[CONTENT WARNINGS FOR THIS TUMBLR:
There will probably be a lot of blood and gore and terrible things happening to people. And teeth. Oh so many teeth...
I try to tag things appropriately, and if you see that I have missed something, please point it out so that I can correct it! <3]
I draw a lot of fan art, both for things I like and for people I like. This Tumblr will be full of it from time to time, mixed in with art for my own projects, characters, worlds and worldbuilding projects.
I love drawing things for others, and I will frequently do this for pretty much no other reason than because I like it and to show my appreciation, but please do not ask me to draw things for you because I'm generally very low on energy and will probably have to decline.
However, if I know you, you may tell me it would be all right to draw you art. If you have a preferred character of your own, like a fursona, by all means point it out to me. Let me know, and you will get on my mental list of people I might draw art for if I get an idea and have the energy to spare for it!
I don't take commissions, for any reason. No, not even if you ask nicely. No, not even if you offer to pay me. No, not even if you're about to propose to your significant other. No, not even if - you get the idea. I never will. Don't ask.
I tend to hang around strange fandoms, sometimes even for things I'm not into, and then eventually checking them out and getting into them. This happened most recently with Gravity Falls, through the Depravity Falls fandom.
Feel free to drop me a question in my askbox here and I may draw an answer to it!
For comments (not questions) use other channels, such as: twitter: Panterdjuret or Steam: Panterdjuret Thank you for visiting!
[Avatar drawn by the excellent Machinesbleedtoo (http://www.machinesbleedtoo.com), who you should seriously go to for all your horror art needs.]
“Did you think you could ever leave..? Don’t you know corvids belong on the battlefield?”
I... I was sure this one was on here, but I can’t find it anywhere, so I must have missed it? Anyway, here’s a very sad jackdaw Steward Sebastian comforting a dying Protector and also I’m pretty sure legs shouldn’t bend quite that way...
Also, this is ten months old, and I can see I’ve made progress since then, so that’s really encouraging!
A birthday present I drew for Swanbear! It's a hermit shadowkin inspired by his aardvark fursona Louie.
Canonically all hermit shadowkin have red eyes, but considering I created the species I figured I could take some artistic liberties with them for a friend, especially since I wanted to make it usable as a hermit shadowkinsona as well. <3
This currently makes Swanbear the only person beside me that has a hermit shadowkinsona, so it's actually a pretty good birthday present, I think. Even should I eventually offer these as adoptables or similar, he will still have been the second one to have one ever, which makes him super cool. <3
For an art trade with Swanbear who likes tea and likes tea a lot, of his aardvarksona Louie who also likes tea. I don't think any further comments are necessary, because tea!
Anyway, this was great fun to do and I hope to be able to do more art trades in the future. I learnt so much about aardvarks while looking for references of them and now I share the aardvark love, so that's really exciting. Expect to see more aardvarks from me in the future!
Since my public Twitter handle is Hermit Shadowpao after the hermit shadowkin I started wondering what a hermit shadowpao would look like, and I drew this. This is a hermit shadowpao.
It was the first time I thought that they might wear things they like to show more personality. This one wears things to symbolise the things I find most important in life: a bell (for music), a book (for reading), a teacup (for tea), and a feather pen (for writing). They have also painted the skull they wear with red markings, one of which is a paw inspired by how I sign things.
This became an accidental fursona, not that I complain.
Oh, I’m way behind on putting new art up, so here’s a drawing and a sketch of Steward Sebastian comforting a terrorkitten who is bewildered by winter and snow.
Drawn as comfort art, because good grief did I need some comfort art.
I did a reading of this fake ghazal I wrote once, trying to explain paolove to someone.
It was angrier then than hen I read it now. And my microphone is awful Also, while trying to record this I was constantly interrupted by cats, so that didn’t help. But there you go.
My Nanowrimo strategy seems to be: decide to draw something quick and silly for a friend, and then end up spending several hours drawing something like this instead of writing.
This was supposed to be a quick thing, then I started putting far too much work and details into it in the strangest of places, and then I started hating the sketchy lineart and now I'm just going to call it done and probably revisit it in half a year or so. I noticed I didn’t seem to have it up here for some reason.
So here, enjoy Tom being fed to a bunch of dogs, inspired by bear-baiting. While bear-baiting is deplorable and awful, I'm all for Tom-baiting, because it's decidedly not awful. Just release the hounds. Let them feast on his damn bones.
