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I was at water aerobics earlier today and a little bird landed on the side of the pool right next to me and was dipping it’s wings in the water. It was barely a foot away. It sat there for a good 3 or 4 minutes while we were all doing our splashy routines. It was totally calm. Then it hopped right in and splashed right beside me. Everyone laughed. I burst into tears. I was like WHO ARE YOU?! Tonight I will be present for something for Lydia. Tuesday is the free choir reunion - gathering of heavy hearts - in honor of Megann ɪŋk. Some friends/community members suffered an impossibly devastating loss last night. And in the past few weeks a friend and a close family member both received cancer diagnoses. The last time I hung out with Geneviève she said “This year sure feels like the end times.” It REALLY is absurd. So now I’m thinking about the things giants say to lemmings. Trying to remember what it feels like to have feet filled with thunder. I want to live somewhere where I can be in the water in the sunshine every day of the year. Where mamas don’t lose babies and babies don’t lose mamas. Six years ago today Natalie died. Her little boy Dillon hung out with Panda and I for an afternoon that week. A little bird kept flying circles around him. I wrote a song about it. I don’t believe in God or Heaven but I get why people do. I believe in little birds and shooting stars and swirling water. I believe the ones we have lost are EVERYTHING and they are always coming back for visits and splashes and they are in the cool breeze kissing my sunburnt tear streaked cheeks. A little bird did water aerobics with me today. I was like WHO ARE YOU?! It said I AM EVERYONE YOU MISS.

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