NYC CYN

We are all going to die one day. This is a digital archive of selected moments from my life.  

[paper-wounds]

via

[nyc-cyn-angel]

still

[nyc-cyn-angel]

The beginning of this mix! But also the whole thing <3 <3

[nyc-cyn-angel]

Vortex at IFC

[signedthemoon]

— isa b. this survival hasn't been soft

[quotefeeling]

“Be the kind of person who leaves a mark, not a scar.”

— Unknown

[nyc-cyn-angel]

Moments from August's Astoria Open Streets Movie Night with Tikkun BBQ and Astoria Horror Club on 35mm

[nyc-cyn-angel]

Moments from August's Astoria Open Streets Movie Night with Tikkun BBQ and Astoria Horror Club on 35mm

[nyc-cyn-angel]

Gulliver's Travels Mural in Whitehaven by artist Paul Wilmott

[nyc-cyn-angel]

A walk in Whitehaven, UK last July on 35mm

The town is quaint and looks out to the vast sea, the sound of seagulls roaring day and night

[nyc-cyn-angel]

Film Snaps from our Warsaw, Poland SUN Premiere at Splat!

[nyc-cyn-angel]

Beautiful Merida celebrating the love between my soul sis Jacqueline and her soul mate Will 💖

Fave spots:

Pancho Y Maiz

La Lupita (Cash Only)

Tulia (where the welcome dinner took place- amazing!)

Salon Gallos

El Gato

Coqui Coqui

Stay at an AIRBNB! The houses are incredible.

[nyc-cyn-angel]

McCarren Park 11.26.23

I thought of you today as I do everyday and burst into tears in McCarren Park. I thought about how much I wanted to text you. I thought about how I wanted to ask what you're doing and if you wanted to meet for a drink. I thought about how badly I wanted to drop by your old job and see your face. I thought of how much I wanted to hear your voice. I thought about the last time we spoke. That moment crystalized in my memory forever. I go back to it and wish there is so much I could say and do differently... I thought about how much I miss you. I thought about the life I'm living and everything that I wish you could experience. I thought about all the songs I wish we could share and all the jokes we could tell and all the cackles we could cry out. I thought about how much I wish I could hug you again and never let go.

[nyc-cyn-angel]

Thoughts 11.26.23

There will be times when you feel so misunderstood and so alone. Stay strong. There will be people that are supposed to care for you yet will make you feel like you're worthless. Stay strong. There are times when the world is upside down and everything hurts. Stay strong. There are days when a bike ride while the sun sets beautifully is all you need to get you through the next day. Keep that memory close. Not everyone will give you what you need but you have you. Stay soft. Love hard anyway because one day your light will no longer be here and that love will shine for those that mattered. Stay bright.

[nyc-cyn-angel]

Memories from our trip to Medellin on my Yashica. 2023.

[nyc-cyn-angel]

Memories from a day at Rockaway this summer '23

[nyc-cyn-angel]

My heart is heavy as my birthday approaches and soon thereafter the anniversary of your departure. Time has stood still but flown by at the same time. I can't believe it's going to be two years of this excruciating heart ache. I really still can't believe it.

[nyc-cyn-angel]

Genesis, Judah and Angelique at Robertas in Bushwick. This was 2017 or 2019. Genesis, Judah and Anaih were visiting from North Carolina for the holidays and I took all the kids out- including Scarlett and Grace. I showed them my favorite thrift shops after we ate pizza. I find joy in knowing that the girls still like to shop there now. This was a perfect day with my little loves. I wish I could go back to it and relive it... the next best thing is this photograph that takes me back to those moments... when things were perfect. IMY Gen. I miss laughing with you so much. ILY all so much.