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Thank you HAHAHHA! bener ya gue random dan gajelas?:“( tapi tetep cinta kalian semuaaa. Aamiin ya rabb untuk kalian juga ya! Thanks a lot, you’re the best!!!

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Who can imagine 8 years later i revisit you final resting place 😇

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Galauuuuuu. abis ngitung2 rencana pensiun 🥲

Pengen pensiun dini woy tapi uangnya manaaaaa😭😭😭

Mungkin ga yah YaAllah 5-10M itu. Ga gede kan kalo dibandingin sama korupsi pejabat 😭

Yang susah memang mempertahankan gaya hidup yg sekarang sama kaya puluhan tahun ke depan 🥲

[ordinarygen]

Buset kenapa plan buat seneng2 jadi banyak, tapi ko kaya capek juga ya. 😞 sebenernya w ngapain? It is so sudden I am feels empty, what am i looking for? What am i chasing?

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Semarang 2018

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2018

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2017

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2016

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2015

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Jember 2014

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2014

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The more I am digging myself trough the old photos, the more I realized what an amazing life that I had 🥲

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Do u ever feel like the first happiest feeling like you had the achievement that makes you the happiest but it only for a week then the storm came.

Damn

Did it makes u feels like is happy everlasting ever exist?

Did it makes u doubt and suddenly hoping, is it gonna be a storm if i am this happy?

Then being happy just a moment then numb again.

And suddenly bam you are just happy and cant process, can i be this happy? Can i? Am i deserve it?

Like im so.tired, but when it comes why am i questioning it?

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Lo ter ter deh bang @rexorangecounty tiap tahun lo lonser w nonton deh wajibbb. Konser solo paling berkensan 😭😭😭

Gimana ya paling personal, his song was there when i was in the dark, doing the thesis, internship, some fam struggle, me struggling in myself, work. You were there so im not feeling alone in this world as the eldest daughter 😭👊

Istilahnya kaya naadin di konser ini semua aku dirayakan woyy😭😭😭

Malemnya apa gua beli lagi ya tiket day 2 anjir sebuah pemikiran impulsive yang tidak dewasa. Eh masih ada jualan merch di pp doi juga kesana, yaudah ke pp aja. Mayann kualitas merch nya bagus qualitynya. Menemaniku selalu commute bekerja kemana2 huhuhu

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Think i've never accepted myself until i can forgive my parents, famjly, myself. Im tired, can i resign from life. The thing that i most fear about is living long to 90 80 70 60 50 40 30. I am waiting it and i want it so much. Or maybe God have another strange happiness for me when i reach 50 60, o god too long. The last time i was so happy happy cant believe the thing was when I attend rex concert, its like all the stress, sickness was celebrated in there. The new kind of happiness feeling

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It's hard to accept that sometimes I always different than everyone else.

So that's why I am not aceepting myself yet

How come?

Then I didn't get why I always end up friends with someone out of my league, they're fun, our jokes match, but there's always something I cannot related with them, and I wont confirm it, I dont want they know.

Is it like, am I a liar?

I am not honest with myself.

They have their richness, their love life, their privilleges from their parent. And I am not, and I wont admit it, and I am not proud with it.

Can I go as far as I can?

Can I just sleep forever?

Is there any happiness left for me? So that's the reason why I live longer than my friends? I hope so.

The last thing I was the happiest was, when I am in the concert of ROC, it's like all of the darkness in ny thought was being celebrated in there. :").

Is there any more happier moment left for me than that? Oh God, if not please let me in 27 club, I begging.

[teejseventeen]

Believe in yourself aggressively

[non-ducor-duco-woman-deactivate]

I'm gonna post this every single morning.

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Thank you <3

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Tiap hari tiap detik kan mendekati hari H kematian yak. Harusnya bahagia ga sih karena mendekati?