the worst.

He was the kind of boy who was a chaos of contradictions from one second to the next, for his mind was never free. Sometimes bright like the sun, sometimes calm like the moon, sometimes stormy like the ocean, and sometimes all three

[ofcravings]

        alfie had never felt this level of heartbreak in his entire life. it truly felt as though his heart couldn’t take anymore. was that a pretty dramatic statement ? sure. but it’s what he felt. it seemed to be a common theme in his life for things to appear to be going well but eventually they’ll all go to shambles.. it’s just how his world worked. this situation wasn’t any different. the person he very well considered to be the love of his life disappeared into thin air months ago and the heartbreak of not knowing whether he was dead or just decided alfie wasn’t worth it anymore wouldn’t leave him. in fact , it weighed heavier on his heart everyday and at this point he just wants to let it weigh him down until he drowns in his own self pity. and to make everything better in this moment , greyson ( his father ) decided to pop in to “ check ” on how him and marie were doing. maybe alfie would’ve been less hostile if this wasn’t the first time he’s really seen his father in a month but for the man to simply drop by without warning and ask him what his grades were and how were the college applications coming as if he suddenly cared lit a fire under his already bubbling emotions. the younger knew what he wanted to do but unfortunately for him that never matched up with greyson’s requests. the conversation pinged him in the heart too many times for him to be anywhere near the word okay when the other man left. bits of the conversation continued to ring in his ear as he walked up the stairs ‘ what are you without me ? no one’s going to care who you are or what the hell you do. you’ve got nothing to offer anyone without me.’ is what he said and alfie as much as he wanted to disagree knew he was right. he did have nothing and that reality caused the sobs caught in his throat to escape as he reached closer to his room and along with them came the shakiness of his hands as he tried to open the door to his room. the smaller managed after a while , opening the door and wiping at his eyes for a moment before he looked up and the sight in front of him nearly knocked the wind out of him. the tears streamed steady and he’s sure he looked just as much of a wreck as he felt. the smaller felt his words caught in his throat and if he was honest it took him a moment to recognize the other in front of him because that wasn’t his aaron. this man in front of him looked more mature and more like a male model and as much as it confused him his eyes were the same and that’s how he knew. ‘ y-you aren’t here right now ? right ? t-this is all one b-big fucked up delusion or some shit.’  his words were stuttered and broken just how he felt , this was all so fucking overwhelming. // @heartbeatens

[ofcravings]

heartbeatens‌:

          ‘     not   𝐞𝐱𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐥𝐲   ?   what  the  hell  does  that  mean   ?   you  are  teasing  me   ,   aren’t  you  ..     ’     aaron  laughs    &    scrunches  up  his  nose.  they  would  have  to  have  at  least  a  conversation  about  this  sooner  or  later.     —     sooner  if  it  was  up  to  aaron.     ‘     would  be  nicer  if  i  actually  got  to  hang  around  with  them  but  ..  that’s  neither  here  nor  there.     ’     the  male  mumbled.  he  hadn’t  seen  his  siblings  in  a  very  long  time    &    that  was  all  thanks  to  his  father   ,   of  course.     ‘     falling  in  like    ?    you’re  something  else  aren’t  you  alfie  porter   ?     ’     the  other  really  was  something  else   ,   it’d  only  been  a  day    &    a  half  since  the  pair  had  met  but  alfie  hadn’t  left  aaron’s  mind  since.  there’s  a  slight  smile  at  the  other’s  words.  emerald  hues  glance  down  on  the  sidewalk  as  he  thinks  about  his   “   perfect   ”   partner.  sure   ,   he  could  describe  some  blonde  with  big  boobs    &    a  personality  of  a  goldfish  but  things  had  changed  in  the  last  forty  -  eight  hours.     ‘     well  for  one  thing  they  absolutely  HAVE  to  have  a  big  bum.     ’     well  ..  some  things  stayed  the  same.