This is based on a story I still haven't written. The title is a quote from a person in it.
This is much funnier if one knows just how much Tom hated dogs.
I love poetic justice.
After I had drawn all those sketches of a bunch of Protectors being devoured by a giant terrorkitten, I told a dear friend of mine that I really wanted to draw a giant terrorkitten trying to devour Steward Sebastian, and he encouraged me. So I did it. Direct all your blame towards him in case you feel bad for this most unfortunate terrorkitten.
I have a lot of feelings about this thing:
One is that trying to draw consistent faces when one is truly faceblind and one can't even imagine faces (I really can't even imagine faces, and when I do manage at all they are in constant flux) is really bloody difficult. I think that with time I will be able to draw very good faces, but since I have no idea how faces work and can't imagine faces I'm not sure if I will ever be able to learn how to draw consistent faces. I hope that perhaps I can learn some technical consistence and learn how to 'cheat'. I'm starting to really like drawing human people as well, so I hope I can learn tricks to keep people recognisable. But since I can't even recognise most faces I'm scared I won't know if I get faces 'right' or not.
A second is: God, Stewards are terrifying and I'm not happy with how drawings and comics can't even begin to convey the sharpness in a displeased Steward's words or tone of voice. While I can't even imagine faces, I know exactly what Steward Sebastian sounds like. I can easily imagine and hear his voice in my mind. I know what his hands look like and all the small gestures he makes with them and how he holds his dear bone china coffee cups. And I know that a displeased Steward has a presence such that if this was an RPG their Presence stat would need their own rules and scales.
(I sometimes jokingly tell people that Steward Sebastian could probably single-handedly avert the apocalypse itself by just telling the Four Horsemen that mankind wasn't done yet and that they would have to wait for a while longer, and they would probably slink off in shame.)
A third: That terrorkitten should consider themselves lucky that they caught Steward Sebastian, who is old and experienced and very safe and secure in himself and his abilities and incredibly difficult to scare (one can basically only scare him by threatening other people; by the Council does he care about other people), and not some younger and more inexperienced Steward who would probably have taken a giant terrorkitten about to eat him as a real threat and gotten terrified and utterly destroyed them without warning. Steward Sebastian can afford to be reasonable and give warnings.
That terrorkitten is probably more than ready to leave in peace in the end, and is probably considering taking up the vegan lifestyle. I can't blame it. I'm terrified of Stewards and would rather eat my own leg than try to eat one of them. They're most definitely the scariest things in these woods, and I would never raise my paws or claws against one.
When I was doing the lineart for that last panel, my mind went: "It's not really 'bowing down' if you're just cowering in terror," which I thought was very fitting. One does not bow to an annoyed Steward; one just cowers in terror and try to let him know one has realised one's mistake and one will never repeat it and show with one's entire being please don't hurt me please don't hurt me please don't hurt me pl
Anyway, on the whole I really love this one and I will make a digital colouring of this eventually, but not now.
I'm glad to know that Steward Sebastian would not let the terrorkitten pose enough of a threat to come to harm. Steward Sebastian would care even for a huge monster trying to make a meal out of him. It's just the kind of amazing person he is. I love him for it as much as I'm furious at it working out for him, but it's not like his life is all roses and sunshine. He works very hard for it.
This entry is already far too long, so... I just hope you enjoy this short comic thing.
I just felt like drawing a huge terrorkitten nomming a bunch of Protectors. So I sketched about seven. Then I decided to just do quick lineart, just keeping it sketchy still. Then I figured I should just add some quick colour and then suddenly it was ten to eight in the morning and *internal screaming intensified*
I really enjoyed this. I'll make more. I still have a bunch to do lineart of. At some point I will add blood to some of these.
The Protectors seem much less enthusiastic, for some reason. They're not all that thrilled at being someone's next dinner; it's in their nature to not want to be eaten. Not that there is much they can do about it in this case. They shouldn't have seemed so inviting. It was their mistake.
This is still really funny to me. I'll never get tired of this.
I decided to draw a birdsona for a dear friend of mine. I also wrote a short description of them:
The Banded Sheely, also known as just the Sheely, is a medium sized, omnivorous bird native to North America. Known for its striking colouring of blue and orange with black bands it's easily spotted when it lands to rest on tall boulders or fence posts overlooking the surrounding landscape.
