golden state mind

good things never last //

[yuplydia-deactivated20150305]

Parties were definitely her thing.She’s probably laughing from the grave.

[okgriff]

Laughing at all of us, most definitely. She was a ...card, that's about the nicest thing I can say.

[judepatterson-blog]

What we can do about it is change the way we act and hope for a better future. Right—and you’re not going to the memorial, right? I thought you two were friends, but I understand not wanting to go. It’s a downer.

[okgriff]

That's asking too much from a town where Celeste had her nails burrowed under everyone's skin. Right. 'm not even though I kinda feel obligated to--I think staying home is best. Yeah, we were friends, but just 'cos we were doesn't mean I have to go. 

[kkkrpt-deactivated20150331]

Well, I guess I was wrong. There is a bit of intelligence left in this forsaken town.

[okgriff]

I live to please.

[judepatterson-blog]

I wish I was surprised, but people being shitty seems like a natural thing now. Yeah, I mean, I’m going, but I’m not exactly looking forward to it. People are too… hung up on it. Like you said, I’d wish they’d remember her life instead of her death. I feel like it’d make it easier on her family and everyone. Not my place to say anything, though.

[okgriff]

Death isn't something to remember, life is. But her life was a party and I guess that's what they're trying to mimic. The best thing for everyone is to stop thinking about it. What happened, happened and there's nothing anyone can do about it, but they're just making themselves feel worse by drowning themselves in this sea of emotion and sadness and it's physically sickening but you're right, it's not my place to say anything either.

[yuplydia-deactivated20150305]

She was… my sister, but yeah, I understand where you’re coming from. I don’t see the whole thing in a party either. She would have caried about the head count more.

[okgriff]

Yeah, I'm sure she would've. She liked parties, that was her thing. To be frank, I'm sure she would've loved this, the whole town under a massive grey cloud over her. 

[margotbye-deactivated20150226]

I think I will leave town for a week or so before all hell breaks loose. I may even consider visiting my crazy old aunt just to skip this stage of Nova Falls.

[okgriff]

The grieving stage? Yeah, it's a bust. The whole town is in a funk 'nd I just feel bad for not spending my time crying or reminiscing.  

[okgriff]

And that’s fine. Not everyone is going, and the people who are going want to go. Well, at least I hope. I’m pretty sure some are only going for the free food and alcohol. It’s a little fucked up, but not much surprises me anymore.

'm not surprised. Everyone's a little fucked up, they always have been. Memorials seem pretty shit anyways, everyone's wearing all black and everyone's somber as fuck. It doesn't seem like that's what you should do in order to remember someone who has died. It's too negative, too depressing. It's like everyone's remembering her death instead of her life.

[okgriff]

It’s a closer for her friends and family.

Yeah, I got that, but it's dragging the whole town into a funk. She was my ..friend, too, but you don't see me talking about it non-stop or getting excited about the food or the decorations. I just don't get how you mourn or remember someone by practically throwing a party. Sure, she may have liked it, but I just don't see how it helps. Whatever, to each their own.

[okgriff]

've never been to a memorial nor do I ever plan on going to one. It's nice to honor the dead 'nd everything, but I don't fuck with it. You've got people all dressed up and eating nice food for what? For someone who isn't there to partake in the festivities? I dunno, do whatever you want, but it doesn't seem like the best thing right now. 

[okgriff]

yo it me im back 

so let me give u the run down on griffin here

Did you hear about GRIFFIN SINCLAIR? I heard he was a STUDENT, and Celeste’s PROJECT, but I’m not sure what the truth is anymore. Speaking of, I heard he's usually DOCILE and RESERVED, but can also be OBSESSIVE and WEAK-WILLED, but I guess that’s why they’re called the MARIONETTE. I know they’re only 18, but they resemble EVAN PETERS a bit though, don’t you think?

he is the marionette and that basically means that he is submissive and a lil pussy ass bitch tbh or at least he was???

The thing with projects is that you must start and finish them and that's exactly what Celeste did. Griffin was her project: one that she started and finished and then left to be graded by the rest of the world. In his eyes, Griffin was just a mule. He was just a naive, innocent little boy that she found worthy of her time and she turned him into a puppet, strung together by low self-esteem and the hopes of being recognized by the girl he's been in love with since he was eleven. Naturally, it wouldn't be a surprise that he catered to her every whim. The love was obvious, he would've done anything to make her happy, especially since it seemed her happiness was only temporary. It was clear as day that Celeste didn't reciprocate his feelings, she was only in on it because it reminded her of a 90's movie, She's All That. She wanted to be Freddie Prinze Jr. and turn an ugly duckling into a beautiful swan, which she did successfully. From black and white to bursts of color, Celeste painted Griffin's world with all the colors of experience and manipulation. He did things he would have never done before if it wasn't for Celeste. He turned into a monster: a cold, dishonest, manipulative, vicious and violent monster. This person was never who he wanted to be and he blamed Celeste for it. The argument they had during the night of the video was one he will never forget. Now he blames himself. 

that was a quick lil summary and basically 

he knew her as a child they went to the same school all their life 

he was in love w her cos who tf isn't in love w kaya scodelariosdfhsdkf i mean c'mon get real

he was the quiet kid, very reserved and he always kept to himself

a bit of a loner tbh he did his homework and read books in his free time and pined from his windowsill 

when celeste finally acknowledged his existence he was over the moon 

he did everything she asked for even if it meant stealing or lying or dealing drugs whatever it was she asked for - he did

she turned his entire world upside down and turned this lil ol' baby into a monster

he started slacking off in school and started lying to his parents and going out to parties and being really reckless?? 

and he was in love with her too so when she brushed him off once her project was over and done with

he grew really obsessive cos he did everything she asked for and he loved her and really cared about her but obviously it wasn't mutual

so he started blaming her for all the bad shit in his life cos she created this new person 

the night before th evideo something happened and they got into a really nasty argument and he finally confessed hsi feelings for her but then recanted them and called her all these mean names and said something he shouldn't have and now he feels guilty for it ever since

yeah :))) 

now he's back to his semi normal self, he's quiet again and keeps to himself 

he feels really bad about celeste and would do anything to go back to that night

he's a bit distant with his feelings he doesn't show them tht often cos it's a sign of weakness to him and one thing he never wants to be again is weak

he also refuses any help from people and thinks everyone is out to get him

idk he's weird i'm still figuring him out but that's just the basics!!!!

please come plot i don't have a connections page just yet but i will put one up ok pce n blessingz

[okgriff]

i can't think of an ooc tag so it's just gonna be ooc cos i'm extremely unoriginal and currently in the midst of doing my face up for a hockey game tonight ((i'm trying to get the goalie to fall in love w me and take me to prom :))) 

anyways i just wanted to thank the lovely admins of this roleplay for accepting me and giving me a chance to play a muse that came to me in the short nap i took before applying for this!!

anyways i have so much to say about griffin and i have so much to tell you all about who he is and how he acts and how celeste has made an impact on his life it's a whole big thing i swear but w/e we'll get through it together!!

ok so yeah i have to go now but i will be back at 9ish?? to give you all a lil taste of griffin  ;) )))) )))) 

o an d also my name is nico nice to meet all you lil cuties!!!!

[kylesspencer]

[notyourangelsz]