    ‘ like i said curly , you’ve got to keep me round to find out and that’s all i’ve got to say on that.’ he smiled cheekily , tightening his grip slightly on the other’s hand as he listened to him talk. ‘ why can’t ya hang out with ‘em ?’ he asked genuinely , before adding hurriedly ‘ i-i mean you don’t have to tell me obviously  don’t feel pressured to or anythin’..’ maybe it was a bit too soon to be this forward with asking about his family issues , he knows its only been two days but he’s pretty sure he’s the most comfortable he’s ever been with another person in quite sometime and maybe .. who knows.. maybe aaron feels the same ? ‘ ah yes i am thank you for noticing , you’re catching on quiet fast there harold. i’m impressed.’ he teased , nudging him with his shoulder in a playful manner. ‘ oh yeah ? bum’s are your thing ? well lucky for you i’ve been told i’ve got a decent ass. what do ya think ? does it get the aaron seal of approval ? ’ he continued to tease , biting his lower lip before letting go of his hand and walking in front of him for a moment. the smaller moved his shirt up a bit to give the other a better view as he continued walking moving his hips with a bit of a purpose for a second or two before turning back around with a mischievous grin on his face. his little sister’s school was only a minute or two away from where they were , the smaller went back to hold aaron’s hand so he could tug him under the tree that they were almost about to pass up. alfie sat and motioned for the other to do the same ‘ marie usually meets me here , so i think we’ve got another  five minutes or so until you get to meet my mini me.’

[ofcravings]

heartbeatens‌:

       when  the  other  gave  him  more  access  to  his  neck   ,   aaron  starts  to  suck  lightly  onto  the  skin  to  make  a  little  hickey     —     marking  his  territory.   even  though  technically  alfie  wasn’t  his.  technically.    &    literally.     ‘     mhm.  does  that  turn  you  on   ,   kitten    ?    ’     he  purred  into  alfie’s  ear   ,   starting  to  help  him  take  off  his  pants.  when  they  were  off  aaron’s  hands  pull  the  smaller  even  closer  to  his  chest  to  get  a  better  view  at  what  he  was  doing.  as  he  lays  his  eyes  on  alfie’s  erection  there’s  an  apparent  smirk  upon  his  lips.  just  knowing  that  was  because  of  him    &    him  only.     ‘     more  what  baby    ?     ’     the  male  teases   ,   taking  alfie’s  underwear  slowly  off.  to  be  honest   ,   aaron  had  expected  to  be  terrified  that  he  didn’t  know  what  he  was  doing  but  everything  came  so  naturally  with  alfie  at  this  point.  his  big  hands  wrap  around  the  other’s  cock    &    he  starts  to  move  them  very  slowly  up    &    down  his  shaft     —     making  it  his  mission  to  tease  the  other  to  no  ends.     ‘     does  it  feel  good  baby    ?     ’     aaron  asks  while  still  leaving  sloppy  kisses  on  alfie’s  neck.

    alfie couldn’t help the gasp like moan that escaped his lips as a hickey was being sucked onto his neck. the smaller letting his head rest against the other’s shoulder with his eyes closed , he didn’t even want to think about how bad this would look when he was to talk to matthew later , two hickeys on his neck brought to him by the person his soon to be ex hates the most right now. it should bother him more but the other was asking him if he was turned on by this new piece of information he didn’t know he needed and it really isn’t his fault that another little noise escaped his lips the moment he tried to respond ‘ y-yes daddy , like it when you only think about m-me.’ he admitted , refocusing his attention on getting his pants off because firstly they were way too restricting right now and secondly they were the only thing between him and his release. normally the smug look that he just knew was on aaron’s face would make him want to punch him right then and there but right now that thought alone  just turned him on more making him rut up into his hand as aaron tried to take his underwear off. ‘ stop being such a-a fucking tease.’ he whined at the other’s question , he had full intention of continuing his whining but a large hand was around his cock and that was definitely enough to shut him up. ‘  yeah , y-yeah feels good.’ he stuttered breathlessly , pushing up his hips up into the slow movement showing just how needy he was ‘ faster.’ he muttered out his demand , hoping the other wouldn’t tease him for too much longer.

