I’m a creative who’s always building something—ideas, systems, stories, little worlds. work in design & creative, write, and i’ve always been drawn to the unseen layer under everything: the symbolism, the timing. this blog is where i put the things i’d tell a friend if we were up late talking: tarot/astro/esoteric thoughts, asks, creative talks, and the occasional reality check when the internet gets weird.
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hey blonn ı really kinda love you. I wanna ask you a question with all my respect. ı dont wanna look like a person who is coming your page and ask stupid things and bother you. Sometimes, maybe you reflect things from your personal life in your reading? I've heard that's possible. Maybe your mood after a recent things(friendzoned, feeling depressed...) are affecting your reading. maybe you've identified yourself with ☀️.?
Hello ✨ thank you so much for writing and asking this in such a kind and light way.
Actually this happens, yes, and this is why I’ve told people to take some personal distance of the things you ask.
In this case is a no for me, because I’ve read about this happening since December and back then my life was pretty different— something that happens on my end is that I’m autistic and have adhd. I can detach quickly, and in this case if you see me in person you wouldn’t notice even when I’m having the worst day ever. I’ve become the worldwide champion in masking… and I know this is not something to brag about, but is how I regulate.
It’s not that I don’t feel, but that I file it away when is conveniente FOR ME to manage my feelings. When I finally say it to other people, then congrats because that means I trust them a lot with my feelings, insecurities and fears to allow me to become vulnerable— you are someone that I categorize as “close”. And it’s pretty rare when I do this… so if I do, know that it happens with very veeery few people.
What affected me the night before yesterday was about His (☀️) emotional state, because mine was perfect. It had been a pretty relaxed and nice weekend. And I was calm about me liking my Ari and the whole situation even if it’s “unresolved” at the moment… in fact I was feeling like a happy longing.
And then what happened to me on Monday is part of what I think a pretty normal stage of infatuation/crushing/falling: uncertainty. Most of the times when we don’t know the inner world of the other person is when we spiral... and I’m spiraling about it because I was too happy, actually. And then you know something or the other person says something and then everything is new and I didn’t know how to take a piece of information. So I go from the highest highs and lowest lows because it’s normal.
BUT I repeat, this recent events is something i had already read. And even ☀️ putting one last ice wall because of some misunderstandings / delayed decisions.
Honestly I just see that a lot of readers are fed up with the constant comparisons and ppl asking to explain someone else’s reading. And people who are asking for these readings are causing tension with who to trust or not trust! I don’t think that’s appropriate :/ you have every right to express your frustration im sorry people are coming at you negatively!
Please don’t sent my readings to other readers.
It creates negativity and some sense of an imaginary race against each other. It does t add anything productive… we should keep it positive between each other.
And that’s me being 100% honest and sincere.
If you don’t like how I interpret or what I write, for your mental health unfollow me and go follow a better suited tarot reader. I swear I will understand, but don’t stay here reading me if it feeds any masochistic anxiety. Please, would be better for everyone.
hey blonn ı really kinda love you. I wanna ask you a question with all my respect. ı dont wanna look like a person who is coming your page and ask stupid things and bother you. Sometimes, maybe you reflect things from your personal life in your reading? I've heard that's possible. Maybe your mood after a recent things(friendzoned, feeling depressed...) are affecting your reading. maybe you've identified yourself with ☀️.?
Hello ✨ thank you so much for writing and asking this in such a kind and light way.
Actually this happens, yes, and this is why I’ve told people to take some personal distance of the things you ask.
In this case is a no for me, because I’ve read about this happening since December and back then my life was pretty different— something that happens on my end is that I’m autistic and have adhd. I can detach quickly, and in this case if you see me in person you wouldn’t notice even when I’m having the worst day ever. I’ve become the worldwide champion in masking… and I know this is not something to brag about, but is how I regulate.
It’s not that I don’t feel, but that I file it away when is conveniente FOR ME to manage my feelings. When I finally say it to other people, then congrats because that means I trust them a lot with my feelings, insecurities and fears to allow me to become vulnerable— you are someone that I categorize as “close”. And it’s pretty rare when I do this… so if I do, know that it happens with very veeery few people.
What affected me the night before yesterday was about His (☀️) emotional state, because mine was perfect. It had been a pretty relaxed and nice weekend. And I was calm about me liking my Ari and the whole situation even if it’s “unresolved” at the moment… in fact I was feeling like a happy longing.
