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I promise you, do the 'stupid' thing. There is nothing your reputation won't be able to survive from. Even if you're afraid you might look desperate, uncool, dumb, whatever the fuck all those people may say. There is nothing your reputation will not survive from aslong as you act with integrity. A person who stands tall, who does not reject themselves their humanity of just being human. I promise you that once people realize you truly and genuinely are not playing games and are as genuine as you are, they will ease up to you. If I don't want to do something I'll say no, if I do want something I'll say it, if I feel like smiling I'll smile. If I can't muster a smile I won't. I do not live this life to play a role.

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My Keurig decided to finally die today. I don’t think I can save this one.

I turned it on, the motor sounded weird and when I selected my cup size, it didn’t put out that amount. So I hit it again and suddenly there was water everywhere leaking from the bottom of the machine.

Ya know, it’s the last thing I have from my ex too that was gifted to me. I didn’t get rid of it because it had practical use. I guess onto new chapters.

RIP Keurig 2016-2026.

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I will say the World Cup stuff has been so fun to me. The fact Europeans finally realize Americans weren’t lying about our heat and we literally gave survival tips lol. We weren’t gloating about A/C.

But also the fact fans that did come are just embracing it all and having fun. It feels like having a big sleep over 🤣

The Japanese are just in awe of Texas and the fact they went to a Mexican restaurant and the horror on their face when they learned the chips and salsa are free and they were almost killing themselves trying to eat it all because in their culture if someone gives you something free to eat, you must eat it out of kindness. Picking up their own trash after a long game, then riding bulls in bars.

Then you have the Scottish in Boston embracing it with iced coffee and the fact they found the cop slide 🤣 I don’t blame them, I would too cause why did he go flying? 😭

I had 2 of the babies early this morning looking for food. 🥺 Just goes to show what all this recent developments have done destroying their homes. Houses were built within the last year like crazy and what was once a wooded area safe for wildlife is completely gone. Then people in town complain about them like YOU took their home. Do you think they magically disappear?

So I guess I have pet deer now. And the little baby squirrel that wants to be domesticated so bad….i always see it laying on our patio chairs on the porch first thing in the morning. It just lays there chilling and waiting. It always tries to get in the house. One day I have a feeling it’ll be successful.

Earlier today, I was putting out feed, and the one deer came out in broad daylight watching me. So I said “hey baby!!! You’re ok!” And it wagged its tail like a dog as if it was saying “yay the white lady called me baby!”

Tonight, it brought its little herd over. 4 of them. Peacefully eating. And then of course some car speeding drives back slamming their horn scaring them and making them run all different directions. 🥺 why do people have to be dicks?

Fuuuccckkkkk

I think my coworker likes me likes me and idk how to let him down gently. I just do not date coworkers regardless. Like nope never going through that again.

But he lives in Buffalo and we have a lot in common and I mentioned wanting to see that Masters of the Universe movie and so he said he’d make the 4 & 1/2 hour drive over to come see it with me. I thought it was just talk until today he mentioned he was going to the DMV tomorrow to get his enhanced drivers license so he can cut through Canada.

So then I’m like oh….😳 well I mean I’m flattered. Only one other person ever has driven that far to see me for just a day, and I’m like ok maybe it’s just being friendly. But then today he kept bringing up dating and joking how he was cute. And I’m like not that dumb to pick up it’s flirting. And so I really pulled back on my responses like hahaha gotta get back to work…..

It’s like finally having a guy who is willing to and it’s like “ok but why him, universe?” Not that there’s anything wrong with him, he’s the absolute sweetest but like we literally work together closely on tasks and I just ain’t gonna do it. I have a good thing going right now professionally & I don’t want to fuck it up.

Today is heavy.

3 years ago I had to make the decision to end my baby’s suffering and help him cross the rainbow bridge. He was my soul dog and I am everything today because of him. He didn’t have great health to start and he was saved from being euthanized as a puppy. No one prepares you for what it’s like to have a special needs dog but he was the most loving pup I could have asked for. He taught me patience, endless unconditional love, and a weird parental instinct I thought I would never have. I saw the world through a new lens with him. I learned to never give up even when it’s rough. He showed so much courage and resilience learning to walk again.

He had a rough life. An abusive home early on, an infection the man never took care of, heartworm and fleas once the vet took ownership, a broken rib, and then later developed bladder stones, disc disease, and his heart would eventually be his demise. He was diagnosed with an enlarged heart and no surgery could save it. It was a waiting game with a prognosis of anywhere between 3 months to 6 months. He ended up doing well on his medications and surprised everyone by living over another year. Every 6 months getting an echocardiogram and he was doing really well. Sometimes I wouldn’t eat because I spent all the money on his meds. He taught me to be selfless. Then, his heart just….failed. The funny thing is that animals know when they’re ready before we do. They just hold on for us.

It’s been 3 years but I swear it never gets easier. I love Georgette with all my heart but I feel Snick is the reason I even get to have her in my life. There’s still a void there that I don’t think can ever be replaced. He’s the only tattoo I have. I was always on the fence about it because what do you get permanently put on your body you’ll be happy with for the rest of your life? But he was a no brainer. I’m the hardest person to shop for so a year leading up to it, I just asked for donations to my tattoo fund to get his paw print.

Miss you love bug!!

When he first went paralyzed, he cried every night. It could have been from pain, I’ll never know, but I also think he was just scared. The pup who once could jump up and down stuff all day long and do zoomies no longer could even get up to pee. He didn’t know he was already going potty. I can’t imagine it not being scary. To calm him, I would sing to him every single night and he’d let out a sigh and slowly go to sleep snoring. It used to be this song and any Elton John really but he loved this song. We played it for him one more time the day of his passing and he was so relaxed. And I haven’t really been able to listen to it since. 🥺

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How much do I love my dog?

I love her so much that when she wakes me assaulting my face saying she needs to go potty, I wake up.

But beyond that, it’s thunder storming and it’s down-pouring. She went out, came right back in. For someone who was so aggressive to wake me up, I knew she had to go but was scared.

So I put her in her rubber ducky raincoat, and I put on my rain poncho and I went out with her so she didn’t feel alone. I lead her to the grass, with that visor she couldn’t see out of and yes she peed a great pee.

I was in just a nightgown underneath so praying the wind gods didn’t blow anything up for any neighbors who may be observing the brief craziness to see.

I love her so much, I’d risk having my cooch exposed in a thunderstorm so she felt more comfortable just to pee.

#forever my ride or die