[ofcravings]

heartbeatens·:

         if  there  was  one  thing  bodhi  wanted  for  his  best  friend  it  was  pure   𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬.   if  that  was  with  matthew  or  aaron   ,   didn’t  matter.  what  did  matter  was  if  alfie  would  end  up  being  hurt.    &    to  be  honest   ,   aaron  was  the  more  likely  choice  to  leave  his  best  friend  aching   ,   crying  on  bodhi’s  living  room  floor.     ‘     are  you  sure  mate   ?   what  abouts  if  this  aaron  guy  leaves  you  hangin’  after  you  call  it  quits  with  matthew   ?   no  offence  but  …  he  sounds  like  someone  who’d  do  that  to  yous  ..     ’     the  blond  replied   &   walked  over  to  where  alfie  was  sitting   ,    &    sat  down  beside  him  cuddling  up  to  his  best  friend.  he  lets  out  a  little  laugh  but  then  clears  his  throat    &    starts  messing  with  the  fabric  of  the  blanket.     ‘     there  might  be  a  girl  who’s  in  me  english  class  but  ..  don’t  suppose  she’s  very  interested.     ’     cassie  taylor.  the  female  that  bodhi  has  had  his  eyes  on  for  a  few  weeks  now.  it  wasn’t  a  secret  that  she  had  some  intimacy  issues  but  he  wasn’t  going  up.  not  yet  at  least.

      to be honest , he was sure about how he felt but when it came to aaron he could never really know for sure. those late nights they spent being way too close to just be friend or those times where aaron would leave to hook up with someone other than him made him feel a little a bit crazy at times but right now he was given an inch and he feels like he’d regret it if he didn’t take it. ‘ i’m slightly sure about it.’ he said with an unsure chuckle ‘ -- honestly that’s a good point but i don’t know .. i know i’ll regret saying this but i think i’d let him hurt me just so i can know if we had any real potential and if it turns out we don’t then maybe i’ll really be able to move on.’ he shrugged , though a smile appeared the moment bodhi had gotten under the blanket with him and snuggled into him. alfie pulled him in closer and let his fingers gently mess with his shirt as he listened to him intently because there was someone , ‘ oh shut the fuck up , you and i both know your the easiest person to fall in love with.’ he countered his best friend before continuing  ‘ why would you think that ? that she’s not interested ? ’ 

[ofcravings]

delusionaliisms·:

❝  i believe just having you love me is enough .  you’re most certainly my good luck charm ,  dunno what i’d been doing without you all those years .  ❞    it was more or less true too .  alfie was his good luck charm ,  his cheering always sounding out from the crowd the loudest no matter what and that if anything made him feel so incredibly loved .  to have someone support him that much ,  to have someone like alfie by his side  —  it meant the world to xander .  especially when considering the fact that alfie loved him with his whole entire heart ,  yet still continued to support him through his matches even though it wasn’t exactly safe .  xander knows plenty of other married boxers ,  some of which have spouses who are not as fond of their side job and constantly begging them to stop before it goes too far .  and xander feels so incredibly lucky that alfie isn’t like that ,  he adores this boy for sticking by him and letting him get out there ,  cheering on with bright eyes and the loudest voice .  he’s got his boy under him ,  trapped between his body and the mattress ,  strong arms now holding himself up so he doesn’t crush his husband .   brows raise and a curious hum flows .    ❝  oh ?  so you don’t want to hear about how passionate i am about you ?  ❞    teasing ,  there’s a small smirk on his lips as he ghosts his lips over alfie’s ,  just gently brushing over them before he’s trailing his lips down .  a trail of tiny kisses is led down to his neck ,  chaste kisses pressed over his skin ,  each one packed with love and adoration that he holds in his heart for this male .    ❝  is this what you mean ?  are these kisses okay ?  ❞    he’s teasing again and he breathes out an airy chuckle into his skin ,  still continuing with the light kisses all over .

there was a pout on his lip at the other’s words even though they did make his heart flutter. normally he would fight him on this but a bigger part of him was just going to let it slide and get his husband something anyways ‘ i bet you were probably mopping around. the boys at the gym told me you were all stone faced and tempered until you met me.’ he teased , ‘ i mean you still are sometimes but a lot less than back then apparently ’ he giggled at the pure thought of his husband sulking around and giving off this intense image. though if he was honest if anyone was mopping before they met the other it was alfie for sure. everyday for him was nothing he hadn’t experienced before, he’d take care of his sister , focus on school and be wary of when his dad had chosen to damn them with his appearance every once and a while. it was a miserable existence if he was honest , nothing really giving him hope of his life turning around until he all but stumbled into the love of his life. alfie smiled brightly up at his husband as he teased him, one of his hands finding its way to xander’s cheek as his lips ghosted his own. the smaller let out a whine , pout returning to his lips as he received chaste kisses over his skin ‘ you’re such a fucking tease. i want a real good kiss , c’mere.’ he continued to whine , trying to tug the other closer to his lips in a obvious sign of desperation ‘ been wanting one all day ’ he spoke softly trying to convince the other to give in.

