HISTORY WON'T CARE AT ALL.

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while i'm here to grab drafts and transition them to the new blog, jut a reminder that this blog is now an archive! you can find these goons over here.

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consider this blog on a lil hiatus while i wait for my new computer to come in and redo the muse page!

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just a little reminder that chris has moved over to @boltchased ! this is a sideblog to eliana's because i am physically, mentally and emotionally incapable of keeping up with more than two main blogs ... and whether i can keep up with two could be hotly contested. point being, he's there if you want him

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because i'm insane and apparently like making more work for myself, i'm going to be moving chris and olivia each to their own sideblog, connected to eliana's new blog. i'll update once i have those finished with the urls, if anyone would like to follow!

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- Just try to win. Maybe you can. - Of course. Maybe I can. I am smart, you know.

Jennifer Lawrence as Katniss Everdeen in THE HUNGER GAMES (2012) dir. Gary Ross

[shadowatmorning]

Open Starter

"not interested." she did not bother to look up from lighting the cigarette, her lighter's flame a distantly flickering light in comparison to the street light just a few feet away from the bench on which Celia sat.

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        ❝ then i got good news for you, princess. only thing i'm interested in is that lighter of yours, ❞ he says, sliding the pack of cigarettes back into the pocket of his jeans, one perched between his fingers. ❝ why don't you help a guy out? ❞

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i'm going to bed i just had to share. Her

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my brain this morning has decided that someone should kiss nate. and it's right. but who will take that bullet

[nocontextsmosh]

smoshcast: favorite looks (insp.) ↪ angela giarratana edition

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photos  of  olivia  tyler  -  part  one.

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glimpses of the past ━ always accepting! anon said: MORTAL for Chris send MORTAL for a scene from my muse's past in which they had a brush with death, either themselves or someone close to them

the news comes over the radio, one quiet evening at the brass lantern. as soon as three dog's voice bursts through the static, more somber than usual. chris knows.

that crazy kid from vault 101? well, she's in a bad way after that showdown with the enclave.

whatever three dog says next, he can't hear it past his own heartbeat pounding in his ears.

       ❝ she can't be dead, ❞ he says, shaking his head. he would know, wouldn't he? would feel something in him snap with a finality that would let him know that the woman he loves is gone? even andy gives him a sad, pitying look. ❝ she's not dead, ❞ he continues, forcing a conviction he doesn't feel into his voice.

             ━ ☢ ━

she isn't dead, but she looks well-acquainted with death. ignoring the mistrustful glances of the brotherhood scribes, he approaches the hospital bed eliana lays in.

she looks devastatingly small beneath the thin sheet that covers her. he wonders if she's cold, and reminds himself to ask someone to bring her a real blanket later.

       ❝ hey, el, ❞ he says, swallowing back the lump in his throat. she doesn't stir. he reaches down to brush a strand of hair from her forehead. she feels cool to the touch. if it weren't for the subtle rise and fall of her chest, it would be hard to believe she was still alive at all. ❝ you can't stay outta trouble, can you? ❞ he asks.

he pulls a nearby chair closer to her beside, rests his hand overtop one of hers.

       ❝ i dunno if you can hear me, but i'm here now, and i'll be here when you wake up, okay? just please wake up. ❞

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last night, while 80% passed out on benadryl, i thought about an alternate courier verse for chris in which eliana DOES die in the purifier, which results in him seeing a "ghost" of her all the time after the damage done to his brain when he gets shot :)

[acecroft]

[ilingeron]

James did seem to still think that, but nobody else needed to know. She was doing her best to convince him that Chris couldn’t be a creep even if he wanted to. Maybe it would work one day…. some day….

“That’s what I told him, but he is… incredibly stubborn.” The rest of his statement left her silent for a moment. She wasn’t the settling down type, either. Wasn’t she? What had she been doing since she moved to Diamond City that wasn’t settling? Especially now with James?

She pushed it down. That was more emotion than she wanted to deal with right now. “I mean, I was planning on staying here.” James seemed happy enough and he might enjoy being in meddling range a bit too much. Plus she would miss having her book club with Nick Valentine. “I don’t think Sanctuary has much need for a teacher at the moment.”

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❝ stubborn runs in the family, i think, ❞ chris mutters, reaching up to rub at the back of his neck. ❝ so good luck with that. ❞

he glances over at anna as she declines, his eyebrows raising in surprise. he admires her for standing her ground, keeping the home she's comfortable in, even if james might want something else.

❝ i think it will be awhile before anyone wants to bring kids into sanctuary, ❞ he admits. the bones of the place are good, but every day is a slog to set up security, patch houses, set up water pumps ... the minutemen work fast, but not that fast. ❝ no offense, but i'm kinda glad you won't be dragging james there anytime soon. ❞

things between he and el remain complicated, but, selfishly, he doesn't want to share what attention she spares him with her dad of all people.

❝ i like having el around again. i have a feeling he'd wanna get in the way of that. ❞

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thinking about chris and matt's relationship as brothers and how heartbreaking it is

matt is awful to him, but he still ... in a way ... loves chris. it's not that he wants to hurt him or be mean, per se, but he's a little boy, too, who just wants his dad to pay attention to him. maybe he's also a little relieved that his dad has a new punching bag. someone to split the abuse with. so it's easier to steal chris's food to the hoarse cackles of his father ... easier to lock him in their bedroom closet because the only time their mother seems to see him is when he's in trouble ... maybe it's easier to hate his baby brother because, if he loves chris, who will love him?

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“This means we should probably get to know each other…”

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chris doesn't worry that he'll become like his dad, but he does fear turning out like his mother. she was primarily driven by a fear of loneliness, and therefore accepted the vitriol, abuse, and hatred from her husband for a good portion of her lifetime, especially because she saw her sons as a "cure" for that loneliness and felt she couldn't care for them alone. in some ways, chris is similar, constantly chasing down the opportunity for love and, more often than not, sacrificing himself on the altar for it.