We are a system of about a dozen, and have been making drawings and comics about it since ~2020/2021. Bodily in our 20s. We primarily share our art on Instagram but wanted to branch out to posting here too!
Headmates are listed below. Some are more active than others.
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Individual blogs and more info below the cut! Thanks for reading!
Main (we like from this account): @smogbody
System reblogs: @smoggysys
Other art account: @smogbody-draws
Some of us have personal blogs just for reblogging, those of us that have them are listed below!
Train of thought comic from ~January 2025. Thought it was a good first post here! Transcript under the cut.
Comic depicting 2 headmates, Aimee (host, purple) and Trigger (red).
A: ...Do you think I'm faking?
T: ... ...you're asking ME that question?
A: i'm sorry
A: i'm so sorry. i'm so sorry. i'm trying to get better with the denial but it's so fucking hard
A: I'm just so fucking ashamed to be this way, I wish I was normal, I feel fucking crazy
A: and I know that's not fair to you guys and i know it probably sounds stupid because what's not normal about me is what you are
A: but I wish I was normal. I wish I could handle life without cracking into pieces.
T: SIGH I wish I was normal too.
A: ...what?
T: I wish I was a normal dude. Not some dude in someone else's body, not part of a whole, Just one normal fuckin guy. ...I guess I wouldn't have my horns, my ears and my tail, but I'd wake up in my own body. It would be the right shape + size. I wish my boyfriend was real too. I wish I could actually hold him. But I can't. And if I was real... he wouldn't be. So... I'll put up with it.
T: But... enough about me. Obviously you're fuckin going thru it, so let's talk about it. What's wrong?
A: You're... being really nice right now. You didn't even make fun of me or anything
T: Yea, well, don't push your fuckin luck.
A: Sorry. I just... what if I got it all wrong? What if I'm just daydreaming or something? I made it all up?
T: ...OK. Let's roll with it. Say you did. So what?
A: huh?
T: Therapist said if this is how we experience life, then that's just how it is. It's real to us. Even if it ends up being for just now - it's real rn. All this shit you're worried about - it hasn't always been this way, it's a semi-recent development, sometimes it goes quiet, what if it's "daydreaming" and we're not a "real system", not "really plural"... What does it matter, if it feels real? It's our experiences. Your experience.
A: It matters because of this. This account. What if I've been lying this whole time and weaseled my way into a place I don't belong? What if I'm not like these people at all and I'm just pretending I am because...
T: Because what?
A: I DON'T KNOW. I don't know. Because I wanted people to see my art? Because I'm lonely? Because I wanted to make friends?
T: OK, pause. 1 - none of those things are inherently bad? And 2 -
T: I thought this account was to share the art we've made, about the shit we experience in our lives... life. That's how we've been using it. Sometimes we make silly shit, but everything's real to us. And... I think it's real to you, too. I think you're just scared to admit it.
A: I get... embarrassed looking back at some of the stuff you guys post.
T: And why do you think that is?
A: Because... Because it's stuff that I wouldn't post.
T: Well. That comes with the fuckin territory, doesn't it?
A: It... sounds kinda dumb now that I wrote it out like that.
A: And I get... scared to post, too. Maybe because it's too real and too many people are seeing it, and also because I don't want the people I know IRL that see it to think I'm fucking nuts.
T: I get scared to post sometimes too. For the same reasons. A lot of us do. It's the built-in shame hitting us hard.
A: ...I'm scared that it's my shame affecting you all. ... I'm really sorry.
T: Mm. All we can do is keep fighting it as best we can. Idk if it'll ever stop but we'll just keep trying.
A: ...Seeing people leave comments saying they relate feels good... validating.
T: Can't get those if you don't post.
A: ...Yeah. ...
T: And those posts that get those comments, you didn't make them up for Instagram. They're your real experiences, right?
A: ...yeah. They are.
T: Cool. Case closed. We keep making art, we keep working on the shame, we keep talking to our mutuals... our friends.
A: ... I'm scared.
T: yah. I know.
A: How do I fight it when it seems so big?
T: Hmm. Step one: post this shit.