[heartbeatens]

alfie  porter   +   aaron  baker     :     social  meda  pt.  1.

[ofcravings]

heartbeatens·:

     he  half  smiles  seeing  the  redness  in  alfie’s  cheeks  but  decides  to  leave  it  for  now.     ‘     ooo   ,   don’t  tease  me   ,   kitten.     ’     aaron  laughs    &    there  might  be  the  slightest  colour  appearing  in  his  pale  cheeks.  not  that  he’d  ever  admit  to  it.  he  ponders  the  question  about  his  siblings  for  a  while     —     his  relationships  with  his  siblings  were  ..  complicated  to  say  the  least.     ‘     with  some  of  them   ,   yeah.  not  really  my  oldest  sister.     ’     he  cringed  at  the  mere  thought  of  his  older  sister     —     olive.  she’d  always  taken  their  dad’s  side.  no  matter  the  argument.     ‘     if  she’s  a  mini  you  she’ll  be  falling  in  love  with  me  at  the  end  of  the  day   ,   isn’t  she     ?     ’     aaron  teased  with  a  little  laugh.  he  nodded  at  alfie’s  words  about  how  long  it  took  to  marie’s  school     —     feeling  his  nerves  kick  in  for  some  reason.     ‘     you  mean  the  game  that  almost  ruined  this  newfound  friendship  last  night    ?    sure    !!     ’

    seeing him having a visible effect on aaron was nice , it made him feel like he wasn’t alone in this .. whatever it was. ‘ i’m not exactly teasing you love .. you’ll see.’ he spoke nonchalantly , choosing to end the conversation there because yeah he was teasing him actually. a part of alfie wanted to ask what the deal with his older sister was but that felt like an important topic that he didn’t want to press the other on right now anyways , he decided he’ll let him tell him the major stuff when he’s ready too ‘ that’s nice , y’know having a big group of siblings even if you aren’t close with all of ‘em.’ alfie always wanted more siblings or well more older ones at least. he wondered what it would’ve been like to not have to be this responsible for majority of his childhood , he wondered what it’d be like if someone was to take care of him and make sure he was okay for once. ‘ oi ! i haven’t fallin’ in love with you. maybe fallin’ in like and that’s okay because i’m pretty sure i’m not the only one.’ he teased back , nudging the other’s shoulder gently with his own. ‘ mhm. ‘m gonna get to know ya whether you like it or not. so ,  harold ... aaron if that’s even your real name.’ he giggled as he teased him ‘ what’s somethin’ you look for in a person you might be interested in y’know datin’.’ if this question was more for self-indulgent than so be it.

[ofcravings]

heartbeatens·:

       aaron  wasn’t  exactly  sure  what  the  words   “   you’ve  got  me  now   ”   meant    &    usually  it  would  cause  a  bit  of  a  freakout  from  someone  like  him  but  now  all  he  could  think  about  was  making  the  other  feel  good.  make  him  moan.  moan  only  his  name   ,   no  one  else’s.    (    especially  matthew’s.    )    he  smiled  softly  at  the  smaller’s  words   ,   already  giving  alfie’s  neck  sloppy  kisses.     ‘     i  can  do  that.  you  know   ,     ’     he  began   ,   rubbing  alfie’s  member  through  the  fabric  of  his  pants.     ‘     i’ve  done  that  to  myself  while  thinking  of  you.     ’     it  was  true     —     he’d  had  some  dirty  thoughts  about  his  best  friend  that  later  turned  into  afternoon  delights.

       there was a breathy moan escaping his lips as sloppy kisses were placed onto his neck , his head  leaning back to rest against the others shoulder to give him more access. he wasn’t sure how long he was honestly going to last with the other saying things like that , kissing his neck and  rubbing him through his pants. it was a little embarrassing , he almost felt like he was sixteen again but it was truly just the affect aaron had on him. ‘ y-yeah ? you dream about me while you jack off often ? ’ he stuttered out , a short ‘ fuck.’ leaving his mouth as he rolled his hips upward into the other’s hand ‘ aaron i need m-more .. i need ’ he moaned out softly not really finishing his sentence but his actions were probably enough for him to get the hint  ‘ dreamt about you touching me for the longest .. t-this doesn’t feel fucking real.’

