Off my chest, things on my mind.

I know you can see this, So I hope it makes a difference in your life. 

[offmychestfinally]

I’m not moving on

While I will let you be 

If you call, I’ll answer

I think about you even when I try not to

I’ll keep my distance

Waiting for something I know deep down

Is never going to come true

All because I made you a promise

A promise I would love you more

A promise I would love you to the end

That’s a promise I’ll never break.

-Me

[offmychestfinally]

Being a good person is a choice I make every day, leading with integrity, kindness, and respect for the people around me. Taking care of others, showing up when it matters, and doing the right thing even when it’s hard has shaped who I am and how I move through the world we are currently inhabiting.

That said, there are moments when you have to be ruthless in your focus and a lion in your conviction. Standing your ground, protecting what you’ve built, and making hard decisions is part of growth. The key is doing it ethically, never losing your values, never cutting corners, and always being able to look in the mirror proud of your choices.

Success has a way of finding those who move with both heart and strength. I’m grateful for everyone who stood by me, challenged me, and molded me into who I am today. Every lesson, every ounce of support, and every tough conversation helped shape this path, and I carry that with pride as I fly above the clouds these days.

[calellon]

[bhloomest]

[iamwizzzzz]

[444her]

Abundance

[offmychestfinally]

I typed a text this morning... but I never minded it.

[film-psycho]

Scarface (1983) dir. Brian De Palma

[offmychestfinally]

Remember... I DON'T LOSE! I always win in the end.

[z-ndjenja]

[birintiharmelegi-deactivated202]

[offmychestfinally]

You and I chatted for a bit last night. Every time I see the name I put for you on my phone, my stomach drops and my heart rate increases. It kills me seeing how far you have fallen. The girl who had everything in front of her had happiness in her heart, and now sits in a home she feels unloved in, misunderstood, and mentally beaten down for just being who she is at her core.

I wanted to tell you this, I wanted you to know I see the brightness that was you has dimmed so much, but I know it's still there, just needs the right place, the right circumstances, and the right support. The littlest things in the world like just getting your hair done, you said it's been almost a year since you did that, I know its not my place to do it anymore, but yes I wanted to tell you just go fucking do it, I know how it makes you feel and unfortunately how rare it probably is these days since a smile is on that face that I would take care of it like I always did. Money is easy to come by; happiness is not. This morning, the hurt is gone for now, but there will come a day when all of this pain that feels endless, the nights that feel endless, I tried to fix it, I tried to take the pain away from you. Maybe one day you will be able to say it too... the hurt is gone for now.

[meanwhilepoetry]

[offmychestfinally]

We can both be angry

Hate you and you hate me

We can play that game

And stay the same

But what if we don't have to choose?

What if no one has to lose?

I hope you meet somebody who

Loves you like you wanted me to

We don't have to make our heartbreak harder

You ain't gotta make your mama hate me

I ain't gotta be a martyr

I don't need a new girl to save me

We can still have the same friends

Sit at the same bar

I just want you to be happy and hope you are

Baby you and me never were right

But we dont have to be on different sides

So, what if we just told the truth?

Goodbye looks good on you

It looks good on me too.

[offmychestfinally]

What was once our fav place ended up being my favorite place. I think about her every time I come back but I don’t let the memory ruin what is an amazing escape.

[offmychestfinally]

Have you ever thought that remembering the little things about someone that mattered most back then are now the things that hurt the most when you think about them? Remembering their favorite song when they are upset, how they looked in the passenger seat as they got lost in that song and sang at the top of their lungs. What about how they would look at your dog as she lay in their lap, and they no longer get that feeling of home?

How they would only get a certain drink on a certain day of the year to commemorate the death of their best friend, and you understood, as horrendous as that drink tastes, why they drink it and why you would join them so they didn't feel alone?

Those are the memories that suck.

[offmychestfinally]

I stick around ‘cause it’s familiar

But I’m just scrolling through pictures

Never thought that this bed could get bigger

It’s not the same

You don’t ask and I never say it

I got so good at faking it

What’s the straw to finally break it?

We say I love you, but it doesn't sound the same

We’re caught in a wreck

And I made the mess

Staring in the mirror like I got two heads

‘Part of me saying we're not supposed end

I could keep pretending but it ain't the truth

Cause I’ve been lying next to you.

Let me in, what are you thinking?

I hate to see you hurt

So I deny that something is missing

And say I love you but that only makes it worse

What’d I expect?

Nevertheless, I’m

Staring in the mirror like I got two heads

‘Part of me saying we're not supposed end

I could keep pretending but it ain't the truth

Cause I’ve been lying next to you

Is it a phase?

Or am I just crazy thinking that things might change?

Are we just doing the same damn thing?

Yea I got my secrets and they’re hard to keep

Cause you keep lying next to me

Would it make a difference if I told the truth?

Would we still be strangers in this room?

Would I still be lying next to you

[danger]

[offmychestfinally]

I wanna call you and tell you, "Come over"

Get drunk and tell you what I think when I'm sober

Bring up a memory you forgot you remembered

June 2019, duck egg mashed potatoes

Don't hang up

Give me a second to explain myself

I learned my lesson through a whiskey bar hell

Just give me a second, babe

You don't owe me shit

But you know my secrets, and it's 3 a.m.

And I know you're not sleeping, but you're still all that I got

And I know we blew our first real shot

But could you give me a second?

Don't know what you have

Until it slips through your fingers

But I knew what we had

So where does that leave us?

I said things I said I didn't mean

Like I took it all back

I was losing you right in front of me

But when packed your bags

Girl, I was blinded by the good times

And the way I made you laugh, that night we had those chocolate pretzels

The way you laughed till you cried

And I hope I can change your mind

Because I can't change the past, baby

Don't hang up

Give me a second to explain myself

I learned my lesson through a whiskey bar hell

Just give me a second, babe

And, no, you don't owe me shit

But you know my secrets, and it's 3 a.m.

And I know you're never sleeping, but you're still all that I got

And I know we blew our first true shot

But could you give me a second?

Could you give us a second?