help i'm stuck here

24f/MDNI/bi

[okaywhatthefrick]

i had to delete my old blog :c we were probably mutuals if i follow you out of the blue!

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i think it’s different now

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weeeeeeiiiiird cramps and pains. i caaaant help but feel like my organs are gonna explode

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and like peace and love i can get better i can get sooo much better and i can be healthy and happy but i think certain things will always be way harder for me than they should and that devastates me a little . need to remember that my brain is stretchier than i think it is

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im not stable or mature or healthy. i think i require interaction in order to grow but my instinct is so say that im banned from interaction until i can be fucking normal

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everything’s making me so emotional and then i can’t stop crying

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GOD im hungry because ive been up so long and haven’t eaten but anything i eat will hurt my tummy and like my head feels so . it hurts and i feel icky and i think my organs are gonna explode and it’s awful

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im always gonna be like. a stupid dog

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they have to Kill Me

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my throat is so dry . perhaps if i stopped smoking for ten seconds…No…i cant test this right now .

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and i shouldn’t have stayed up what the fuck is wrong with me

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my stomach hurts and my head hurts and i don’t want to be awake but i stayed up too long and now im not tired anymore

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need a place to scream!!!!!!! i just wanna die

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i fucking hate the way that i am <3 i am so sick of it

[birdwatcher-butch]

sucking on someone's fingers and they say fuck you're so good and start pushing deeper into your throat? and gripping your jaw so they can fuck your mouth properly? taking their fingers out and rubbing the tips of them on your lips? smearing your spit and drool everywhere? then pushing down your tongue with their thumb so you open your mouth nice and pretty for them to spit into it and then thrusting two fingers in to fuck it deeper? i certainly think so

[okaywhatthefrick]

i really need to die

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the fucking anguish the anguish the anguish i need to die