[notheartbroken]

[ofcravings]

heartbeatens·:

        the  surprise  for  sure  didn’t  hide  in  bodhi’s  facial  features  when  he  learned  that  alfie  gave  aaron  a  blowjob.  a  wry  chuckle  left  his  lips  as  he  started  tidying  up  his  floor  of  the  papers  that  covered  it.     ‘     &    that  crisis  being  that  you  gave  some  supposably  handsome  dude  a  blowjob  while  already  being  committed  to  another  handsome  dude    ?    actually  that  sounds  a  little  tough.     ’     &    he’s  laughing  again  but  hugs  his  best  friend  from  behind  the  couch.     ‘     didn’t  mean  to  laugh  mate.  but  what  are  you  gonna  do  now    ?     ’     bodhi  asks   ,   actively  avoiding  the  subject  of  his  own  problems.

       what was he going to do now ? that was a good question. it was scary that he already knew the answer to it. he was mostly scared because of how sure he was about aaron and how much he didn’t honestly care about matthew’s feeling regarding it. it wasn’t to say he didn’t completely care , but his feelings for aaron out weigh a lot of things if he’s honest. alfie laughed a little at bodhi calling his whatever he was supposedly handsome , holding his arms as they were wrapped around him from behind ‘ i’m going to break up with matt.’ he spoke confidently , ‘ its fucking risky because i’m honestly not sure what’s going to happen with him but i’ve got a good gut feelin’ bout it.’ he shrugged , looking back at the other. ‘ now come sit down actually and cuddle me proper for a moment , yeah ? i think you can spare thirty minutes from studying.’ he unwrapped  himself from bodhi’s embrace and took his hand to try and tug him around the couch. ‘ your going to come cuddle me and catch me up. tell me all about those classes you don’t have with me anymore , if anyone has caught yer’ lovely eye and which teacher’s i need ta beat up for being asshats to ya.’

[ofcravings]

delusionaliisms‌:

a warm wave of love and fondness flashes through his chest when alfie brings up the topic of their first meeting .   he remembers the feeling of captivation when he’d first laid his eyes on alfie ,  the young boy sticking out like a sore thumb from the usual crowd and xander remembers thinking how this boy doesn’t belong here .  not in a mean ,  vicious way but more as an observation if anything .  this boy doesn’t belong in a place like the dump where they organized the matches ,  his face a bit too pretty for a place like that .  he remembers stealing glances ,  emerald eyes constantly escaping to the blue eyed angel standing in a sea of people yet sticking out like there was a spotlight shining right upon him .    ❝  i did end up getting quite beaten up and bruised that match ,  all because you were too pretty not to be looked at .  still are .  and somehow i still ended up winning .  ❞    both that match and in life ,  he continues in his head .  he’s certain it doesn’t need to be said  —  alfie knows ,  he has to .  a content hum leaves his lips at the short kiss and he refrains from chasing the lips for another kiss ,  the temptation sitting heavy on his chest but he refrains in order to plan out their little date .    ❝  then we’ll take hazel n’ have a little stroll in the park with ice cream .  sounds like the perfect date to me .  ❞    the smile on his lips widens ,  dimples carved onto both cheeks like craters on the moon .  at alfie’s next words ,  he’s first nodding along but then quirking up an eyebrow ,  smile turning into a smirk and he wounds an arm around his husband tightly .    ❝  you know what else i’m passionate about ,  aside from art ?  ❞    the question is a tad suggestive but xander gives the other no time to reply as he’s grabbing alfie’s thigh with his free hand and then quickly ,  but gently ,  maneuvering them so that his husband find himself laying underneath him ,  back pressed against the mattress .  xander hovers over him ,  body fitted between his thighs and he’s mindful of the precious baby bump the whole time .    ❝  you .  ❞