And then what happened to me on Monday is part of what I think a pretty normal stage of infatuation/crushing/falling: uncertainty. Most of the times when we don’t know the inner world of the other person is when we spiral... and I’m spiraling about it because I was too happy, actually. And then you know something or the other person says something and then everything is new and I didn’t know how to take a piece of information. So I go from the highest highs and lowest lows because it’s normal.
BUT I repeat, this recent events is something i had already read. And even ☀️ putting one last ice wall because of some misunderstandings / delayed decisions.
There's an anon ask mentioning the 'timeline' and how people are reacting at the moment towards one of the boys in particular.
And while I thank you for writing I'm going to be extremely clear:
I wont post anything that keeps on disseminating toxicity, discrimination, hate speech, judgemental opinions and ignorance of people who lacks common sense.
I can still read your anons If you want to keep sending them with this type of content, but I won't publish them. If you see fit or want me to read it, okay, but please don't expect me replying it publicly.
Hi blonn - wanted to let you know I saw some pics posted by 🍁 makeup person of all of the peeps at the event last night. Your reading was spot on that it would be something to cause people to leave or be discouraged. I am always amazed by the detail of your readings and how spot on you are. Please take good care of yourself and thank you for sharing these and dealing with the insanity that comes at times. 💗
You people think about other people’s lives, circumstances, decisions and feelings as you would deal with it.
That’s such a narrow perspective on how life actually is outside yourself and your very unique circumstances. Really, empathy and common sense are going extinct.
There's an anon ask mentioning the 'timeline' and how people are reacting at the moment towards one of the boys in particular.
And while I thank you for writing I'm going to be extremely clear:
I wont post anything that keeps on disseminating toxicity, discrimination, hate speech, judgemental opinions and ignorance of people who lacks common sense.
I can still read your anons If you want to keep sending them with this type of content, but I won't publish them. If you see fit or want me to read it, okay, but please don't expect me replying it publicly.
Hi Blonn... Thank you for the latest reading. But can I ask if you have time to make a reading of 🍁 feeling of that night? After he received that award or after he make that speech?
Thank you for sharing you time and energy.
Hello there! Thank you for writing and asking so kindly.
I think there was what he felt in the reading I did for last night. I’m sorry if I disappoint you but I think it’s a little pointless doing another, because I already had it in that one. However let me share the link below:
💬 28 🔁 12 ❤️ 337 · No one can take me out of this mess🏆✨ · 6 of Wands + 9 of Pentacles + The World = public win, personal accomplishment,
I think I need a minute, to figure out what is, what isn’t ⏳
What was happening on ☀️’s side of the story last night— not the headlines, not the clips, not what people want to project — but what it probably feels like to be absent while 🍁 is up there holding an award, thanking “the one who doesn’t want to be perceived” in this oddly dry, careful tone… and then turning around and talking about ☀️ like the warmth accidentally slips out of him. So I asked the cards, straight up: what is ☀️ sitting with in the aftermath — his connection to 🍁, the emotional breakdown of hearing that speech, how it lands in his body and his pride, and what it does to him knowing 🍁 is balancing two lives in public while ☀️ is basically forced to exist in the “not there” space. I’m reading this one in order, like a timeline of what he clocked, what he swallowed, what he refused to say, and what he’s privately asking himself now that the night is over and the uncertainty is starting to feel less romantic and more exhausting.
1) 8 of wands → Ace of Cups → Temperance
This starts with speed + feelings + restraint.
☀️ feels like something about last night moved fast — not necessarily “a huge announcement,” but that vibe of news traveling at light speed, either through social media, mutuals, a clip, a quote, a photo, or just that gut feeling of “oh, it happened.” And the Ace of cups right after? That’s the part people underestimate: the love/softness is still there. Even if ☀️ is quiet, even if he’s acting like he’s fine, there’s still a tender place in him that reacts to 🍁 like a bruise reacts to pressure.
But then Temperance comes in like a lid on the pot. This is ☀️ consciously regulating: “I’m not going to embarrass myself. I’m not going to explode. I’m not going to give anyone a clean screenshot.” It’s him trying to keep his emotions from spilling into the wrong room.
Translation: “I feel it. I’m not showing it.”
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2) 10 of swords → King of cups → 6 of cups → 5 of swords
Here’s where it gets painfully real.
