I'm genderfluid. You might wonder how do you know which pronouns to use? Well, it’s simple. If you don't know what gender I am- any prounouns.
However, it’s a bit easier if you know me irl. You see, I'm cursed. My curse it that I'm invisible. But the curse only works when I'm a boy. So if you hear me but don’t see me, I'm either in the next room, a boy, or both. There's a lot of ways my curse shows up and corresponds with my gender. Ive put a guide below!
When I'm invisible- he/him
When I'm sort of see-through- they/them
When you can only see me from the corner of your eye- xe/xem
When you can see my shadow, but not me- fae/faer
If I'm fully visible- she/her
If I'm visible, but the moment you look away, you forget I exist- it/its (I'll probably tell you this is happening. It's not great)
If I flicker through visibility, translucency and invisibility- multiple sets of pronouns. Just ask
there's a couple manifestations ive not figured out pronouns for but that just means any work
If I'm technically visible, but you only notice me when I move or speak because I've sort of faded into the background- ze/zir
no i mean addiction. gambling addiction and self harm addiction included. we don't have to avoid these words like they're a bad thing. the stigma will exist regardless, so if someone says "what, you support addicts?" instead of saying "i support people struggling with substance abuse" you can just say "yes." no caveats, yeah i support addicts. i support homeless people. i support homeless addicts. it's fine
(A haunted-looking pale boy with blood smudged in the corner of his mouth studies Sasha.)
"You can already control your curse?"
(He says this in Sasha's general direction.)
- @blood-of-the-covenant-runs-thin
(Sasha flickers like an old movie and turns around)
'Oh! Hi- I mean, sort of? Not completely. Up until yesterday everyone forgot I existed for a week so...not completely. But I do have a flower crown that hopefully stays visible!'
(She hestitates for a moment, and fades ever so slightly)
'Also- this might be rude and I'm sorry- you've got blood on your mouth. Looks cool as fuck don't worry- but it might not be what you're going for'
(He notes her flickering with mild interest and a smile barely forms on his lips when she talks about her flower crown.)
(The smile is gone when she mentions his mouth, though, and when her eyes meet his one of them is red and the other is blue.)
"Sorry about that. It's related to my curse, there's always bloodstains on everything I own. I... I'm Samuel Seki, by the way, but you can call me Seki if you'd like."
"It's really impressive that you can control your invisibility, at least a little bit."
(He offers Sasha a grin, stained a little red like he'd been kicked in the teeth.)
'That is so cool actually! Hm. Except for doing laundry and getting accused of murder or something. Have you tried continuously dressing like a vampire just to scare people? I can be a ghost- probably...'
Oh- also! I'm Sasha- invisibility curse and genderfluid. Today it's a she/they day. Maybe a he too, couldn't see my hands this morning...oh well.'
(They're absentmindedly fidgeting with a bit wire, and seem to be both excited and nervous to be talking to someone)
(The word 'murder' seems to make him lose himself in memories for a second before he pulls himself back.)
"Murder and accusations of murder are two different things."
(The vampire question doesn't cheer him up but it gets him sober.)
"My favourite Halloween costume is a vampire. I've got mild anaemia, so it fits, doesn't it?"
(He takes Sasha's genderfluidity without question.)
"I'll ask about your pronouns the next time I see you then. I assume you're invisible on masculine days and visible on feminine days?"
(His mismatched eyes narrow on Sasha's bit of wire, slight apprehension and perfectly still hands contrasting their fidgeting.)
(He lays two fingers on the thin choker that he wears in a manner similar to someone nervously checking the time.)
'Yeah that's true...still, so far I've gotten only one of those. Still, I'll remember for next Halloween that you can be a vampire. Unfortunately- the whole genderfluid curse gender thing is stupidly complicated sometimes. I've got a card somewhere hold on....'
(This is the card they give him:
then, she notices the movement)
'Is your heart still beating? Do I need to get Nurse Lenny?'
(Samuel grins as he is handed the card. He loves precision and the surety of details.)
(He laughs at her question, low and sad.)
"No, it has something to do with my curse. See, I absorb the blood of people around me and every month when I vomit most of it out, all the blood loss effects hit them at once."
(He mumbles.)
"My father died that way."
