Sweet Disposition

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Hello! and it's 2026?!

Wow, it has been awhile I shared anything here. In 5 years, so many things had happened. Lemme summarise how it went! 2023: - Had my contract signed with Yayasan - Umrah with Mami, Embah, Embah, and Ayra 2024: - Wasted my time with shitty Ustaz. Caught him cheating after tahajjud. Bumped into the scandal in the gym. Caught him cheating again with my friend. Allah works wonders in any way. 2025: - March: Getting serious with S - April: First meet during Ramadhan - May: He gave me BND 300 for my birthday and our family's first meeting "merisik" without him. - June: Engaged. Nenek got warded. - August: KL with Mami and S to find wedding stuff and family fabric. - December: All Malaysian families flew into Brunei for Majlis Malam Berbedak, Nikah and Sanding. Honeymoon in KK (By car). 2026: - Feb: Pregnant, iPhone 17 for my husband. Surprise birthday for my hubby and Aiman. - April: Raya, My hubby stayed for 6 hours before departing for work. Decided to have an open house in Bandar for all fam on the last day of Raya. - May: S planned to have a fine dine at Braai/KK Trip for my birthday, but didn't cancel any of those cause his allowance was on hold. He said to spend his money, but I didn't spend a lot. My first Gawai celebration at Pandan, KB. - June: Second week, Nenek passed away. Rumah Nenek doesn't feel the same anymore. Got my ultrasound for gender. My BP isn't looking good. My hormones are in a whirl. So yeah. That is all as of now.

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it has been, 10 weeks since.

23rd feb 22 is when everything ended.

It’s raya now. Everything feels different.

this break up is the most shittiest I have ever felt. I relapsed so many times while he was “busy” with his so called work and flirting with his so called “friend”.

So much thoughts ran in my head.

Was Taufik’s break up makes him think he could also have time to reconsider all this?

Took him 6 years to realise we weren’t worthy of it?

He posted monoloque band since we broke up, like, he can’t even spell it right. Apparently, it’s ‘their’ song.

How tf he has time to flirt around AFTER the break up? It’s only few days/weeks since they’re together.

The fucking audacity of him posting shit through his WA stories like a happy couple while in IG stories playing victim. Said that to consider my feelings but damn how manipulative can you be.

Friends have been sending me pictures and been asking me as if I was still with him because of what he posted.

Quotes? Emojis? Selfie? Anjung Saujana lunch? Iron chef birthday celebration? Bukit Beruang Highway? Paloma? Cinema? The list goes on....

I hope he can be man enough to announce his soon to be fiancè. It’s not fair for her.

I have a gist that this girl might be someone who works together with him, maybe someone from MS - Serasa. Whoever she may be, I hope she did not leave him when things get tough. When things get ugly. When things goes south.

Lastly, I just hope he would heal fully before clinging to someone and make family with them. You do not want to have a toxic family thanks to his shitty behaviour.

It’s suffocating. It’s annoying. It’s toxic.

But, I do believe people strive to be a better person everyday.

After all we have been through seems like a lost cause.

I found out a lot of things in return, what a disappointment from one after another.

and I almost married this man.

I wish we could have ended it in a better way. Not through phone. Maybe one last hug would do. One last dinner too. One last laugh even.

It seems like he has drawn the line and disrespect this relationship because he already had another.

Disrespect to my family, to my parents and to me.

Disrespect of not confronting them

Disrespect of not being fully honest

Disrespect of these memories of we have build together for the past years

The first thing he asked when he decided not to continue the relationship was

“Can we still be friends?”

I haven’t even processed everything and yet he asked for that.

Few days later, he has someone else.

Going on about “God’s plan”

RIGHT.

Lelaki di duga bila dia ada segala-galanya.

Perempuan di duga bila lelaki tiada apa-apanya.

Hope you’re happy.

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It’s time to take your photos of the wall and change your name on my phone from “Baby” to “Don't drunk call”

Typing up texts that I never said So much left unsaid, feels like it’s gonna choke me dead. 

I still miss you, but I don’t miss us.

I’m sorry for the way it ended but ending it baby not so much

I kinda want you to know how I'm feeling I tell myself I got good intentions But what's the best thing that comes from mentioning Have you been good? Have you been well? Have you found peace within yourself?

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My heart is full <3

Last min prep from them. <3

From L to R: Syir, me, Izzy and Masy. Look at Masy still wearing CCA’s shirt. ESCAPE! ;’D

9th June 2021, Wednesday.

After everyone’s schedule are cleared, finally we met. These are my kids that I tutored English in 2020? My memory is deteriorating ISTG. Only Syir got her Eng, the rest need to try again. Masy got into MD where as, Izzy and Syir still waiting for IBTE. So, Last week, Izzy got a job at Froyo and Masy had exam. It was a full week and we couldn’t meet cause of that. I just recovered from my fever.