10 of swords is the moment where ☀️ looks at the whole situation and thinks, “This is the part that always kills me.” Not necessarily “the end,” but that sharp, humiliating sting of not being chosen publicly, not being present, being the warm mention from far away.
Then King of cups is literally ☀️ trying to be the adult about it: composed face, controlled voice, no messy posting, no impulsive reply. It’s pride, self-respect, and emotional discipline.
But 6 of cups makes it clear why it hurts: there’s real history/softness there. This isn’t a random crush. This is the card that says, “I know who you are to me. And you know who I am to you.”
And then 5 of swords is the bitterness creeping in — not even necessarily at 🍁 as a person, but at the game around him. This is ☀️ thinking:
• “Why does it always have to be like this?”
• “Why do I have to swallow my dignity to keep the peace?”
• “Why does everyone else get to stand next to him except me?”
This is where ☀️ can start feeling like the connection keeps costing him something, even when he’s trying to be noble about it.
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3) The moon → King of swords → Queen of swords → Queen of cups → 7 of cups → Judgement → The world
This whole row is the big red flag of:
uncertainty → boundaries → deep emotion → spiraling scenarios → wake-up call → closing a cycle
The moon is the fog: ☀️ doesn’t fully know what’s real and what’s performance. He doesn’t know what’s being said behind closed doors. He doesn’t know if 🍁 is happy, trapped, performing, appeasing, or genuinely trying to juggle two worlds without dropping either. The Moon is literally “I can’t trust what I’m seeing, but I still have to react to it.”
Then king of swords + queen of swords is the emotional shutdown turning into logic. This is ☀️ putting up mental walls and going: “Okay. Facts. Patterns. Consequences.” It’s self-protection through detachment. It can also show him talking to himself like a lawyer: “What is the actual reality here? What does this mean long-term?”
But then queen of cups shows the truth: even when ☀️ tries to be cold, he’s not. He’s deeply feeling. He just hides it well.
And then — 7 of cups: ☀️ looking at different scenarios and asking himself how long he can hang inside uncertainty. This is the mental slideshow:
• “Does he actually want me or just the idea?”
• “Is she permanent or temporary?”
• “Am I being kept as the soft place to land while someone else gets the seat next to him?”
• “Is this ever going to become simple?”
Then Judgement hits: a realization. A threshold moment. The energy of: “I can’t keep pretending this doesn’t affect me.” It’s not necessarily a breakup energy from ☀️, but it is a decision point in his heart. A line being drawn internally.
And The world as the last card of that row is huge: it’s the emotional posture of closing something so it doesn’t keep bleeding. It can read like: “I’m not going to keep living inside an unfinished story.” Sometimes The World isn’t “it’s over forever,” sometimes it’s “I’m changing how I participate.”
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4) T he high priestess → The tower → 10 of cups → The devil → 3 of cups → The emperor → 7 of swords
This is the row that tells us what last night did to ☀️ internally:
secrecy → shock → longing for the real thing → attachment → triangle fatigue → power dynamics → hiding/withholding
The high priestess is ☀️ keeping it private. Not talking. Watching. Feeling everything internally but not giving anyone the satisfaction of seeing him crack.
Then The tower is the hit: something about tonight triggers him. It could be a clip, a speech, a mention, the way 🍁 thanked her vs the way he spoke about ☀️, the way the room felt, the way the story is being staged — whatever it is, it lands like a punch.
10 of cups is what ☀️ actually wants. Not drama. Not “maybe.” Not crumbs. He wants the real alignment. The “we’re good and we’re together and it makes sense” version.
Then The devil is the painful part: even if ☀️ wants to detach, he’s attached. That bond has gravity. Devil isn’t always toxic — sometimes it’s obsession, longing, magnetism, the inability to stop caring.
And 3 of cups is the triangle card in the most literal way here.
This is exactly the inner energy: ☀️ is tired.
It’s not cute anymore.
It’s not “mysterious.”
It’s exhausting.
The emperor adds that “two lives” structure: rules, image, control, hierarchy. Somebody is trying to run this like a controlled system. And 7 of swords right after is the part where ☀️ starts feeling like the truth is being handled sideways — like there are half-moves, omissions, strategic silences. It’s not that ☀️ thinks 🍁 is evil; it’s more like: “This situation makes liars out of everyone.”
