lies and bullshit you know?

Regardless I'm thankful I have you girls and Kibum. I don't even know where I would be without you all. You've all been so supportive and really welcomed me with open arms when you didn't have to. I feel really lucky. And who keeps calling you pancake? Lol.

[notyouroppv]

The only selection that matters is if you like pineapple on pizza or not.

[vlones-deactivated20210219]

Never apologize for leaving a situation to make yourself happier. your health matters and your happiness is important.

[memorian]

Little kids recreating “Honor to Us All”. It is the cutest thing you’ll see today! THEY DO THE GRANDMA!

[notyouroppv]

I'm watching Black Mirror and this is more wild than I anticipated?

[notyouroppv]

I have a lot of feelings I'm trying to process and compartmentalize. I wanna be here. I wanna talk to people. But for whatever reason when I'm here I just sit and watch quietly. So now I'm trying to figure out what's wrong and why I'm being this way. Am I slightly depressed? Maybe. Am I allowing my past to fuck me up? Probably. But the thing is I just don't know how to fix it. Part of me feels like maybe I should delete and start over. But I don't even think that'll fix anything because I've done that before. I just regretted deleting all the memories. I don't know anymore. Maybe I've truly grown out of this place... which I hate to think that's it. Lately I just don't feel like me anymore and it's hurting me a lot.

[jennastillsucks]

[notyouroppv]

Any time a fellow idol has braids I just scrunch my nose. Cuz I just feel like they probably stink, smell like butt and b.o. Or like unwashed feet. You can't smell good when you're cool with culture appropriation. I'm not buying it.

[ymgschoiminho]

[kmxhynah]

I had a vision of you and me doing this @notyouroppv

Prepare for trouble!, Make it double! To protect the world from devastation! To unite all peoples within our nation! To denounce the evils of truth and love! To extend our reach to the stars above! Naeun! jonghyun ! Team Shinepink, blast off at the speed of light! Surrender now, or prepare to fight! Then Roo comes barking!

[notyouroppv]

Yes. I love this.

[dayumonew]

x - inspiration suit up

[rubyredwisp]

[notyouroppv]

Wait is that really a thing? -blinks in shock- I never really wanted to think that way. I suppose I just ignored it. I try to think that people aren't shady in nature. But I've noticed sometimes as soon as people find out I have someone they kinda drift away. Maybe I should start a group for people that just want friends and have a lover already. -chuckles- Do you think many would join?

[notyouroppv]

That makes sense actually. In a way, people might preassign us certain traits and then when those don't fit it creates a problem. But for me.. I don't know. I like to think I'm easy to get along with. I'll be friends with anyone, as long as they are nice to me. I genuinely try to be a very friendly person.

[notyouroppv]

I wanna make the friends.

[thxunwantxd]

I know the feeling… Garrus Vakarian. Nice to meet you.

[notyouroppv]

Garrus Vakarian, my name is Kim Jonghyun. It's nice to meet you as well. -smiles- Why does it seem difficult to make friends these days?