I gave you everything i had I ve loved you with every cell alive in me How white cells rush to heal an open wound Is how my love rushed to heal you. And it ended up being too much.. Somehow I ve mistaken affection for love and somehow it ended up being way too much.
Now I’m left with nothingness and agony, from the first day you left, 1407 days ago. You left with everything I had in me, you left before I could get anything back, even before I was able to say goodbye or at least one last “take care”
I was left with nothingness, all that’s left of me is dark matter in an immeasurable universe left without any star in it or any kind of light at all, You devoured me.
You were a Blackhole and my love rushed to Event Horizon while being devoured before I could reach you. I’m left here stuck in the center of the Blackhole in between universes where time does not exist nor light or love nor anything.
After our collapse instead of creating a supernova, you shut down and left me here stuck, you travelled to another universe while I was left between them.
It might be pointless to count nonexistent time in an eternity of numbness, 4 circles around the sun with everything completely different yet paradoxically the same Nothing is how it used to be yet I’m still feeling the same.
Nothing, just nothingness, ever since you left I wasn’t able to feel anything ever again. It might be the Pain of your absence, of not holding you, that covers any joy I might’ve had in all this irrelevant time.
Cause the only time that matters is the one you reappear, and all I could wish is for us to freeze here, so that I might again be able to escape the fear, that you'd stay a glimpse and completely disappear.
But still, even after all this time, I’m still here waiting for one last glimpse of you, for one more notification that never comes and for one last “Hey Stranger” because I guess you don’t stop loving someone…just cause it’s over
Oh How foolish can someone be when they see something through love. From love I’ve killed a plant once because I gave it too much water And that’s exactly how it might’ve been with you.
I wish I could escape you so that I could finally feel anything at all But it hurts way too much letting go since the only parts of you that I can still cherish are nostalgia and pain However it hurts even more keeping that position, since I gave it all to you when you asked me to, but some things I can’t fix
All I wish is “I could be the one that you call too much at 4 AM 'cause you can't stop crying Drive you home when you get too drunk and you say you're fine but I know you're lying I Wish I could be the thing you need and I could come and save you like before”. Oh, but I guess that’s not my job Anymore…