(Back to normal volume)
"Yeah. The choker is a gift from the Hexmaster, it lets me know roughly how much blood I've taken from someone by slowly heating up, and it flashes red when I've spent to much time around someone who's affected by me."
(Samuel grins properly at the comment.)
"Will do."
(He watches Sasha's flickering form again, with renewed interest.)
"If you have a 'he' day, let me know. I wonder if we could hang out when you're invisible, because usually my choker would have flashed by now."
"Maybe you're safer than most."
"Well, I'll see you the-"
(The bell rings.)
"-Oh! It's Playtime, I suppose."
(He pulls a twisted, tri-bladed Jagdkommando knife with serrations added to it out of his bag, unsheathing it to wipe it off.)
"Wanna come with me?"
(He starts putting on a holster, knife sheathed at his hip and what looks like small pouches across his chest. Upon closer inspection, the pouch closest to his hip is a second sheath, holding a small utility knife, and his top two pouches have a slingshot and rocks inside them.)
(Samuel practically glows, and a flush runs into his cheeks.)
"Thanks. I made them myself."
(He examines their morningstar with interest.)
"You can use the flail, by the way. Don't worry about me."
(The flush doesn't go away and Sasha realises that Samuel is now the colour he would be normally if he didn't have his curse.)
"C'mon, don't wanna be late."
(He looks over his shoulder with a furrowed brow and puts a little more distance between him and Sasha, hand on his choker.)
"You're turning a little transparent, is it a non-binary day today?"
(Samuel's choker suddenly flashes red, and he stops and moves away from Sasha.)
"Sorry! Sorry. I've spent a little too much time around you."
(He does some quick maths.)
"In about 3 days, you should feel really dizzy and tired. If your pulse starts to kinda skip, book it to Nurse Lenny's."
(He grins apologetically.)
"See you around? I'll probably be going deep into the Plagueround with Professor Hinks, then if I'm not fighting with you. Apparently, he's found a river of blood."
(As he turns and leaves, a paper note drops onto the ground in front of Sasha.)
'You dropped your flower crown, by the way'
just got a letter uuhh my bookshop friends/parents possibly broke up or died??? not sure whats going on but. hope theyre good ill go see them soon as i can
*he barely even notices him saying his pronouns but makes a mental note that his curse may have to do with pronouns or gender* Well, I mean look at me! My curse is almost as obvious as yours! *he laughs* I bet you can guess. Go on, guess.
Yeah! It has its downsides but so does everything, really. *Zac notices the flower disappearing* I think you're disappearing more- is that meant to happen?
That's a point- I can't really hold the card. Could you drop it at my dorm later? I can get Seki to put it somewhere so I can learn it. Yeah, um, for now I can read it off a ledge I guess.
It sure looks like a collectors card. *he laughs then reads the card* Maybe we should all have one here. Though for most it may just be explaining curses, I think most people here are cis guys to be honest.
Oh, have you ever been to a pride parade? I have! They are so colourful. Now mum says I can't go- cause I'm a robot and I have to go here now.
'Probably-but I prefer to give them to people when I meet them. It's a bit less awkward.'
'I have been absolutely! Please don't tell the teachers, but I sometimes sneak out to go to pride or other things. Perk of invisibility and of people forgetting you exist. I went to the bookshop for Christmas actually...that was nice'
'We could organise student pride! I'm sure we could sew pride flags and things....'
'Yep! It's in Soho. I usually stay there when not at school. They remember me! Plus- one of them can see me when I'm invisible. It's probably the snake eyes...'
Some of the flowers fade a little
'I don't...I don't have a roommate. Or much of a room either. I'm in one of the spare ones. They...they kind of forgot me when assigning the rooms. It's kinda old and dusty but...it works. I guess.'
Oh. *his eyes dim* I would offer to share a room, but I'm with Seki already and I'm not sure 3 would fit in a room, or how your curses would interact. I think I'm one of the only boys who can actually share a room with him.
I think there may be a spot in my old room though. With the amount of room moving I've done it's good that I have barely anything. *he laughs nervously*
Oohhhh! Yes please! *his eyes begin to flash slowly the light reflecting off all the walls, Zac doesn't notice* But not like books or anything or anything I need to hold, cause I can't really.
