Ordered by Master to update progress of my permanent de-hairing.
Some of you with whom i’ve corresponded or have had more direct contact with know that i have been required to go through an ongoing process of permanent hair removal. Not just any hair either. What i once considered my “man-hair” has mostly been taken from me permanently by means of electrolysis.
i once had what some considered a handsome and manly covering of hair… light brown hair that covered my chest, pits, arms, legs, butt, crack and perhaps most importantly my crotch. my thick, curly bush of pubes was a source of many hours of pleasure as i enjoyed tugging on it and running my fingers through it as i read a book or watched television. i knew that my bush above and my hairy inner thighs on either side nicely framed my genitals. i knew it was a look some men would be proud of.
i find manly hair can be very attractive and was assured my own covering of hair was found to be attractive by more than a few over the years. It was always a confidence booster for me… presented the outward image i thought i wanted and needed to project… that of a “real man”. Of course i realize many “real men” have little or no body hair and often prefer to keep their pubes well-trimmed if not occasionally shaved completely. Still, there was manly confidence i felt with my man-hair still intact.
The problem for me, though, was that the manly image i often wanted to project was not the reflection of my real, true self. In reality or at least in my private reality, i think of myself as a faggot which should not be allowed to fool others - especially Real Men - into believing i’m a real man.
Some of my earliest erotic experiences involved “forced shavings” after lost wagers tied to sports. Over time i found myself thinking more and more about the humiliation of losing my man-hair permanently… and how that would certainly screw the manly self-image i felt a need to change.
i first experienced electrolysis while researching forms of permanent hair removal. Those early experiences for me were in California when i felt free enough to explore. i probably thought it more a game back then, than how it’s become for me now. There are several different forms of electrolysis for hair removal, and i had opted for an approach which resulted in pretty fast overall clearing of hair but with a higher regrowth likelihood. That was the game for me… thinking i could go through the erotic intensity i associated with a form of symbolic emasculation, without absolutely permanent results. Actually the game was going through the process and gambling my man-hair somehow might still survive… all the while my secret craving for an element of humiliation was being satisfied. And by “humiliation”, i mean the humiliation of my masculine ego.
Fast forwarding to a few years ago… i had come under the influence, if not yet total control, of a strong-minded online Dom/Master who has a belief faggots do not deserve man-hair and should be kept in a hairless state… and better yet if rendered incapable of growing hair in the future. Discussions were had, understandings were reached, agreements were made and my fantasy submissions of a humiliation-craving faggot began to become day to day reality for me.
One of the first things i was forced to give up along with my man-hair were my jockstraps and wide assortment of sexy, masculine underwear. i had to give it all up at once… over a hundred pairs of briefs, boxers, boxer-briefs along with all the jockstraps which had served me so well throughout my active sports days. What could be more humiliating to my masculine ego than being required to wear women’s panties everyday? With the exception of a brief time earlier this year when i was allowed to relive the glory days of wearing manly white briefs, i’ve been a full-time panties wearer for years… something most who know me through work or socially might find surprising to say the least. Maybe it’s that “naughty secret” which makes it so exciting for me. i have to admit that wearing panties over bare smooth skin can be incredibly exciting for me now. It feels natural to me. Still, i occasionally have moments of envy when i walk past the men's underwear department in a store like Macy's and see some guy browsing for some new briefs or boxers or jockstrap... remembering the times when it was me shopping for manly underwear. Nowadays, that's considered contraband for me. Being caught in possession of any such underwear could result in unpleasant consequences for me. i just need to remain focused on how exciting it is wearing pretty panties over hairless skin.
i’ve gone a bit off topic here… back to my ongoing electrolysis sessions. Master is in direct contact with the electrologist and their specific discussions are not shared with me. i go in weekly for my appointments, and part of the ritual is having to strip down to my panties before getting on the table for my de-hairing session. Once my panties have been seen by the electrologist, i remove them and get up on the table. When an area other than my genitals and surrounding areas is to be worked on, i have to leave my panties on.
Earlier this year, i expressed some frustration to my electrologist about continued regrowth of many of the treated hairs. It seemed as if i was taking 2 steps forward and 1 step backwards each session. That’s when i was told of another approach which should be considered. It was the Blend method of electrolysis… it would be slower but would have a higher kill rate. Master felt that was the approach that was needed to make sure little if any regrowth occurred. Fortunately for me i have a fairly high pain threshold and the blend method certainly is less “comfortable” to endure, but for me it was not a problem at all.
After a few months, i came to realize the blend method is what i should have gone with all along. If i had, it’s likely by now i’d be totally and permanently hairless. As it is, my pubic region is absolutely permanently de-haired as if hair never grew there, and i’m now only 1 or 2 sessions removed from having a permanently hairless penis and scrotum. By the end of the year, my entire crotch (front side) will be permanently hairless, including both inner thighs to match my bald pubic area.
Some of you Men reading this may enjoy shaving your crotch on occasion and know how slick and erotic it can feel being so bare… but then your man-hair starts to push up to the surface almost immediately and that slick, smooth skin starts to show the stubble which if left unclipped will eventually result in a manly bush once again. In a sense you are lucky… you can be smooth when you want or you can go natural and take on a very different kind of imagery. That’s no longer an option for me. i’ll never be able to produce manly pubes again, my inner thighs now only have a very sparse covering of hair which won’t take more than 2 or 3 hours of electrolysis to finish off and even more humbling to my masculine ego is the realization soon i’ll never be able to have a hairy covering of my faggot balls. And you Men reading this are probably thinking, “totally appropriate for a fag”.
i still find my hairlessness humiliating, especially knowing it’s permanent. But, it’s also resulted in continual excitement for me even if combined with a measure of embarrassment. i know Master has already sent directives to the electrologist for the next area to be worked on once work on totally de-hairing my crotch is complete. i admit to being anxiously curious about what the next phase of my permanent de-hairing will involve. i believe the 2 most likely target areas will be my anal region and butt-crack or my underarms, either of which is sure to be something of a mind-fuck for me. Still, even if i had the option to pull the plug on my de-hairing regimen which is carefully monitored by Master, i probably would not do so. i have to thank Master for understanding my real needs and seeing to it that i come to accept my true status as a permanently hairless pantyfag.
i will provide another update on my permanent de-hairing progress once the current phase ends and the next phase is begun.
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