alfie remembered when he was younger wanting a love that his parents never really got. he saw them fight constantly , whatever flame that had been between them died by the time he was five and it he remembers , although he never understood , that it hurt to see his mom hurt. he wanted someone to look at him with that same level of intensity and interest as they did when they were too busy trying to win the other over to care much about how ridiculously cheesy they might seem. it was a miracle that he found xander , that he worked up the courage and that the man didn’t turn him away as quickly as he appeared. crazily enough he remembered after that meeting feeling something deep in his gut telling him to hold on to this one and he’s glad he listened because here he was immersed in that exact same love he had always dreamed about. ‘ flattery will get you everywhere , fairchild.’ he spoke softly , his eyes filled with love and his smile showing the same sentiment. ‘ but i might of just been your good luck charm , don’t ya think ? i might just have to find something to give you so my good luck can still be with you when i can’t.’ he hummed in thought , if it was more of an excuse to give his husband a present  then anything else he wouldn’t admit to it. ‘ yeah ? ’ he whispered  excitedly as xander agreed to the date idea , fingers going to press gently at the dimples that he’s loved since the moment he saw them for the first time. ‘ it’s a date then.’ those simple words created butterflies in his stomach still , the simple excitement to spend even more quality time with his husband was still just as strong as it was in their newly wed phase ( he’s not too sure if they are really out of it yet even though they’ve been married for a little while now ). alfie had full intention on responding to the suggestive comment , but he was being rolled over with a totally manly giggle leaving his lips as he was plopped onto his back gently. the smaller took his bottom lip in between his teeth to keep his smile from spreading too much ‘ oh yeah ? ’ he muttered out , tugging xander down so that he could give him an eskimo kiss. the smaller fluttered his eyelashes a bit as he looked up at him ‘ you know , as much as i love hearing you talk about your passions. i think this specific passion of yours might liked to be kissed instead of talked about.’ 

[gvzel]

[hsoneandonly-blog]

[ofcravings]

delusionaliisms‌:

❝  it’s a small price to pay for the safety of you n’ our little bean .  ❞    it was true too .  there was nothing more precious to him than alfie and their baby’s safety ,  happiness and well-being .  he’d treasure and guard those things with his life if he had to and there was no way he’d ever be okay with putting the two in possible harm’s way  —  which the underground club he fought at certainly was .  the place was unpleasant in every way imaginable ,  people were loud and drunk and riling each other up ,  yet their cheers were almost like music to the fighters’ ears .  the audience pit was no place for someone pregnant ,  there were too many people and too much shoving .  having alfie in the middle of all that would’ve only fucked up xander’s match too ,  his attention focusing more on the whereabouts of his husband rather than the opponent’s next blows .    ❝  exactly .  i don’t want you in there ,  i don’t want to be constantly glancing over to see if you’re okay and not being harassed by some creep or pushed around .  ❞    it was a legitimate concern of his ,  the crowd was always filled with unpredictable people .  he pushes the images of what could happen to the back of his mind ,  instead busying himself with stroking his lover’s skin ,  fingers running up and down his back before they settle in the dip of his lower back .  palms press against the skin again ,  there’s a small but victorious smile on xander’s lips now .    ❝  i will come home right away so you can patch me up .  even if i’m bleeding .  ❞    a chuckle flows then .    ❝  —  wherever you want to go .  we can do whatever you want ,  baby .  i could take you out for dinner or we could go get ice cream n’ have a stroll in the park or … we could go see a museum .  whatever you want .  ❞    and he means it too .

 alfie continued to mess with his lover’s hair as he listened to him speak , biting the inside of his cheek as he focused. it wasn’t until he spoke about glancing over at him to make sure he was okay did he think of the irony of it all because him doing just that was the reason they first met in all honesty. ‘ oh ? it’s crazy how the tables have turned yeah ? if i remember correctly you looking over at me every chance you got during a match was sort of the reason we met for the first time if you think about it ’ a smiled appeared on his thin lips as his mind played through the awkwardness of his nineteen year old self going up to his now husband ‘ but now , i guess i really shouldn’t go because i also remember the other guy getting some good hits in because you were so distracted. i love being able to patch you up but i want you conscious when you come back to me.’ he spoke , pressing a kiss onto his husband’s forehead before reconnecting his own to the spot and moving in to press another kiss onto his lips. ‘ good. you know if i find out someone else is patching you up and giving you kisses like i do when i apply pressure to the nasty cuts then i’m going to go up there and give them a piece of my mind whether you like it or not.’ he teased although there might be a slight bit of truth behind it. ‘ where ever i want to go ? hm , i think a walk in park with some ice cream could be nice. we could bring hazel with us and make it like a family trip.’ he smiled at the mere thought of the little trip they’d go on. ‘ we haven’t done something like that in a while , so i think it’d be nice and i’m sure our little one would like it too.’ he added , moving his hands out of his lover’s hair and onto his cheeks so he could rub the skin under his hands with his thumb. ‘ and then for our next night out i’d say we go to a museum and you can tell me all about your favorite pieces. i think it’s sexy when you talk about art and things your passionate about.’ he spoke , attempting to wiggle his eyebrows at his husband for added effect.

