Like the striving of a moth towards its flame

S || he/they || over 21 || under 18s DNI eroticism of violence sideblog

[pain-after-dark]

About

- You can call me S (he/they)

- Masculine or neutral terms please (cock, ass, chest are all good for body parts)

- I don’t care much for gender but I’m some kind of guy adjacent thing in the context of sex and violence, queer boything if you please

- Unrepentant transfeminist and leftist, don’t come here with your transmisandry shit

- I’m over 21 and ask that you only interact with this blog if you are 18 or over

- Follows and likes from straight-to-the-pain (mostly sfw whump blog)

- Aroace in theory, bisexual in practice

- Sadomasochist, vers/switch but I tend to bottom

- Sexy violence enjoyer, you can expect torture and noncon content on this blog, don’t like, don’t interact

- Irl I keep it consensual and risk aware so you can safely assume that posts which don’t reflect this are purely a fantasy (clarifying because I know some people love to assume the worst on here)

- Into: torture (especially as interrogation), noncon, military shit, uniforms (especially boots), latex + leather, knives, guns, pain, humiliation (although I am not easily humiliated), eldritch monsters (think tentacles and weird goo) etc etc

- Trying my best to tag by theme and content, if you want me to tag something pls ask and I might do it

- I welcome asks and interaction but if you send me unsolicited nudes or homophobic/transphobic bs you are getting blocked

[lambslayer]

If you don’t want me to piss inside you after I’ve filled you full of my cum then do you even really want me?

[eerie-discordant-archives]

Good afternoon, I seen the job posting? Living Weapon— yeah, that’s the one.

I read that there would be good benefits? Yeah, the ad said you’d provide me with a polycule.

Really? They’ll show me there is more to life than murder and it’s gay?

Shut up. Take my resume. nOw. Right now.

[pain-after-dark]

Dreamt that I was getting fucked on the floor of a cleaning supplies closet and then the cleaner came back and was like wtf are you up to and we had to run away cocks out…

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Kind of obsessed with the femdom fujoshi who interviewed me for a research study and then gave me her Instagram handle

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Taking public transport to a hookup so you can experience the covert eroticism of sitting on the bus with a plug holding in the loads that have been fucked into your ass

[hard--byte]

Hi did you end up doing an interrogation scene I’ve been imagining what you might be getting up to all weekend :) also headshaving anon might be onto something because I got my hair cut short again and rubbed my hand over it and got a bit hard so. Congrats -💉

i did! i was going to make a post but honestly... once my body hit the hot springs after, i totally forgot. i'll try to sum it up because we were there for like two hours and it was tech involved lol

so on the way to our camping we went to one of my favourite local abandoned spots, where i knew it would be quiet. we set up in one of the upper floors. nothing crazy, just used a chair that was already there and some of our restraints from home. super late at night, super dark, super quiet.

in my backpack, there was a charged laptop. just an old one from our junk pile that i'd flashed with a new OS and a long passphrase only i knew. no biometrics. no charger either so he had at most a few hours... i did say this thing was junk. the flag he needed to find lived in two places: my head, or on the desktop. the reward if he found it matters only to him, so, just know he really wanted it. also he knew the gist of what i was cooking beforehand, so he brought his own tech too. basically he was trying to get the password out of me, or break into it.

i ended up getting all manner of tortured: edged and hit and shocked and photographed and threatened. i'm pretty fond of being shocked. almost worked. almost.

sorry to say, but this time he never found what he was looking for. he ended up tripping the drive encryption i'd set up if he tampered too much with the laptop, which locked it down further, and that made him very very mad at yours truly. so he stopped trying to break the laptop and started trying to break me. i guess he kind of still won because he got to fuck my ass. but. i win.

i hope that answers your question lol

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Listen, I cannot be the only freak here, who else has gotten off to academic writing before?

Yes obviously some academic texts are just incredibly horny

No wtf are you on about I am never horny about academia

Voting ended onJun 30

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I’m technically vers but I do think it’s quite funny when people find out I’m bi and immediately ask me if I top women and I’m like no. Definitely not.

[starbound-mutt]

grinding the butt of my rifle into someone instead of stepping on them because they haven't earned the privilege of being under my boot

[maxxie-or-smth]

i'm not even a top i just want to hurt people

[hard--byte]

Aw I missed your birthday :( I’ve been busy with work and personal problems tm but your blog continues to be a delight as always. Interested to hear more about the interrogation play you referenced -💉

aw dont worry, it was just any other day to me. i hope things are (or will be) okay for you! i am glad you stopped by.

once we get around to doing it this weekend i'll be sure to post about it. i'm cookin up a challenge for him.

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I am weirdly pleased with the fact that guy I hooked up with said he thinks I’d be difficult to humiliate like yes I am getting a good grade in having no shame something which is both normal to want and possible to achieve

[thefighter2-deactivated20200212]

dude shut up. i know how to cum i just dont feel like proving it alright

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Friend is pushing me to get into martial arts fr and I’m like so tempted but I am dyspraxic and unfit and anxious. But also like. Desire to grapple

[st1txhs]

"smile for the camera" as i'm snapping polaroids of you laying curled up sobbing, smeared in blood, piss, and cum, completely broken with a dull, disassociated look in your eyes still full of tears.

[etoilefawn]

being a punching bag for your owner but in a very non traditional way. you don't get to just stand there and take their hits. you're expected to put on a fight, to try and protect yourself or even try to hurt them, knowing full well that they twice your size and that there's a shock collar around your neck to disarm you if you got too close to succeeding. even after you've lost all hope and know that you can never win, they will force you back up to your feet and spur you on to fight back, just because it makes bending you over after so much more satisfying.