'hmmmm true. You good at mechanics? Or would that be- surgery? Philosophical. Anway- your eyes are flashing? It's pretty cool but i might have to look away im not very good with stroboscopes'
*he barely even notices him saying his pronouns but makes a mental note that his curse may have to do with pronouns or gender* Well, I mean look at me! My curse is almost as obvious as yours! *he laughs* I bet you can guess. Go on, guess.
Yeah! It has its downsides but so does everything, really. *Zac notices the flower disappearing* I think you're disappearing more- is that meant to happen?
That's a point- I can't really hold the card. Could you drop it at my dorm later? I can get Seki to put it somewhere so I can learn it. Yeah, um, for now I can read it off a ledge I guess.
It sure looks like a collectors card. *he laughs then reads the card* Maybe we should all have one here. Though for most it may just be explaining curses, I think most people here are cis guys to be honest.
Oh, have you ever been to a pride parade? I have! They are so colourful. Now mum says I can't go- cause I'm a robot and I have to go here now.
'Probably-but I prefer to give them to people when I meet them. It's a bit less awkward.'
'I have been absolutely! Please don't tell the teachers, but I sometimes sneak out to go to pride or other things. Perk of invisibility and of people forgetting you exist. I went to the bookshop for Christmas actually...that was nice'
'We could organise student pride! I'm sure we could sew pride flags and things....'
'Yep! It's in Soho. I usually stay there when not at school. They remember me! Plus- one of them can see me when I'm invisible. It's probably the snake eyes...'
Some of the flowers fade a little
'I don't...I don't have a roommate. Or much of a room either. I'm in one of the spare ones. They...they kind of forgot me when assigning the rooms. It's kinda old and dusty but...it works. I guess.'
Oh. *his eyes dim* I would offer to share a room, but I'm with Seki already and I'm not sure 3 would fit in a room, or how your curses would interact. I think I'm one of the only boys who can actually share a room with him.
I think there may be a spot in my old room though. With the amount of room moving I've done it's good that I have barely anything. *he laughs nervously*
Oohhhh! Yes please! *his eyes begin to flash slowly the light reflecting off all the walls, Zac doesn't notice* But not like books or anything or anything I need to hold, cause I can't really.
'hmmmm true. You good at mechanics? Or would that be- surgery? Philosophical. Anway- your eyes are flashing? It's pretty cool but i might have to look away im not very good with stroboscopes'
*he barely even notices him saying his pronouns but makes a mental note that his curse may have to do with pronouns or gender* Well, I mean look at me! My curse is almost as obvious as yours! *he laughs* I bet you can guess. Go on, guess.
Yeah! It has its downsides but so does everything, really. *Zac notices the flower disappearing* I think you're disappearing more- is that meant to happen?
That's a point- I can't really hold the card. Could you drop it at my dorm later? I can get Seki to put it somewhere so I can learn it. Yeah, um, for now I can read it off a ledge I guess.
It sure looks like a collectors card. *he laughs then reads the card* Maybe we should all have one here. Though for most it may just be explaining curses, I think most people here are cis guys to be honest.
Oh, have you ever been to a pride parade? I have! They are so colourful. Now mum says I can't go- cause I'm a robot and I have to go here now.
'Probably-but I prefer to give them to people when I meet them. It's a bit less awkward.'
'I have been absolutely! Please don't tell the teachers, but I sometimes sneak out to go to pride or other things. Perk of invisibility and of people forgetting you exist. I went to the bookshop for Christmas actually...that was nice'
'We could organise student pride! I'm sure we could sew pride flags and things....'
'Yep! It's in Soho. I usually stay there when not at school. They remember me! Plus- one of them can see me when I'm invisible. It's probably the snake eyes...'
Some of the flowers fade a little
'I don't...I don't have a roommate. Or much of a room either. I'm in one of the spare ones. They...they kind of forgot me when assigning the rooms. It's kinda old and dusty but...it works. I guess.'
Oh. *his eyes dim* I would offer to share a room, but I'm with Seki already and I'm not sure 3 would fit in a room, or how your curses would interact. I think I'm one of the only boys who can actually share a room with him.
I think there may be a spot in my old room though. With the amount of room moving I've done it's good that I have barely anything. *he laughs nervously*
Oohhhh! Yes please! *his eyes begin to flash slowly the light reflecting off all the walls, Zac doesn't notice* But not like books or anything or anything I need to hold, cause I can't really.