[ofcravings]

heartbeatens‌:

          ugh   ,   he  was  really  hoping  the  other  wouldn’t  take  up  the  offer  to  speak  about  their  feelings  because  now  he  felt  like  he  needed  to  do  it  as  well.  of  course   ,   there  wasn’t  anything  wrong  with  what  alfie  was  saying  ..  it  was  quite  nice  actually     —     knowing  that  his  butterflies  matched  his  own.     ‘     alfie  i   ,  ..     ’     he  began   ,   stopping  in  his  tracks  to  get  a  good  look  at  the  younger.     ‘     in  the  spirit  of  us  getting  to  know  each  other   ,   you  should  know  i’m  not  good  with  words.  so  ..     ’     maybe  it  wasn’t  the  smartest  idea  right  now  but  aaron  is  still  going  to  lean  in    &    press  his  lips  against  alfie’s.  yeah   ,   this  definitely  wasn’t  the  best  idea  but  it  felt  good.  it  was  a  quick  kiss  but  aaron  was  hoping  it  said  something  he  couldn’t.     ‘     oh  you’re  right  about  that  kitten   ,   i’d  probably  explode  seeing  you  all  dressed  up  as  a  stripper.     ’    he  agreed    &    started  walking  along  beside  him  again.  the  comment  about  alfie’s  dad  put  a  frown  on  his  face     —     it  was  something  he  was  very  familiar  with.     ‘     oh    ?    that’s  very  nice  of  you  to  take  care  of  her  the  way  you  do.  i  get  that.  got  three  siblings  of  my  own.     ’     alfie  wanting  aaron  to  actually  meet  a  person  of  his  family  was  a  little  overwhelming  but   ,   despite  his  view  on  kids  it  was  something  he  wanted  to  do.  or  maybe  he  just  wanted  to  spend  more  time  with  alfie.     ‘     i  can’t  promise  she’ll  like  me  but  ..  i’d  love  to  go  with  you.     ’

        to be honest he wasn’t expecting much of a response from the other regarding all of the emotions he just dumped out for aaron to navigate  , but the kiss was nice. the kiss despite the other’s lack of words felt like a we can try and that truly was enough for him right now. after receiving his second kiss ever the blush on his cheeks became more prominent , though he tried not to put too much thought into why he constantly felt like this whenever aaron did the slightest thing. ‘ keep me around long enough and maybe you’ll get that chance to see me all dressed up or dressed down rather , i’d quite like to see your reaction.’ he giggled at the thought , maybe he just wanted to see the other blush because of him for once. the smaller perked up a little when the other said he had siblings of his own ‘ three ? that’s quite a lot , yeah ? are you guys close at all. ’ he questioned out of mere curiosity. alfie was more prepared for rejection of his invitation rather than the other saying he’d love to come with him , it was probably evident on his face but he was quick to pull himself together and reply. ‘ i wouldn’t say she’s not going to like you , she’s practically a mini me so if i approve you’ve got a good chance of winning her over.’ he spoke continuing to walk with his hand locked with aaron’s , ‘ plus you’ve got those curls and the dimples , it’s like you one the lottery or somethin’.’ he added with a gentle smile , feeling the sadness he was engulfed in start to wash away ‘ it’s uh , only a five minute walk from here. i always leave class at least ten minutes early so i can get a head start.’ he spoke with a shrug of his shoulders following shortly after. ‘ do you want to continue that question game we were playing earlier until we get there ? you know like you said in the spirit of getting to know each other ? ’ 

