I feel like rambling about Odazai so buckle in fuckos, I'm about to attempt to put my thoughts and feelings into words. This is going to be a mess.
Keep in mind all this is just my headcanons and how I view them with a big ol queer eyes.
Okay so I ship Odazai in the sense that I believe that Dazai loved Oda, but Oda loved Dazai in a different way. Like I don't think they would've ever had any sort of romantic relationship in the time they knew each other.
Like, maybe if Oda had lived, something could've happened years down the line- But we unfortunately can't have nice things here.
Now I don't think Dazai's love for Oda was strictly romantic, I think it falls more into queer platonic. He wouldn't actively seek out a romantic relationship with Oda, but he would definitely enjoy doing things with him and being intimate in a way an outsider would deem romantic. Oda was just... Dazai's person. He would marry Oda in a heartbeat if he had the chance not because he was in love, but because "It's Odasaku."
Meanwhile, I think Oda's love for Dazai was more strictly platonic. I get the impression that Oda does see Dazai as his age (16 - 18) and that's why he's kinda indulgent in Dazai being... well, Dazai. Like, yeah he's drinking at a bar and he's a genius Port Mafia executive, and Oda respects him for the unfortunate amount of maturity (for lack of a better word) he has, but he's also a sad kid who barely gets a glimpse of a normal childhood.
He wouldn't initiate any affection, but he would give it to Dazai if he expressed wanting it or initated it himself. If it meant Dazai would get a bit of happiness, Oda would be willing to give Dazai almost anything.
I got distracted by other things so I ran out of thoughts even though I'm pretty sure I had more but it is what it is.
