it has been, 10 weeks since.
23rd feb 22 is when everything ended.
Itâs raya now. Everything feels different.
this break up is the most shittiest I have ever felt. I relapsed so many times while he was âbusyâ with his so called work and flirting with his so called âfriendâ.
So much thoughts ran in my head.
Was Taufikâs break up makes him think he could also have time to reconsider all this?
Took him 6 years to realise we werenât worthy of it?
He posted monoloque band since we broke up, like, he canât even spell it right. Apparently, itâs âtheirâ song.
How tf he has time to flirt around AFTER the break up? Itâs only few days/weeks since theyâre together.
The fucking audacity of him posting shit through his WA stories like a happy couple while in IG stories playing victim. Said that to consider my feelings but damn how manipulative can you be.
Friends have been sending me pictures and been asking me as if I was still with him because of what he posted.
Quotes? Emojis? Selfie? Anjung Saujana lunch? Iron chef birthday celebration? Bukit Beruang Highway? Paloma? Cinema? The list goes on....
I hope he can be man enough to announce his soon to be fiancĂš. Itâs not fair for her.
I have a gist that this girl might be someone who works together with him, maybe someone from MS - Serasa. Whoever she may be, I hope she did not leave him when things get tough. When things get ugly. When things goes south.
Lastly, I just hope he would heal fully before clinging to someone and make family with them. You do not want to have a toxic family thanks to his shitty behaviour.
Itâs suffocating. Itâs annoying. Itâs toxic.
But, I do believe people strive to be a better person everyday.
After all we have been through seems like a lost cause.
I found out a lot of things in return, what a disappointment from one after another.
and I almost married this man.
I wish we could have ended it in a better way. Not through phone. Maybe one last hug would do. One last dinner too. One last laugh even.
It seems like he has drawn the line and disrespect this relationship because he already had another.
Disrespect to my family, to my parents and to me.
Disrespect of not confronting them
Disrespect of not being fully honest
Disrespect of these memories of we have build together for the past years
The first thing he asked when he decided not to continue the relationship was
âCan we still be friends?â
I havenât even processed everything and yet he asked for that.
Few days later, he has someone else.
Going on about âGodâs planâ
RIGHT.
Lelaki di duga bila dia ada segala-galanya.
Perempuan di duga bila lelaki tiada apa-apanya.
Hope youâre happy.