'hmmmm true. You good at mechanics? Or would that be- surgery? Philosophical. Anway- your eyes are flashing? It's pretty cool but i might have to look away im not very good with stroboscopes'
*he barely even notices him saying his pronouns but makes a mental note that his curse may have to do with pronouns or gender* Well, I mean look at me! My curse is almost as obvious as yours! *he laughs* I bet you can guess. Go on, guess.
Yeah! It has its downsides but so does everything, really. *Zac notices the flower disappearing* I think you're disappearing more- is that meant to happen?
That's a point- I can't really hold the card. Could you drop it at my dorm later? I can get Seki to put it somewhere so I can learn it. Yeah, um, for now I can read it off a ledge I guess.
It sure looks like a collectors card. *he laughs then reads the card* Maybe we should all have one here. Though for most it may just be explaining curses, I think most people here are cis guys to be honest.
Oh, have you ever been to a pride parade? I have! They are so colourful. Now mum says I can't go- cause I'm a robot and I have to go here now.
'Probably-but I prefer to give them to people when I meet them. It's a bit less awkward.'
'I have been absolutely! Please don't tell the teachers, but I sometimes sneak out to go to pride or other things. Perk of invisibility and of people forgetting you exist. I went to the bookshop for Christmas actually...that was nice'
'We could organise student pride! I'm sure we could sew pride flags and things....'
'Yep! It's in Soho. I usually stay there when not at school. They remember me! Plus- one of them can see me when I'm invisible. It's probably the snake eyes...'
Some of the flowers fade a little
'I don't...I don't have a roommate. Or much of a room either. I'm in one of the spare ones. They...they kind of forgot me when assigning the rooms. It's kinda old and dusty but...it works. I guess.'
Oh. *his eyes dim* I would offer to share a room, but I'm with Seki already and I'm not sure 3 would fit in a room, or how your curses would interact. I think I'm one of the only boys who can actually share a room with him.
I think there may be a spot in my old room though. With the amount of room moving I've done it's good that I have barely anything. *he laughs nervously*
Oohhhh! Yes please! *his eyes begin to flash slowly the light reflecting off all the walls, Zac doesn't notice* But not like books or anything or anything I need to hold, cause I can't really.
*he barely even notices him saying his pronouns but makes a mental note that his curse may have to do with pronouns or gender* Well, I mean look at me! My curse is almost as obvious as yours! *he laughs* I bet you can guess. Go on, guess.
Yeah! It has its downsides but so does everything, really. *Zac notices the flower disappearing* I think you're disappearing more- is that meant to happen?
That's a point- I can't really hold the card. Could you drop it at my dorm later? I can get Seki to put it somewhere so I can learn it. Yeah, um, for now I can read it off a ledge I guess.
It sure looks like a collectors card. *he laughs then reads the card* Maybe we should all have one here. Though for most it may just be explaining curses, I think most people here are cis guys to be honest.
Oh, have you ever been to a pride parade? I have! They are so colourful. Now mum says I can't go- cause I'm a robot and I have to go here now.
'Probably-but I prefer to give them to people when I meet them. It's a bit less awkward.'
'I have been absolutely! Please don't tell the teachers, but I sometimes sneak out to go to pride or other things. Perk of invisibility and of people forgetting you exist. I went to the bookshop for Christmas actually...that was nice'
'We could organise student pride! I'm sure we could sew pride flags and things....'
'Yep! It's in Soho. I usually stay there when not at school. They remember me! Plus- one of them can see me when I'm invisible. It's probably the snake eyes...'
Some of the flowers fade a little
'I don't...I don't have a roommate. Or much of a room either. I'm in one of the spare ones. They...they kind of forgot me when assigning the rooms. It's kinda old and dusty but...it works. I guess.'
Oh. *his eyes dim* I would offer to share a room, but I'm with Seki already and I'm not sure 3 would fit in a room, or how your curses would interact. I think I'm one of the only boys who can actually share a room with him.
