Boulevard of broken dreams @offforeva - Tumblr Blog

Choice, preference, care, self-respect

All of me and none for thee

BMO always bounces back

No thoughts, no preferences, no feelings, no needs, no wants

That's me

I often think about my last wish.

Not about what it'll be.

Just

Whether I'll still have one.

Whether life will just continue to take and take.

Until even wanting

Gives up on me.

I wonder

If I'll open my mouth

To ask for one last thing

And find the words

Already rotting in my throat

Like they've been dead

For much longer

Than I have.

I often think about my last wish.

Not about what it'll be.

Just

Whether I'll still have one.

Whether life will just continue to take and take.

Until even wanting

Gives up on me.

A world without me sounds more peaceful you know?

At least I won't be constantly disappointing everyone around me

I always mess things up

Nobody really likes me

I'm not good enough

I ruin everything

I don't deserve good things

I'm difficult to trust

I'm difficult to love

Just gotta love it when someone complains about something

You try to help, and they most likely understand it but choose to take it as a personal attack

So exhausted and burnt out from this thing called life

they should invent a brain that doesn't whisper bad things to you.

My greatest fantasy is the paralysis of my heart, not for it to stop beating, but for it to stop feeling

Boulevard of broken dreams