NWABISA25

POETRY.WRITING.

[nwabisa25]

WHATS MINE

I am slowly having to understand what's mine 

Will need to be worked hard for 

What's mine requires sweat and tears       to get there. 

So I start looking deeper into myself 

I will be what I have been dreaming of that I couldn't see because I have been striving to see it in others

I am needing to realize this life is not a competition, we all succeed differently 

I am understanding I would rather be happy through hard work 

I am having to see everything I couldn't do yesterday that I am exceling in today as a step closer to what's mine 

Deeper I know;

I SHINE DIFFERENTLY                  

 I WILL EXPAND MY GIFT

I WILL CHANGE THE NARRATIVE

I WILL DO EVERYTHING THEY SAID WAS IMPOSIIBLE 

THATS WHATS MINE. 

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sometimes.

i sometimes wonder what would have happened if we didn't meet

you are loving, you're loved and you love

i have always been chasing waves but your boat is safer 

you're kind, you live kindly you are kindness

you are the rest God speaks of, you are the peace he calls

you calm my winds

i know you're not Christian but surely you're saved cause only the savior works through people like you 

i am so lucky to have you around me, ,by your side, with you and always in your atmosphere. 

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NOT JUST A GIRL.

I am not just a girl

Yes I may look like her actually she may be prettier but I am not just a girl

Just girls don’t stand out unless asked too

Just girls don’t architect fertile grounds

Just girls are not analyzed like a picture at an art gallery

I am not just a girl

Yes we from the same womb but I still question are worth value

Being the creative creator god is

His painted my body with marks

His carefully perfectly planned a future they all fighting for

God please do this one thing for my sisters tell them that just girls are not submissive they rebellious

Just girls are walked on, worked on wired on

Just girls still believe I am nothing without him

Society please teach my sisters so they can learn that if we don’t change nothing does

Please tell my women that she is not just the foundation she is the provision, with a vison so vivid

I am not just a girl because my god is not just a god

Just girls tip toe to be heard

They hide to be seen

These are my girls who are not just girls

Have you not seen her fight for her life?

She uses these words because it’s the only weapon that formed but never prospers

She uses these words as caution that just girls don’t have warnings

Just girls have not heard a month almost ten thousands girls are killed globally

Just girls have been told that the man is the head of the house what if I told you not just girls have no dependence

I am not just a girl

I know when you see her, you see me because at some point I did too

The next time you look at me don’t see my struggles you might live there

Don’t see my pain you might die there

Next time you think of me remember the queen no one else can be

Next time you see me see a king with her kingdom.

Because isn’t it funny how she can’t do it without him

So why not be him. Sit on his thrown

I am not just a girl

Replay this over and over again

Reminisce that she is not just a girl.

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YOURS.

I WOULD SAY YOU HAPPY TO HAVE YOU BUT SOMETIMES I SEE THE JOY YOU GET WITHOUT ME

I WOULD PRAY TO THE VERY GOD WHO CREATED THIS LOVE YOU KEEP ON WANTING WITHOUT ME, ONE DAY I HOPE YOU WILL SEARCH FOR THAT PERSON WHO CAN TICK EVERY BOX I COULD NEVER TICK.

BEFORE SLEEPING I WONDER WHO YOU WAKE UP, TOO

I WONDER DO HER LIPS TASTE BETTER THAN MINE OR IT’S BETTER THAN NOTHING

WHAT WE HAD WAS NOT LOVE NEITHER WAS IT ENFACTUATUION IT WAS SELFISHNESS

WE ALWAYS WANTED EACH OTHER FOR OTHER PEOPLE WHAT ABOUT US?

I WOULD HOLD YOUR HAND BUT YOU HAVE ALREADY LET GO.

I COULD TELL YOUR SMILE MAKES MY DAY BUT BREAKS MY HEART

TO THE ONLY GUY WHO SAW WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO BE LOVED

TO THE ONLY GUY WHO KNOWS I WAS NEVER THERE TO STAY.

I STILL LOVE YOU,

I STILL LOVE YOU BECAUSE I KNOW EVERY TIME YOU KISS HER, YOU FEEL ME. EVERYTIME YOU TOGETHER YOU THINK ABOUT ME. I WISH I COULD TELL YOU THIS BUT YOU HAVE GROWN OUT OF THIS.

WE WERE EVERYTHING NEEDED LIKE MASKS TODAY WE TRIED TO PROTECT OUR SELVES FROM ANY HARM BUT YOU CAUSE ME SO MUCH HARM WITH OR WITHOUT YOU I WOULD STILL BE SICK

DARLING PLEASE PLEASE I AM BEGGING YOU TAKE ME BACK I PROMISE THIS TIME I WILL BE THE GIRL OF YOUR DREAMS I WONT KISS YOU TO QIUCLKY I WON’T HESTATE TO MOVE IN WITH YOU.

BUT FIRST, TWO THINGS I WANT FROM YOU AND ONE WHEN YOU SEE ME DON’T LOOK BY MY SIDE BECAUSE WHEN I WAS YOURS I ALWAYS FELT LIKE THE SIDE

AND TWO BEFORE TEXTING ME THINK OF EVRYTHING I WAS NEVER ABLE TO BE CAUSE YOU MEANT EVERYTHING TO EVERYONE.

MAYBE IF YOU WARNED ME BOYS LIKE YOU BURN I WOULD HAVE BEEN CAREFULL TO LOVE WITH MY MIND AND NOT HEART.

WINTER NIGHTS YOU WERE LIKE A BLANKET AND NOW YOU FROZEN CLOSE TO DISAPPEARING BUT I STILL WONDER.

GOD STILL LOVES YOU WITH ALL THE HEARTBREAKS YOU’VE CAUSED ME, I STILL PRAY FOR YOU CAUSE WE ALL DESERVE HEALING EVEN IF YOU NEVER DESIRED IT FOR ME

WAS IT ALL MY FAULT

WAS IT ALL MY FAULT WHEN I TRIED TO KEEP US YOU DID EVERYTHING TO TEAR US

MAYBE IT WAS MY FAULT WHEN YOU SMOOTHELY CRWALED INTO MY SKIN AND I WAS NOT READY YET.

I WANT YOU BACK AND THIS TIME FOR ME PLEASE BE MINE ONLY, YOU BEING PRESENT AND ABSENT IS NOT ENOUGH I AM NOT LIKE A RUBBER BAND ALWAYS PULLED AND EXPECTED TO BE IN THE SAME SHAPE

CLOSE YOURS EYES AND SEE ME IN YOUR EMPTINESS BUT IT IS EMPITNESS FOR A REASON

WE KEPT LOVING WITH OUR FINGERTIPS ALTHOUGH I THOUGH I DESERVED A RING ON MY FINGER.

ALL I EVER REALLY WANTED WAS LOVE, ATRACTION AND AFFECTION BUT I UNDERSTOD IT BETTER CAUSE YOU GAVE ME DOUBT, HEARTBREAK AND MISERY

BEFORE I LEAVE, I WANT TO DEDICATE THIS TROPHY OF MY WORDS TO YOUR HEART THAT LOVING YOU WAS A SIN, GOD I AM SORRY BUT THANK YOU BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS KNEW I DESERVED BETTER  

I  STILL LOVE YOU WITH EVERY PART YOU TOOK FROM ME OPEN YOUR HANDS NOW AND SEE HOW MUCH OF THAT IS LEFT.

NWABISA25

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