Hurting recently because the mother I was born to isn’t worth knowing and the mother worth knowing (my boyfriend’s mom) is dying of ALS right before my eyes.
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@nurseofren
Hurting recently because the mother I was born to isn’t worth knowing and the mother worth knowing (my boyfriend’s mom) is dying of ALS right before my eyes.
I want people to stop referring to anything by “spicy” thank you good night
20 years 🥹
Every day I’m reminded that she said it with the sole intention of hurting me and making me feel small.
Certified piss post
Really sad today bc I realized vampires can’t get gel nails bc the UV light would burn them
God the way the Pitt really knew how to portray someone who just didn’t want to be “here” anymore. Because that’s exactly how I felt, the way that last monologue made me feel, when I wanted to end things.
my second knit project is blocking >:)))
forgot to post her
I thought my whole adolescent life that I wanted this big wild love that broke both hearts involved. I think I needed to know someone felt the pain I was feeling during that time. I have a love, now, that takes my pain and hurt and fortifies me against it, lets me know that that pain is real but it’s not worth drowning for.
someone else has what i want #notfair
getting really into sighing and pouting lately
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[phone rings at any time of day]
me: what maniac would call me right now
What I’m struggling/having the most difficulty with regarding my parents is that I have known this was an outcome for a long, long time. I never really thought it would come to this. I thought I’d always have my mom and dad to dread about when it came to big life events/maybe one day having children and how they would insert themselves and cause me grief. Silently I know I’ve had the thought that my life would be the easiest without their involvement whatsoever.
Now that I am no contact, even though I never intended that, I feel my hand was forced (I… am not sad about that part, I feel lucky that this fell into my lap), I’m confronted with the fact that I always thought I’d have to deal with them forever. I never thought I’d not have a relationship with them.
So I’m in a state of grief and relief I never considered was possible. I feel embarrassed and shameful and entirely unwanted on one hand, but also I feel a general sense that the boot has been lifted from my throat.