I think there may be a spot in my old room though. With the amount of room moving I've done it's good that I have barely anything. *he laughs nervously*
*he barely even notices him saying his pronouns but makes a mental note that his curse may have to do with pronouns or gender* Well, I mean look at me! My curse is almost as obvious as yours! *he laughs* I bet you can guess. Go on, guess.
Yeah! It has its downsides but so does everything, really. *Zac notices the flower disappearing* I think you're disappearing more- is that meant to happen?
That's a point- I can't really hold the card. Could you drop it at my dorm later? I can get Seki to put it somewhere so I can learn it. Yeah, um, for now I can read it off a ledge I guess.
It sure looks like a collectors card. *he laughs then reads the card* Maybe we should all have one here. Though for most it may just be explaining curses, I think most people here are cis guys to be honest.
Oh, have you ever been to a pride parade? I have! They are so colourful. Now mum says I can't go- cause I'm a robot and I have to go here now.
'Probably-but I prefer to give them to people when I meet them. It's a bit less awkward.'
'I have been absolutely! Please don't tell the teachers, but I sometimes sneak out to go to pride or other things. Perk of invisibility and of people forgetting you exist. I went to the bookshop for Christmas actually...that was nice'
'We could organise student pride! I'm sure we could sew pride flags and things....'
'Yep! It's in Soho. I usually stay there when not at school. They remember me! Plus- one of them can see me when I'm invisible. It's probably the snake eyes...'
Some of the flowers fade a little
'I don't...I don't have a roommate. Or much of a room either. I'm in one of the spare ones. They...they kind of forgot me when assigning the rooms. It's kinda old and dusty but...it works. I guess.'
*he barely even notices him saying his pronouns but makes a mental note that his curse may have to do with pronouns or gender* Well, I mean look at me! My curse is almost as obvious as yours! *he laughs* I bet you can guess. Go on, guess.
Yeah! It has its downsides but so does everything, really. *Zac notices the flower disappearing* I think you're disappearing more- is that meant to happen?
That's a point- I can't really hold the card. Could you drop it at my dorm later? I can get Seki to put it somewhere so I can learn it. Yeah, um, for now I can read it off a ledge I guess.
It sure looks like a collectors card. *he laughs then reads the card* Maybe we should all have one here. Though for most it may just be explaining curses, I think most people here are cis guys to be honest.
Oh, have you ever been to a pride parade? I have! They are so colourful. Now mum says I can't go- cause I'm a robot and I have to go here now.
'Probably-but I prefer to give them to people when I meet them. It's a bit less awkward.'
'I have been absolutely! Please don't tell the teachers, but I sometimes sneak out to go to pride or other things. Perk of invisibility and of people forgetting you exist. I went to the bookshop for Christmas actually...that was nice'
*he barely even notices him saying his pronouns but makes a mental note that his curse may have to do with pronouns or gender* Well, I mean look at me! My curse is almost as obvious as yours! *he laughs* I bet you can guess. Go on, guess.
Yeah! It has its downsides but so does everything, really. *Zac notices the flower disappearing* I think you're disappearing more- is that meant to happen?
That's a point- I can't really hold the card. Could you drop it at my dorm later? I can get Seki to put it somewhere so I can learn it. Yeah, um, for now I can read it off a ledge I guess.
*he barely even notices him saying his pronouns but makes a mental note that his curse may have to do with pronouns or gender* Well, I mean look at me! My curse is almost as obvious as yours! *he laughs* I bet you can guess. Go on, guess.
Yeah! It has its downsides but so does everything, really. *Zac notices the flower disappearing* I think you're disappearing more- is that meant to happen?
*he barely even notices him saying his pronouns but makes a mental note that his curse may have to do with pronouns or gender* Well, I mean look at me! My curse is almost as obvious as yours! *he laughs* I bet you can guess. Go on, guess.
Yeah! It has its downsides but so does everything, really. *Zac notices the flower disappearing* I think you're disappearing more- is that meant to happen?
*he barely even notices him saying his pronouns but makes a mental note that his curse may have to do with pronouns or gender* Well, I mean look at me! My curse is almost as obvious as yours! *he laughs* I bet you can guess. Go on, guess.
*he barely even notices him saying his pronouns but makes a mental note that his curse may have to do with pronouns or gender* Well, I mean look at me! My curse is almost as obvious as yours! *he laughs* I bet you can guess. Go on, guess.