[ofcravings]

heartbeatens·:

       hearing  the  other  say  it  was  okay  was  all  aaron  needed  to  finally  reach  his  climax.  with  a  loud  moan  he  spilled  his  load  into  alfie’s  mouth    &    waited  a  few  seconds  before  actually  being  able  to  speak.    ‘    you  know   ,   i’m  really  beating  myself  up  right  now  for  not  doing  this  sooner  with  you.    ’    he  smirked   ,   moving  closer  to  alfie  to  give  him  a  quick  kiss.  everything  felt  right  in  the  world  right  now   ,    &    aaron  was  hoping    —    praying  that  nothing  would  ruin  this.  his  hues  drifted  from  alfie’s  face  to  his  crotch.  with  the  smirk  still  plastered  on  his  face   ,   he  moved  one  of  his  hand  to  his  crotch    &    pressed  their  lips  together  again.    ‘    i’ve  never  done  this  before  ..  you  know    —    sucked  a  guy’s  dick.  have  wished  i  could  done  it  to  myself  though.    ’    aaron  laughs    &    kisses  alfie  again.  he  wanted  to  do  this   ,   wanted  to  make  the  other  feel  as  good  as  he  did.

        after alfie swallowed , he licked his lips before being brought up to be greet with a sweet kiss from aaron. he still feels a little dazed , his mind not completely processing the current events. despite all of that the smaller felt completely content doing this with his best friend turned um , he wasn’t sure what they were yet but hopefully he’d get a chance to figure that out in the next few days. alfie bit the inside of his cheek as he listened to the other’s slow drawl leave his lips ‘ hm. we could’ve done this a while ago sure , but you know it shouldn’t really matter .. because you’ve got me now.’ he spoke softly , his voice a little wrecked because of his previous actions. ‘ you know we could build you up to that but right now you could just , uh ’ he started before parting the other’s long legs so he could sit between them ,  his back pressed against aaron’s chest. ‘ if you wanted ,’ he started slowly , taking the other’s hand and intertwining it with his own ‘ you could give me hand job and kiss my neck a little ? i’m not going to last long anyways.’ 

[ofcravings]

delusionaliisms·:

the tears induced by the hormones causing ruckus inside alfie were something xander would never get used to as the mere sight of his lover crying was enough to have alarm bells going off in his chest .  he coos a little ,  reaching over to press the sweetest kiss onto the corner of his mouth and he gives the hand he’s holding a small ,  comforting squeeze .    ❝  y’know … you shouldn’t hide your symptoms from me ,  i want to know what’s up .  especially when you’re at work .  ❞    another kiss is pressed to the back of alfie’s hand before he’s releasing his grip from it and turning back towards the steering wheel .  the engine is started and soon xander is reversing out of the parking space and then rolling off the parking lot itself ,  beginning their way back home .    ❝  we’ll be cuddling in no time ,  my love .  just gotta be patient .  ❞    he hums as he’s driving ,  occasionally stealing glances at his husband and then reaching over to rest a hand on his thigh when he can .    ❝  the baby wants oreos ,  huh ?  ❞    a chuckle slips from his lips ,  voice fond and teasing .    ❝  we can add the oreos into the mix .  d’you want to watch a movie too or nap ?  ❞

the unexpected crying hadn’t been something he’s quite gotten used to yet , it seemed as though any minor inconvenience in his life or loving words from xander made the water works appear. though getting the sweetest kiss pressed to the side of his mouth may have soothed those unruly tears for now , but a small whine took it’s place as it escaped his lips because he wanted to actually be kissed ( who could blame him it’s been a whole five hours since he’s seen his husband ). ‘ yeah i know ‘s just that i don’t want you to worry over something minor. don’t want to put that stress on you.’ he mumbled , letting his head rest back against his seat and if he was guilty of closing his eyes for a moment or two then so be it. ‘ patient , please. i’m the most patient person you’ve ever met.’ he mumbled , trying to convince himself that he was not tired because he wasn’t and he'd rather stay up and hang out with xander than sleep anyways. ‘ mhm , he told me himself. he said dad i need processed chocolate and frosting and who am i to disagree with what our little tarzan needs ? ’ he giggled a little at the ridiculous nature of his statement ‘ i’d say nap but i’d really like to stay up and talk with you. i really did mean it when i said i missed you , you know ? even though it’s only been what ? five hours ? it feels like an eternity.’ he sighed dramatically , opening his eyes just a tad to focus husband.