THEY’RE SO THOUGHTFUL AAAAA my precious kiddos. I pray may Allah ease their journey to find their interest and be the better version of them now <3 

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Linked In

Damn, I just realise that my Linked In is too exposed lmao. I need to get a proper photo for my DP too. Damn. sneljkdfhlskdfhikljsh

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Next step?

7th June 21,

St George’s Sch called and asked me to signed contract with them for the substitute job. I’ll start next month, May Allah ease. 

My kids in SAS dmed when I posted this. Lmao They said they might even drop by the sch cause it’s close. Cuties already grad to Yr 8 now. <3

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31st May 21,

It’s my late birthday post y’all. Nothing special this year, got sick and can’t really enjoy my birthday as is. Prepared 10 slices of lamb and I only ate two. Appreciate all the effort shlammie did to make it happen. Didn’t even get a cake but feels more content turning 29 this year. He got me airpod, white heels that matches with my Gucci Marmont bag. Loooooves! <3

I also get special post from my students’ greetings and posting my birthday photos at their socials <3 2021, wasn’t so bad at all. I guess. 

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As I am writing this

It’s the 4th day of raya at the moment and I just got my first mechanical keyboard. Keychron C1. I’m testing it out hence why I’m typing a lot. Um, what else? I did an interview in St George before raya and the results are coming out in two weeks. So, yeah. Wish me lotsa luck. 

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2021 first post

Hi Tumblr! Sorry for deserting you out. Maybe I skipped a whole 2020 in this post. Let me summarise you what happened. I did not regret for travelling so much in 2019. I quit my GD job. My mental health declines. Got a new substitute job here and there. Pandemic happened. Lockdown happened. I couldn’t recognise my students. There were many of them in a class. I taught Yr 7-11 in one and half year. Healing again. Most of the students recognise me. Did a lot of activities in the school, get acquainted with the teachers and students. Played Among Us with the kiddos and PUBG. 

do I really grow up? Idk. 

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PORTFOLIO: CONTENTS THEME/SITUATION RESEARCH IDEATION DEVELOPMENT PLANNING REALISATION EVALUATION PORTFOLIO ASSESSMENT RUBRIC

PORTFOLIO: CONTENTS THEME/SITUATION RESEARCH IDEATION DEVELOPMENT PLANNING REALISATION EVALUATION PORTFOLIO ASSESSMENT RUBRIC

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keshi - more (official video)

Said she want more 

I'm not enough 

Getting low and I think I'm giving up 

Baby come home 

I want us 

I want us 

 Said I gotta Get money, swear I still love you

I don't wanna go but you know that I have to 

Touch road, gotta play shows 

Crowd go wild for the shit I wrote 

But this shit so-so 

Lose control 

Gotta change up everything I know 

Better, run ways when you smell that smoke 

Better, hold me when my head gon' blow like 

 Hasta la vista 

Dying to see ya in a dream that I had 

Where I sing in arenas Hasta la vista 

Dying to see ya Baby it ain't so bad 

When there's nothing between us 

 Said she want more I'm not enough 

Getting low and I think I'm giving up 

Baby come home I want us I want us 

 Gone so fast All the bad habits 

Not gon' last Better run back, kid 

Just so sad Worse than last year 

Just might crash, just might crash 

Just might 

Everybody left except for you and i 

She don't want stories and lullabies 

She don't understand that it's do or die 

Said I can buy it all but it's all a lie 

No trade for the things I lost 

No train for the boy that stopped 

Run ways into these arms of mine 

No trade for the things I lost 

No train for the boy that stopped 

Run ways into these arms of mine 

 Said she want more I'm not enough 

Getting low and I think I'm giving up 

Baby come home I want us I want us

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LiSA 『紅蓮華』 -MUSiC CLiP YouTube EDIT ver.-

Kimetsu no yaiba’s opening soooong by LiSA is crazyyyyyyy- Can’t wait for the Train arc coming soon. It got delayed due to the covid19 :( but on the other hand KNY first season is on netflix already!

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Haikyuu ost: Above

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BURNOUT SYNDROMES - Hikariare

Season 4 opening ost! HIKARI AREEEEEEEEEE-

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BURNOUT SYNDROMES 『PHOENIX』ライブ映像（TVアニメ「ハイキュー!!TO THE TOP」オープニングテーマ）

this is my second fav! amdljkbsfblaskfdkash.k i can’t get enough of it. Can’t wait for season 4 part 2 this july. I don’t want them to end arghhh

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BURNOUT SYNDROMES 『FLY HIGH!!』ライブ映像（TVアニメ「ハイキュー!!セカンドシーズン」第2クールOPテーマ）

I recently watched Haikyuu anime and god damn this song brings up that motivation that i have lost since January. Also, I wanna play volleyball because of this. lol. 

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Bokuto for laifu. #Haikyuu