[pan-w-ftm]

Trying to act like things are great when everything is falling apart.

[pan-w-ftm]

In a weird sense, I kinda understand how some may feel someone transitioning is kind of a death and a birth. I would never stop my life partner from being who they are but I didn’t realize how hard it would be watching the person I love physically become/look like someone unfamiliar.

The shape of their loving face I’ve become so accustomed to seeing the last 7 years-so different. Their body that I knew ever inch of-an unexplored terrain. Their loving eyes that stare into my soul-sifted but still holding the same love I’ve always seen.

I know he’s still the same person and I want him to be happy more than anything in this world. I just didn’t realize how hard it was going to be to watch the physically person I’m so familiar with change so dramatically and it’s only been a few months. What do the next few months/year hold?

I love him so much and stand strong by his side as my mind wages a war with my heart. My mind seeing someone who I do not know while my heart knows exactly who he is.....my world!

I am so overwhelmed with all the changes but I want to be on this journey with him regardless!

[pan-w-ftm]

How can the man I love look into my eyes and not see the pain he has caused?

I have been pushed aside, yelled at, ignored, made the feel wrong for who I am and how I feel.

Why is this stilll the person I love?

-stupidity

-lack of self worth

-more afraid to be alone than miserable

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[alwaysn4everalone]

On those days when you have a life partner but still feel utterly alone and like no one knows you!