alfie had never felt this level of heartbreak in his entire life. it truly felt as though his heart couldn’t take anymore. was that a pretty dramatic statement ? sure. but it’s what he felt. it seemed to be a common theme in his life for things to appear to be going well but eventually they’ll all go to shambles.. it’s just how his world worked. this situation wasn’t any different. the person he very well considered to be the love of his life disappeared into thin air months ago and the heartbreak of not knowing whether he was dead or just decided alfie wasn’t worth it anymore wouldn’t leave him. in fact , it weighed heavier on his heart everyday and at this point he just wants to let it weigh him down until he drowns in his own self pity. and to make everything better in this moment , greyson ( his father ) decided to pop in to “ check ” on how him and marie were doing. maybe alfie would’ve been less hostile if this wasn’t the first time he’s really seen his father in a month but for the man to simply drop by without warning and ask him what his grades were and how were the college applications coming as if he suddenly cared lit a fire under his already bubbling emotions. the younger knew what he wanted to do but unfortunately for him that never matched up with greyson’s requests. the conversation pinged him in the heart too many times for him to be anywhere near the word okay when the other man left. bits of the conversation continued to ring in his ear as he walked up the stairs ‘ what are you without me ? no one’s going to care who you are or what the hell you do. you’ve got nothing to offer anyone without me.’ is what he said and alfie as much as he wanted to disagree knew he was right. he did have nothing and that reality caused the sobs caught in his throat to escape as he reached closer to his room and along with them came the shakiness of his hands as he tried to open the door to his room. the smaller managed after a while , opening the door and wiping at his eyes for a moment before he looked up and the sight in front of him nearly knocked the wind out of him. the tears streamed steady and he’s sure he looked just as much of a wreck as he felt. the smaller felt his words caught in his throat and if he was honest it took him a moment to recognize the other in front of him because that wasn’t his aaron. this man in front of him looked more mature and more like a male model and as much as it confused him his eyes were the same and that’s how he knew. ‘ y-you aren’t here right now ? right ? t-this is all one b-big fucked up delusion or some shit.’ his words were stuttered and broken just how he felt , this was all so fucking overwhelming. // @heartbeatens