The Sheely often flies long distances and can do spectacular manoeuvres while in the air, letting it avoid bigger birds and fly through forests rather easily. The nest is usually built in trees and made of twigs, lined with mosses, grasses and leaves. It will also be decorated with things the Sheely finds on its long flights.
The Sheely has a very loud and piercing call and will sometimes suddenly spend long moments chattering in the treetops.
While the Sheely is not a bird to be considered aggressive it has very long, sharp talons and a very sharp beak one should not take lightly. The Sheely is a fair bird and will often strike down on those who mob other birds for suspicious or cruel reasons. For those who earns the Sheely's favour and trust it's a very loyal bird and it will defend them too, no matter of what species they are.
When I was a young pao I used to play the snake games a lot, and I always got sad when my snake died. And of course they died: it would just get more and more difficult, and more and more stressful and eventually it broke me.
I would stop feeding the snake and just keep the starter snake in a desperate attempt to try to keep it alive by not bumping into anything, and it still always died. I stopped playing them at all.
But now my dear friend Sheely has made the game I have longed for my whole life: It is called ‘Snuk’ and can be found over at this place, (I do recommend you try it out!). In it you can’t die; the walls are loop around and you can cross your snake just as real snakes can.
I started crying with relief and joy to finally be able to play a snake game again. A game where the snake doesn’t die. A game which will finally let me have a happy snake forever. ;__;
Thank you, dear friend, for making this. Accept this drawing, with my eternal gratitude. <3
Because a friend of mine asked me to put these publicly somewhere, so I’m just putting them here, even if it’s not the usual theme here.
One thing I really like doing is exploring in games. Sometimes this ends with me falling through the geometry of places where I was never supposed to go. Back in 2011 I was exploring the game Dear Esther (which is incredible by the way and you should play it if you haven’t already done so!) and I fell through the geometry after having walked against a fence.
I tried to reproduce it a few days ago, but it seems to have gotten patched because I couldn’t find it again. Oh well, I will find other ways to fall through the world somewhere again soon enough.
Since I have been told that this is a real, valid thing people actually do and not just me being strange, next time it happens I will take plenty of screenshots of what I find there!
I decided to try to draw a portrait of a human Steward Sebastian, considering he's supposed to actually be a human and all.
Still couldn't resist throwing in a hermit shadowkin youngshade on his shoulder, figuring that it wouldn't really be Steward Sebastian unless he had at least one monster around him.
I wish I could say it fits the mental image I have of him, but I'm faceblind (really, it's really bad), and I literally can't even imagine faces. I'm not joking. In my mind, people don't have faces. Not even friends. It's really strange, but just how things are for me.
I'm still very pleased with this one. I should really draw more human people.
A few nights ago I was hit very unexpectedly with overall high eight and head nine pain, which made me very sad and scared and upset. I was vomiting and feeling extremely nauseous and ill and very, very cold. I couldn’t stop shivering on the floor. I was worried I’d fall unconscious again just out of sheer pain. (This has happened too many times for me and it’s really scary.)
But a dear friend of mine on the other side of the world was awake and we talked and she helped me keep myself together for long enough to get through the worst of it so that I could take my painmeds and eventually go to bed once they kicked in and it felt less like I was dying.
I figured I needed to put all my immense gratitude down on paper somehow, and this is the result.
I was in need of some comfort art, so I did an experimental colouring of an older sketch, because I find Steward Sebastian very comforting and this is an adorable thing. If I was more of a Protector I would feel annoyed and embarrassed at liking a Steward so much, but now thankfully I’m not so I’ll just shamelessly enjoy every moment of it.
One of the things I've been doing a lot do to amuse and calm myself lately is thinking about a terrorkitten who has made their home in Steward Sebastian's Agency, and their adventures and misadventures there. I drew this thing based on the idea of them doing that normal cat thing of waiting for their human to wake up to feed them.
For some reason this seems so much more terrifying when the cat in question is a three metre long, venomous monster creature, but always trust a Steward to keep calm even when waking up to a massive amount of teeth an inch from his face.
Also, always trust a pao with drawing one of her fursonas in bed with a person/character she admires and loves and it still being entirely innocent. This will always amuse me too for some reason.