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5) Page of Swords + 7 of wands (bottom of the deck)
Page of Swords is ☀️ watching. Checking. Pretending he’s not, but he is. Reading the room through a screen.
Siete de Bastos is ☀️ protecting himself. Defending his position internally. Trying not to get pushed out of the story by other voices, other people, other narratives.
This is where ☀️ can look calm externally but feel like he’s fighting for his dignity on the inside.
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These choices and voices, they’re all in my head— sometimes you make me feel like crazy 🆘
I can pull ☀️’s reaction to 🍁’s speech out of this spread, because the whole thing is basically “I watched it, I felt it, I swallowed it, and I’m trying not to lose my mind.”
The way I read it is:
When 🍁 called her “the one who doesn’t want to be perceived” and even used “partner,” I don’t think ☀️ felt jealousy first — by the cards he felt that weird, cold click of reality. Like High Priestess / Moon / 7 of Swords energy: oh, so we’re still doing the hidden-life language… we’re still doing coded wording… we’re still doing “I’m acknowledging you but keeping you half-invisible.” And the dryness in the tone is exactly why 10 of Swords + Tower shows up in my mind as the internal reaction: not because “it’s over,” but because it stings in that humiliating way where you can feel the structure of someone’s life while you’re standing outside of it. It’s the moment where ☀️’s brain goes: this is what he’s choosing to maintain. This is the container he’s staying in. He’s still hanging on for dear life to this concept of stability. And that hits like a brick even if ☀️ tries to be calm about it.
But then… the second 🍁 mentioned ☀️, and the warmth came out? That’s where the spread flips into Ace of Cups + King of Cups + 6 of Cups — and it’s almost worse, emotionally, because it confirms something at the exact same time it breaks your composure. The vibe is: he can’t fake it when he talks about me. It’s not “polite.” It’s not “PR-friendly.” It’s soft. It’s the kind of tone that betrays the truth before the words even finish leaving his mouth. And that’s why ☀️ feels bittersweet instead of satisfied: because hearing that warmth doesn’t magically fix the situation— it just proves the bond is real while the setup is still messy.
So if I’m writing it plainly, the spread makes ☀️’s emotional sequence look like this:
• First half of the speech (the one who doesn’t want to be perceived/partner): “Oh. So we’re still doing that.” (Moon/High Priestess) + a private hit to the chest (10 of Swords/Tower) + immediate self-control (Temperance).
• Second half (🍁 saying ☀️’s name warmly and dedicating half of the award to him): relief + recognition + heart-reactivation (Ace of Cups/6 of Cups)… followed by that sharp edge of, “if you feel like this, then why is everything still built like this?” (5 of Swords / 7 of Cups / 3 of Cups energy).
Note: Remember to take all of this with a grain of salt. I might be wrong. This is for fun and creative writing purposes only. I'm not making promises of absolutes. If this doesn't satisfy your ideals, wants, likes or expectations please don't shoot the messenger and also don't come to my ask box to treat me as a punching bag. Be assertive and have common sense. I'm not sharing this to convince anyone.
Heyaaa blonn 🤠 . I was just thinking about Hudson and Connor and how they are so lucky to find each other. I have never seen such an amazing bond and chemistry 😍. It's a blessing. It's divine timing in my opinion.
I know these months the fans are worried, upset and maybe even angry.
I just want to wish to all of you to experience the same bond, to be more optimistic and to believe in the Universe 🥰.
I struggle deeply in my own personal life and I know I would have liked to read such encouraging message in my most difficult days, that's why I wanted to share it. Just wanted to spread optimism 💖.
Hola Blonn, espero que todo esté saliendo bien en tu vida. Quería preguntarte algo: creo recordar que en algún comentario (no estoy segura) comentaste que se daría un arco de celos de H hacia C y que en el eventual caso de que se C saliera con alguien más, H trataría de entrometerse. Es este el momento?
Is it okay for me to ask how is 🌞 feeling about today or about this situation?Please I would really like your reading on his feelings on the matter.
I don't want to sound demanding after how some people behaved today.So pretty please if you have time could you please shed some light on 🌞.
Hello there ✨ actually I just arrived where I’m living after spending the weekend at my brother’s and there’s no electricity because of heavy storms.
BUT let me drink some water and will do one for sunshine. Only the picture will be *romantic style* because of the candles I had to light on my table haha.
