3 of the 33 scenes that make up buckets
Shall we just watch TV then?
I’ve seen all the good ones.
Shall I put some music on?
Come on, let’s go to the park.
Are you sure you don’t want to play again?
We could get an ice cream. Or something to drink. How about a milkshake one of those malt ones they do at that place you know where they mix in chocolate bars and it comes in a huge metal
Oh! There’s that thing you know at the community centre with the giant statues.
Well what do you want to do?
I don’t know. I don’t know I don’t know I don’t know I don’t know I don’t know.
We’re wasting time. We finally have some time and we’re wasting it.
Well then let’s do something.
I don’t know you don’t want to do anything I suggest.
We didn’t plan anything. We should have planned something. We should have planned something and we didn’t.
It doesn’t matter we just need to pick something now that we can do.
It’s too late. It’s too late to do anything good. It’s too late. It’s too late.
‘A Cruel, Uncaring or Absent God – The Indefensible Suffering of a Terminally Ill Child’.
It’s maybe a little long, for a headline.
I mean the piece is beautiful.
It’s articulate it’s honest it’s specific it’s moving it flows it disarms you it’s even funny in a couple of places and at the end I was genuinely brushing away tears.
But it’s not what I asked for.
I just thought maybe, when you saw it done this way
I wonder if you’re doing this just to spite me
What we want – and you know this, but I’ll say it again – what we need is lists. People like lists. They share lists. And when they see lists, in their Facebook feed or whatever, they click. They come to our page, we show them adverts, we get paid. That’s it. That’s the whole equation.
‘Ten Things I Learnt From A Dying Girl – Number 7 Will Change Your Life’. Then rewrite the copy as a list, one strap-line for each point then two, three pars underneath, plus images of course or least some pretty credible suggestions, an animated GIF somewhere if you can, and make number 7 something about living for the moment, do it now because tomorrow might not come, it’s not the number of breaths you took it’s the moments that took your breath away. Kind of thing.
But she didn’t say any of that.
She doesn’t have to have said it. It’s not just about her. Put yourself in the story. What did you learn from her?
I didn’t learn anything from her. She hasn’t changed my life. She barely spoke – she can barely speak – she’s not stupid but with all the drugs and the pain she can barely think straight let alone form lucid cogent arguments about the meaning of existence, and I mean she’s just not sharp, mentally, she’s hardly had a day’s schooling in years.
What about serenity then? The inner calm you can find in the face of immense suffering – whatever experiences life deals you, you can take it well you can take it badly
She’s not serene. She twists in pain. She grimaces. She cries. She’s moody, uncommunicative, fidgety
Acceptance? Knowing that death is inevitable for all of us sooner or later?
She doesn’t accept it. She thinks it isn’t fair. She’s dying far too early and she knows it.
Well help me out here. Find a different list.
I could break the illness into 10 stages?
What about a bucket list? Every dying child has a bucket list right? ‘This List of Ten Things Cancer Girl Melly Wants To Do Before She Dies Will Make You –’
‘Names have been changed’, don’t use her real
And she only has one thing on her list – she wants to get better.
…OK I could deal with the things I didn’t know about childhood illness. About paediatric care, the difficulty of getting the right diagnosis, life in a children’s ward, –
Things that made you angry. Things that aren’t right.
The lottery when it comes to which drugs you can access – which trials you can be part of.
‘Thirteen Shocking Things I Learnt…
‘…When I Made Friends With A Dying Girl’
‘Number Six Will Make You Want To Start A Revolution.’
I hate it. But I’ll do it.
Good. Decision. First thing tomorrow?
You should come for dinner. Both of you.
I’m on your side you know.
You have to accept the world as it is. Play the hand you’re given.
I don’t get it why do you do this?
What’s the point? How do you win?
You don’t win. You just build stuff.
Games are meant to have a purpose. A goal. It’s competition. You compete against other people or against the game or against yourself even but the point is you either win or lose. You achieve the object, or you die trying. This is stupid. There’s nothing to play for.
You’re right I don’t get it.
You use it for moving soil or water or lava or milk.
I suppose it’s a bit like building sandcastles.
But that has an end. It ends when you leave the beach, or when the water comes up and washes them away.
buckets is available as a play text from Nick Hern Books
buckets is at the Orange Tree Theatre from 28 May 28 to 27 June.
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