6 of Wands + 9 of Pentacles + The World = public win, personal accomplishment, big visibility. This is a “he earned it” moment. It’s not just “yay trophy,” it’s validation, status, career momentum, and people watching him like he’s the guy.
But then the spread immediately complicates it with:
2 of Pentacles + The Tower + 3 of Swords + 5 of Cups = juggling + the mask cracking + emotional damage + regret.
So the vibe is: he’s onstage collecting a win, but internally he’s balancing two realities and it’s not sustainable.
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What it says about the one who doesn’t want to be perceived being there
2 of Pentacles is the clearest “I’m managing this” card. It’s not romantic devotion, it’s administration. It’s “I know what’s expected, I’ll do it, I’ll keep it steady.”
Then 9 of Pentacles next to it adds: he’s still trying to be his own person.
That’s the “I’m self-contained, I’m fine, I’m independent” energy — which is exactly the kind of energy that can make gratitude sound… dry. Not because he hates her, but because he’s performing stability more than feeling it.
And The High Priestess sitting off to the side is basically: there are things he can’t say out loud.
So with her there, he stays “proper.” Measured. Controlled. He doesn’t risk saying anything that opens the wrong door.
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The sun was not shinning
3 of Pentacles = the real partnership / the real support / “this person matters in my working world and my life.”
It’s not even framed as romance first — it’s framed as “this person is part of what I’m building.” That’s why the warmth comes out naturally. He’s not thanking ☀️ like a polite checkbox; he’s acknowledging someone who feels integrated.
But then 3 of Swords sitting in the spread makes it bittersweet:
That warmth is coming from a place of hurt + separation + a thing that can’t be what he wants it to be in public. It’s the kind of card that shows up when someone is speaking from the heart and immediately feeling the sting of reality right after.
And 5 of Cups doubles down: regret / “this isn’t how I wanted this to go” / focusing on what’s missing.
So yes: he wins the award, but emotionally it’s giving “I wish someone else was here” or “I wish this night looked different.”
That’s why his tone shifts. Because when he says ☀️, he’s not just doing PR — he’s touching the part of the story that actually feels real to him.
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What The Tower is doing here
The Tower in this exact scenario reads like: the structure is shaking.
Not necessarily “everything explodes tomorrow,” but:
- something about this night (the speech, the mention, the clips, the reaction) creates consequences
- the “safe, stable narrative” he’s trying to keep takes damage
- something private gets triggered: a realization, a fight, a hard talk, or a “we can’t keep doing this the same way” feeling
Tower + World together can also be: a moment goes global. Like the internet noticing the contrast (dry gratitude vs warm effusiveness) and turning it into a storyline whether he wants it or not.
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So what’s the actual “meaning” of the bittersweet tone?
The cards are basically saying:
- Professionally: he’s winning, he’s visible, he’s in a peak moment (6W/9P/World)
- Personally: he’s juggling two “roles,” and one of them is starting to crack (2P + Tower)
- Emotionally: the real softness is tied to someone who’s not present but it comes with pain and absence (3P + 3S + 5C)
- Privately: there’s a lot he’s not allowed to say, and he’s guarding it (High Priestess)
So yes — it’s bittersweet because it’s a victory night that also highlights what’s wrong or what’s missing.
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“Real world” predictions If we’re reading it like a timeline ripple from that moment:
- People clip that speech / that contrast and discourse spikes (World + Tower).
-He goes quieter right after (protective, selective, doesn’t over-explain) (High Priestess + 9P).
- There’s private tension (either with the one who doesn’t want to be perceived or his circle) because the warmth toward ☀️ was too obvious (3S + Tower).
- He leans harder into work/legacy mode to steady himself (3P + 9P + 6W) — like “keep moving, keep building, don’t fall apart.”—— this last one matches my reading from Feb - late April on the king of pentacles part.
blonn, you need to stop being so good at this!!! if he couldn’t be any louder about being stable and comfortable… you were right on the money. it’s ok to take a risk 🍁!! guess we will see what happens now 👀
Thank you so much for such nice words ✨
But don’t mind me so much, I might be wrong… after all I’m just some presumptuous rando that only reads tarot. According to a self-righteous casual snoop that doesn’t even follow me, but well, better take with a grain of salt what I say… I might be wrong and maybe I’m never right.
Or maybe I am.
You guys are the ones to judge.
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